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In the now...
Most of my writing is over in the Happy little depressed person book. I’m trying to transfer all my writing I did while I was in the hospital. I’ve deactivated my facebook. long story there. I’...
Hang on
I fell today. I fell fucking hard. See, these Born Again Christians stop by every once in a while, and they did today. Well, Skittles and Tyson were outside. I went tearing outside screaming “Do...
fault Lines
I’m tired. Tired of fighting with Pam, tired of fighting with my body, tired of fighting with complete strangers who think that I’m just looking for a hand-out. I should be at the ER. The pain i...
You have a point
Dear “deleted user” who said… I am in dent up to my eye balls, and I have a baby coming in 12 weeks. I would never beg online. Who even know if you’re telling the truth? I don’t know why this is...
I need some help.
I understand that people are tired of me having to lean on them so hard. I don’t know what else to do. If something doesn’t happen soon, I’ll be out on the streets. gofundme for medical bills
Post from March 22
*Trigger Terrorism** I am deeply saddened again by the news today. While I’m not directly affected by this latest tragedy, I feel things deeply (don’t all of us?) being an empath. My heart aches,...
Run
I’m being kind of obnoxious with my political posts. I just can’t help it. When I see “friends” condone hatred and violence and the horrible prejudice that a person who is RUNNING FOR PRESIDENT,...
Open Diary
Pam managed to get the files off of the hard drive that crashed and burned. That included my old diary from OD. I’ve been reading entries from 2006. I lost a diary somewhere along the way due to...
Devil Devil
Do not piss me off. I am not a nice person when I get pissed off. Next time I WILL break your door off the hinges. I may be small, but I am mighty. . Never in my entire life have I wanted a cigar...
Pain Told Love
I cut today. It was a rush, a release. I’ve been doing it more and more. I need it to center myself. My coping skills have gone out the window. Part of it has to do with the fact I cannot talk t...
Not About Dying
I have nothing in me today. I’m just doing things by rote. Cook breakfast, fill pill reminders, do the laundry. It’s the same thing day after day. Yes, I know. It’s part of being a responsible ...
All My Friends
I thought today was going to be a good day. I got to sleep in, Pam told me to stay in my jammies for as long as I want, I was going to color, listen to music. All the stuff that I never get to do...
Giving Up My Echos
I’m going to try to blog at least once a week. Not that I ever have anything important to say, but still. I should. It’s a good way to get shit off my chest. Finally got my pain meds (shitty med...
Music Survey
Music Survey Shuffle. Play. Type. THE PAST This explains your worst mistake. “High” ~Zella Day This explains what was going through your mind during your first kiss. “Lydia” ~ Highly Suspect T...
Wry
I think I need to write a few FOAD letters. I’m really pissed off about some shit and I think getting it out of my system will make me feel better. Dear L, How dare you question my ability to ta...
Muddy Waters by LP
We are kneeling at the rivers edge and tempting All the steps to follow closer right behind Is it only when you feel a part is empty That it’s gnawing at the corner of your spine [Chorus] I will ...
Violent Silence
“I’ll be fine. I always am” That is my go to phrase. I have no choice but to be “fine” I can’t take a day off. I work 6 sometimes 7 days a week. “Don’t worry, I’m fine”. The whole time I was cl...
The Rope
Every morning when I get up. I take my shower, then take my mask that is hanging in the bathroom and slip it on. I come out with a smile, ready for everyone to see that I’m happy. I couldn’t mak...
for anyone who colors
There is a giveaway that is going on. Yes, I get extra entries if I write a blog post about it lol I need to feed my addiction. I don’t have the money to buy the stuff (well I snuck a book into ...
First entry of the year.
I think I’m just going to copy/paste some of my lists from facebook. Backwards. 1/2/16 omg 1. I think I gave myself a chemical burn up my nose and throat. I inhaled vinegar fumes from the coffee...
Rant
<rant> Y’know, having a chronic pain condition is horrible. I know that I’m not alone when I say that I’m in pain 24 hours a day. A LOT of my facebook friends are in the same boat. But wha...
Stage 1a
Pam had to have a second surgery. This time it was pretty major. They took more tissue samples along with a bunch of lymph nodes. Follow-up appointment was yesterday. No cancer was found in the...
Cancer
And that is all I have to say about that.
Original "ology" from 2009
Ology of Me I tagged you because I’m hoping you’ll fill this out about yourself. I would love to find out more about you! Copy this, paste in a new note, replace my answers with yours and re-post...
An Open Diary "entry" I found.
Y’know how you can look at your memories on fb now? Well I found a gem of a survey from 2009. I answered the questions again. So here it is. I’ll have to go back and find the original and post it...
Book Description
A really boring look into my life.
