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I slept in again. I didn’t get up until 8. I remember having some weird dreams. I can’t recall them. It is probably a good thing I forgot them. Anyways. it is getting down to the wire. First of t...

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I slept in today. I didn’t get up until 8. I had good nights sleep with no weird dreams. I feel better today than yesterday. Anxiety was through the roof. I had an appointment yesterday afternoo...

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I have a doctor’s appointment today. I do not want to go. Anxiety is high. I feel a bit down this morning. I think this is one of these days where I don’t want to leave my apartment Feel very bad...

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Eight more days left in October. I did pretty good financially speaking this month. It is the last week of the month and I have $10 left. I’m going to hold onto that money for dear life. Been try...

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It has been a few days since my last entry. I haven’t had much to write about. I’ve been doing fairly well. On a scale of one to five with one being the worst I would rate the depression a 2 anxi...

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I feel much better. I slept most of yesterday . Despite that I went to bed early I had the weirdest dream. I was the President. I was at the UN giving a speech. I was saying that the three superp...

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I had a doctor’s appointment scheduled for today at 9. This was for the neurologist. Anyway I ended up cancelling it. I was up all night last night. I finally got some sleep at 7 this morning. My...

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Just sitting here waiting for my worker. I have the tv on CNN. They are talking about the election. Trump is going on about how the election is rigged against him. He is still going on about a va...

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I had a bad night with some nightmares. Thank goodness I cannot remember them. I was up and down a lot I was up for good at 4. I have been feeling very listless and doles this morning. I want to ...

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I am not doing too good. Anxiety is bad. it started creeping up on me after Chocolatechip left. I was kind of obsessing about the election . But now I am not thinking about anything. I just have ...

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I have been up since 4am. I’ve been reading. I think I will take a break from CNN today. I watched it all day yesterday. About all they talked about was Trump and his alleged sexual misconduct. S...

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I finished my entry. Chocolatechip came up for a brief minute. We talked and then she left. For some reason I got very paranoid or something. Conversation with my case manager was on my mind. I k...

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Yesterday was a good day. My worker came and she fixed a good breakfast of pancakes She did a good job in cleaning my apartment. Last week I phoned the agency and asked for a new worker. After y...

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I am up at 4am I feel a lot better today Yesterday I chilled out. I did not watch CNN or any news about the election. I listened to Celtic Woman on You Tube Those ladies always put me in a bette...

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Well I am above the dirt. Been trying to chill out today. I’ve been listening to Celtic Women on You Tube. I love this group. Whenever I am upset or feeling depressed I always turn to these ladie...

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I had a very bad night. All the talk about not worrying did me no good I could not help think that something very terrible was about to happen. Also had the feeling that I did something very wron...

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Well I am back. I forgot to mention that I asked for a new worker . This one agency I have is from Moundsville. They have a lot of problems getting people to work for them in this area. But the g...

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Chocolatechip went to Healthways and saw the doctor. He did not put her back on Abilify. He said her current generic med is the same thing. I was thinking he might do that. He did not change my m...

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I cancelled with my worker today Didn’t feel like having anyone in. I am feeling better now but still feel very down today. Depression just comes over me a lot of times. At times I do not have t...

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I am up. I didn’t want to get out of bed this morning. Felt like complete shit. I was up at 5 just laid on my couch. Must have went back to bed and before I new it it was 8:30 Anyways I am up v...

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I watched part of the debate. I thought Clinton did a good job. I agree with her on most of what I heard. Thought Trump was being his usual asshole self. One thing that got me was he said to Clin...

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I didn’t feel like writing yesterday. I spent Saturday morning listening to the news about Trump. It looks like he is in some deep shit this time. Even top leaders of the Republican party no long...

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I got up at the ungodly hour of 2am today. I tried but for the life of me could not get back to sleep. I played computer games for a while. A while back I downloaded this chess game from Microso...

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I am very proud of myself. I did not want to leave my apartment today but I made it out. Case manager was ringing my buzzer at 9. I told her I would be right down I gathered up my stuff that I ne...

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I didn’t sleep too good last night. I was up and down a lot. I was supposed to go to the court house today to get my address changed so I can vote. I think I am going to cancel. I just can’t get ...

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