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Tap…tap, tap, tap. Is this thing on? Hi! Hiiiiiiii!! I am supposed to be writing my grad school application essay, I have been saying that for six weeks, but I really have to get it done before s...

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Hi. I have group therapy later today and I have some pretty heavy shit going on in my life. I plan on not talking about it in group but I will come here to see if I can make some sense of some of...

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What is your secret guaranteed weeping movie? I keep a handful in my back pocket. Blackfish and Love Actually are my guaranteed go tos. Mostly Love Actually because Blackfish is just too horrib...

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I wrote this at the other place. I feel a little odd about all of this. I really want to beg you guys not to leave me and just tell me where you are going to be, here, there? Whats going to happe...

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My friend Rich gave me mug last week that said “Sober AF” to congratulate me for being sober for a year. I also got a beautiful pink/black/gold chip from George who leads a meeting called Paradig...

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I recently discovered that I am too hard on myself. I don’t mean that in an interview question answer type of way. I mean that in a I set really redonculous goals and never one at a time, like 10...

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Hi! I’m still sober! I love it. I am very grateful to be feeling the way I am right now. I drive, everyday. I even sort of like it. In fact some days I love it. I go to yoga, I meditate, I went t...

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I went to rehab. I have been sober for 41 days. I have learned more in the last six weeks than I have in the last 6 years. I feel good, nay great. But more on that later. While I was in rehab I h...

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Yesterday I snacked on 600 Day Prosciutto di Parma and a Hill Country Juicebox. This one sentence pretty much sums up my life.

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I have been working really hard on not being a self indulgent bitch and being a nicer person and more sincere and emphatic and less judgmental and all that fucking malarkey and it is really borin...

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All that was old is new. I have been feeling some sort of time shift. It is a little like traveling back in time but also being here and now. It feels weird. It is a combination of many little th...

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I just went through two boxes of old photos and it felt like taking a peek into someone else’s life. They are two boxes that I packed up and put away in like 2002 or 2003 and have not looked at s...

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Today I want to write about my mother. I am obsessed with her. I dont have very many framed photos in the house but 90% of the ones I do have are of my mother. I don’t talk to her very often, I l...

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I appear to be suffering from some sort of existential angst. Or paranoia. Or I am just bored with way too much time on my hands and just need to stop worrying about things I can’t control. But t...

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I am lonely. I have lived here for 5 years and I have not made any friends. I know people. I probably know more people than most because when I got here I very aggressively socialized in order to...

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I have been a creepy lurky lurker for a week on here. All silent and spying on your worlds! I have so many words swirling around my brain, like millions and I feel the need to spew them all out o...

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I am literally dying from drinking to much and it is making me drink more. It makes no sense but the only thing that helps me deal with the fear of dying is drinking. What the fuck is wrong with ...

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