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Depravity of man
I do not understand anyone who would have a baby, gender be hanged, and then look at them later as something to be sold so that they could make money. Little kids that they make prostitutes, all...
They left
Jacob is severely congested. No fever, just congested. Abby has possible stomach flu. She woke up with 101 temp at 5:45 and it’s currently at 102.5 with vomiting. Mom had her knee replaced on ...
Continuing....
The need to document becomes bigger by the day. Within the last 24 hours Eric has said his kids were not worth the effort of having a relationship or even trying. The relationship is their respo...
lemon
You know that heinous face ppl make when they taste something sour?? Well, good. That’s how I feel about life and those hateful meme’s everyone puts on FB. YOu know what, go suck a lemon and N...
Yesterday
I’ve been looking for a stick. Something, anything that will help me fight my way out of this. Yesterday, I might have found one. I went to a local catering place to see about a job. Eric is b...
In a moment
Questions have been answered. Plans are shaping up. Now we wait. Time is on my side, but I still have to live in this moment for now. I hate my tumbling thoughts. I hate waiting to see. I h...
fact finding
Someone is on a fact finding mission for me today. A lot is being done quietly. A lot may happen in the next few weeks. A lot will depend on Eric and how he behaves and pulls this out. He lie...
sinking
The ship is sinking and so am I. I am having a hard time moving. I don’t care that I am hungry. I don’t care, really, if my kids do school work. I’m trying, but it’s just not working.
Resolve
The problem with going to my parents or even sending the kids to them is that Eric doesn’t physically see that the choices he makes are affecting us and hurting us. He needs to hit the bottom of...
Let it go!
So, that’s where we are. We are going to have to let our “stuff” go. It’s just “stuff”, right? Eric got a call this afternoon. He was working installing electronic stuff last week. Of cours...
The good/bad/ugly all rolled in together
Let’s start with the ugly first. I have a diagnostic mammogram tomorrow and then an appointment with a specialist on Wed morning at 10. I would appreciate prayers for that and that this is simp...
Kicked while you are down
Eric lost job #3. Amidst this, I started to have breast pain. I went for my annual exam (fun) and the doctor is sending me to a specialist. She is an oncologist which scares the puh-jeeesus ou...
secret
I deeply desire to send my kids to school. I have homeschooled since my oldest was 18 months old. I'm tired. I would really love to send them to school. But, I can't and won't. Another year ...
State of sadness
A friend of mine went Home yesterday. She was 46. She had a blood clot she didn't know she had and it traveled from her lungs, to her heart, and finally into her brain causing 'global' damage t...
disappearance
Where are you, my blog buddies? Where oh where are you? I am so sad that Robin Williams is gone. I have been suicidal in my life and I understand the deepness of depression. He was a brillian...
the annoyance
We randomly found a house we liked and with a reasonable offer and sellers who seem to be extremely motivated, we want to put in an offer. However, our realestate lady we worked with in the past...
Missing?
One of my friends on PB is gone. I haven't explored around here much, but can you block ppl? I haven't ever been offensive. I know she used this place to blow off some steam. She's pregnant a...
Looking for friends....
I haven't written in a while. Life has been overwhelming, to say the least. However, this is a straw for the camel's back. My sweet, tender hearted 11 yo is so lonely. She has written her "be...
the session
Counseling session today. We go back on the 7th. We have to list 5 - 10 top "triggers" for us. She asked what was the "tip of the iceberg". I said it was that I was being suffocated and could...
Best Friend
An older friend of mine posted on FB that her husband has passed away. I felt so sad for her. She said she lost her best friend. I hate it for her and I understand her sense of loss. However,...
Another one bites the dust!
Husband was working and now he is not. He was called in on Friday and told he really didn't fit the job. They sent him home. He was doing work he physically could not do. They told him to go ...
Part 2
I did have to send her a message and it actually went OK. She had another parent that needed to reschedule to Friday as well. So, it actually all worked out. She is really struggling with a br...
Tickling the ivories
I love our piano teacher, but I am fixing to unload about her. I am irritated and frustrated with her and frankly, she is fixing to lose my business. I called her today and to try and resched...
Lost and Found
HA! I found my husband's credit card. He has a bad habit of getting them and USING them on ridiculous stuff like McDonald's. He has a nice balance we can't afford. I found the cc tucked in be...
shhhhhh......
The kids are gone. Eric works a little different shift today and he is gone. The house is so very quiet. I would love to nap, but that isn't going to happen. I need to get busy with dessert a...
Book Description
That about sums it up.
