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<< he's not wrong. it's just not what i wanted to hear.
yeah so on fri. later that day I told evan about the whole. dr. time wating thing and he told me that if I would’ve stayed and waited then the next patient would’ve been waiting. and so on. um ye...
he' not wrong. i jut. it' not what i want/ed to hear. and dr.
yeah so on fri. I had a dr.s appt. which. didn’t happen. I mean I was there but she didn’t see me. I was there during 1:30 - 2 and my appt. was at 1:30. but.........I don’t know how long it was g...
jessica news.
so Jessica [my mentor for those who don’t know] is moving. the 20th. she told me this 2 wks. ago.
recovery update thing
o remember how, back last month the 10th I stated I was going to eat more. or something. well..........for like 2 wks. there I was. I was eating 2 things a day one being graham crackers. those th...
oh how the tables have turned. um. for months I was frustrated w/ evan bc he wasn’t doing anything. but now that he’s moved he’s doing stuff. he’s been to the gym he’s working on getting a job. b...
anorexia's comfortable.
well but at the same time not really. actually since I’ve gained [damnit] I’ve been more comfortable. no I don’t.........I don’t mean physically. um. otherwise. it’s comfortable to be stuck. it’s...
so like i put i'm at odds w/ evan. [again]. *really long, legnthy*
‘again’ cause for those who don’t know it happen a lot. so um idk. we’re both frustrated w/ the other. and i’m frustrated about the whole christopher thing so i’m projecting that onto evan and I ...
angerr. and powwer. ad purrpoe.
yeah so like I said i’m at odds w/ jessica. so on fri. we were talking about the christopher thing. and she pointed out to me his side of things. ok here’s why I don’t/didn’t like that. A: I alre...
so as I’ve talked about. christopher’s not moving quickly. moving as in out of the house. cause again they have to find a place that can accommodate him. yeah well I don’t like waiting. I usually...
um o. .......... E
so much happened and i don't rememberr a damn thing.
omygod. yeah so I don’t know if I’ve blogged about this or not. evan and I are having issues [again]. I don’t trust Christopher. um i’m at odds w/ jessica. regarding the christopher situation. an...
flu weight dr. depreion
yeah so like I said I got my flu shot. I don’t normally get them. it’s not a bad plan. I got the flu like..........2? yrs ago. it was horrible. I don’t ever get that sick. so now i’m all super ad...
it seems like a lot's happened since the last time.
I blogged I mean. which was um. i’m not sure but it wasn’t all that long ago. uh.........so thurs. I had a dr.’s appt. got a flu shot got my weight checked and she [‘she’ being the dr.] and I tal...
hair. ptd. coping.
yeah so again like I said. Hannah think I have trich. which I don’t and never have. but anyway. she told me it’s a coping skill. yeah. and I never thought about it until she said it. but even tho...
nicole, chritopher
yeah so christopher. might be going to the hospital today. and he might not come back we don’t know. also Nicole is having an emergency procedure. today.
telling people. *SA*
so for the past 2 months really I’ve been telling people about the SA. not the details jut that it happened. I told Mark, I told a bar manager I told Pat’ brother. when I told Mark i’d told him I...
so here's where we're at/what happened
so evan and I talked about it and apparently he was so drunk last night he doesn’t remember saying that. I asked him what he did say and he said he doesn’t know. I was hoping he’d know so that we...
I don’t want advice, or anything. I just want support. please. yeah so i’m 60 - 70% sure that last night while drunk evan threatened me. well except. there wasn’t a threat involved. no it sounded...
ok so here's what happened
I’m not sure if the entry showed or not but evan moved. yesterday, apparently. last night when he was drunk he called me and told me he wasn’t in CO he was in CA. [he’s from CA btw don’t know whi...
um. request.
Please keep me in your thoughts even those of you who’ve never read an entry of mine prior to this one. Thank you.
yeah so evan moved
I jut found this out within the last hr. [currently 9:35 here atm]. he’s in CA he’ll be there 3 - 6 months. um wow. oh and Mark moved before Halloween. he’s in AZ. um. wow.
recovery? idinno maybe
so last wk. I decided to start eating again. like consciously eating again. due to something Hannah brought up. I decided I was going to eat at least 2 things a day 1 being an actual meal. um. i’...
the thing i don't realise.
is that he already is who I think he should be. evan I mean. I want him to be sweet and compassionate and he is. just not all the time. and I want him to be like that all the time. things aren’t ...
er visits, chipotle, snow, christopher
so on fri. I went to the ER. ok so I went by the ER. it wasn’t for me. i’m still not clear on what happened. Jenn woke me up at 2:20 [p.m.] and said we’re going. so I got ready in 5 mins. i’m on...
introverts
so i’m an introvert not sure if I’ve mentioned this or not. I mention this bc for Christopher’s bday get together which was Sat. we had his family over. i’d just gotten back from being out w/ jes...
