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I just got gut punched by what feels like an anxiety crash but I haven’t been awake long enough to have the panic part of things. I dont know what’s wrong with me. It feels like something is squ...
Dumb Tumblr questionnaire in 3 parts.
I havent done one of these in years but I thought fuck it, might as well. August 20, 2018 1: Name -Emilie 2: Age -23 going on 24 3: 3 Fears -Being alone in the dark -Spiders -Tengo miedo de per...
I. Hate. This. Fucking. Move.
I hate moving. I hate moving. I hate moving. I hate moving. I hate moving. I’m trying to calm down and not have a panic attack because there is too much that needs to be done today and I dont ha...
Home.
She told me last night that I was home to her. I could have cried. It made me feel so much better because I knew exactly how much it meant to her to say it out loud. How much it means to me. A c...
Random Thoughts
The words “don’t lose the other one” are going to be ringing in my head for days. I know she’s right but I just can’t make myself take the steps I need to to make it happen. What if it never doe...
Its all in the details, my dear.
It occurs to me mid story sometimes that when people as what happened or how things were or anything like that they just want the general information. Well when I tell stories I have a tendency t...
Finally
From Thursday until earlier today I was with protector the whole time. I finally met all the animals and some of his family. I finally got some relief from the stress and back pain and I’m just ...
White Noise
I woke up to a message my friend sent me last night that said “Past your bedtime little one” and I’ve been thinking about it all morning. Ugh. I’m sure he doesn’t even know but it was enough to m...
Headaches and the Struggle
Sometimes I forget all the fucked up shit I’ve been through in my life. People like to tell me that “you’ve been through more in x time than most people have been in their whole lives” and I’ve ...
I'm not fine at all.
Being in this house reminds me of you because I can almost see you sitting there, expressionless. I thought you were mad at me and I never figured out why. I talked and talked and you just let me...
I woke up about 20 minutes ago, barely conscious and confused, I checked my phone. 1:17. Well fuck I was supposed to be at my bosses house hours ago. Guess I’ll go tomorrow. I had a dream about ...
I had a few bad dreams two nights ago, one of which was semi lucid. I haven’t told anyone yet but that one is still fucking with me some. Like… More than I’m sure of. I can’t sleep. I want to bu...
I'm soul-tired, still, again.
Literally all I’m after is an “aww comere” or a “comere little one”. Why is that so fuckin hard? Ugh. I need comfort cuddles bad. You know the talk all night, I really know how you feel, you’re...
We only write by the moon.
Had a good day with Protector. We got Kane’s and then we both got new ink. He dropped me off at work with Grayson. Grayson, Brayden, Bentley and I hung out outside while Bentley played in the few...
Your mind has gotten the best of you.
Buckle your seatbelts, motherfuckers, because this is about to be filled with all kinds of shit that’s been on my mind and bugging me today. You know, it’s easy to forget what someone else is go...
Its 4am girl go back to sleep.
I called Boyfriend because I knew he was on his way home and I can’t sleep but once I started talking it all just kinda came out. I didn’t know how bad it had gotten until I started talking and ...
April 26, 2013.
I loved you before, I loved you after, and I love you now. The baby fever is something I’ve gotten used to… this powerful longing ache in my stomach on this day, though… It’s killer. I haven’t ...
Addiction
My friend and I were talking about addiction one night and the fact that I’ve never been addicted to any substances or anything. I looked to the sky, took a long deep breath and that’s when I rea...
A story I never wrote... a lifetime ago.
This popped up in my on this day page on Facebook from 2011… “As long as you’re breathing, I can save you.” It was from a story I never wrote.... never finished. Damn though, Does it hurt. Anot...
Let this be a lie...
Please don’t shut down prosebox… I came here looking for a new home after the fall of opendiary and I really don’t want to start all over again… Please. This is my home now. Our home.
Until then...
One of the most important people in my life was murdered February 13 and I’ve been struggling to come up with the words to write here about it. I still don’t have them. When I feel up to it I’l...
I should continue this
I just came up with the best line to describe Laeth and I am both super proud and disgusted with myself. It takes two to tango but only one of us was dancing with a loaded gun. I should write m...
I made you Battle Symphony for a reason
I don’t know if you check these or if you only read them when I send you a link but either way, stop reading. You know who you are and I’m not ready for you to read this yet. Seriously, I’m askin...
All my sins need holy water, feel it washing over me.
I think I just had an anxiety attack over a song…I didn’t know I could do that. How fucked up is my brain? I wasn’t really listening to the song or paying attention to it but one lyric caught my...
I wanna let you know how much I feel your pain.
“Legit of all the people in my life who I’ve shared an emotional connection with, you are one of the few that need not apologize for that.” Yesterday was such a hard day for me. I found somethin...
Book Description
Hello, All.
My name is Emilie. I’ve moved here from Open Diary and hope to be able to use this as a place to talk. I will write about every day things, thoughts, and things like that. I am going to try to write every day to keep a log of what I’ve done each day, but there are no guarantees. I forget sometimes to keep up with diaries (as anyone who knows me from OD can tell you).
I rarely posted anything that was Friends Only on OpenDiary and I don’t particularly plan to on ProseBox. I will if I need to though.
I’m posting an about me entry so If you would like to know about me, go ahead and read it.
