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Feeling blah...
Having a kinda-sorta period, which Im not supposed to get. Took a med that makes me drowsy and did just that most of the day. Had to tell F because he got panicky when I didn't respond this morni...
so..some slightly disturbing things
First he decided I shouldn't go up Wednesday, which is okay..we've been spending more time together then ever before and. I will be there several days next week..so I was ok with that ..then he m...
An interesting bit of info..
Neglected to mention ..the other day F said offhandedly that his neighbor was cheating on her husband ..said his ex told him ...I asked how did she know..and he said that the private investigator...
Backhanded compliment...
F went to a family reunion yesterday and when we talked this morning during his break he mentioned how beautiful his 17 year old great-niece is.."Five feet tall, big, full breasts, you know, how...
Back from his house
Was at his house since yesterday late morning til this morning around 10 am. Yesterday we had lunch with a friend of his and then did house chores...helped him hang a motion sensor light, trim so...
Test results and other stuff
So, ultrasound was yesterday and some of the fibroids and my uterus overall are a little smaller, so that's good. And the cyst that showed last time has shrunk as well, but now I have an endometr...
So we talked (?)
If you can call it that..What he said was "I want it to be you and I want to build that up and I am not going anywhere." He doesn't promise to make romantic gestures ...says that's not him..but p...
So we still haven't talked... update...
And I'm feeling pretty lousy...Had a little text contact..He sent a "You ok?" at around 2 pm. I said yes, I'm ok... He told me he had a wake to go to, that a friend's father passed away. So I sen...
I would've
Placed bets that I wouldn't hear from F today, but the text tone rang when I turned on the phone. First a "hi " from earlier then a sad face. So I typed good morning adding I had just gotten up. ...
Speaking up..
Haven't been too happy with F, oh, since Wednesday ... Then after making a fuss about my going he tells me the get together at his sister's is family only. Now I didn't want to go but resented th...
So...Dr. today... UPDATED
Weird thing happened...the fibroid which has nestled so neatly under my rib cage for the past few years is...gone? It was a sizable lump, visible through my skin and certainly there if you ran yo...
well...
Hub noticed that my lips were swollen and chaffed..said something like, did you do something to your lip...I just looked at him...He got all red and quiet.. I just said, 'you wanted me to come ho...
Back from his house
Went just for the day. A mixed bag, as always. For most of the day we ran errands and took care of house chores. We watched a silly comedy that he likes, and it would have been nice if he'd hel...
Weekend...
So, I was at an event with hub yesterday, which makes F insecure so he texted almost constantly during the day...and even during the event, where no one could hear anyway over the music. Hub actu...
Intuition...
I knew F wasn't doing well, apparently before he did. He was pretty good during the day's calls/texts. If a slight bit "too" up. But by evening, he wasn't texting at all...and when I got the mes...
unease
F was a little "off " yesterday ..a little depressed ..think he was sorry he went home after breakfast ..he was bored and kept calling /texting. He also talked about still having feelings for the...
Breakfast
This morning I met F halfway between our towns and he took me to breakfast. And interestingly, hub freaked out. As F put it : "You spent the day at my house.You spent the night in my bed.But I t...
Changed my icon
It is now a picture of my paper journals about F from 1982 to present. Texted the photo to him, and his comment was that I need to start a new one titled, "How F has changed". And I suppose he r...
Don't know
What to make of certain of his behaviors? Calling me this morning because he says he needs to hear my voice and can't stand it that he can't talk to me on the weekends. Oh, and that he needs som...
assessment
His sister sent him a text saying she was glad to meet me and learn more about her mother. She said I was lovely and that F was lucky to have me in his life as I am to have him in mine. He said "...
Disoriented
It is just so strange to go from one house/man/life to the other..waking in the middle of the night and not knowing where I am. Went last night to a cocktail party (F's comment was "You got cockt...
A very nice visit
My trip to F's house went very well. I ended up staying over due to a combination of rain and too much wine. I met his sister and we spent the day talking about their mother who the sister never ...
So nervous...
I think I am mostly nervous about the drive to F's house and back. It's about 75 miles each way, and I haven't done this trip in like 9-10 years. Gotten kinda rusty at such a long highway drive,...
Hub knows about Wednesday
Well, since I had to change my hair appointment, it seemed as good a time as any to tell Hub yesterday that I was going to F's house on Wednesday. Didn't take it all that well... asked if I was s...
Titles are a real pain
Sometimes I have one, other times I don't, and it is annoying. Anyway.... Last night F made a remark because hub doesn't want to change the cell phone plan to "make it easy for him". So he scoffe...
