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Saturday Morning
The weekend is here. I’m not going to dwell too much on Chocolatechip I’m not going to think about things too much. I have a lot of things to keep me occupied. I started reading a new book The Fa...
Friday Afternoon
My worker came today. I had a good time with her. She did breakfast dishes which just consisted of a bowl and a spoon The she cleaned off my counter top, After that she took me out to the bank. I...
Friday Morning
So much for vows. My worker came yesterday. She did a good job in cleaning my apartment. It needed a very good clean. I asked her to take me to Tudors. I bought two Ron Biscuits and two bottles o...
Thursday morning
I am up. I did a lot of reading yesterday. I finished Camino Island by John Grisham It had a so so ending. The insurance company for Princeton laid a trap for the book seller Bruce Cabot. The hir...
Wednesday Morning Part 2
My worker did not show up today. She called me said she had an issue with her foot because she went to the pool yesterday. She said she will make it to work tomorrow. I said ok. I was a bit bumme...
Wednesday morning
I got some sleep last night. I was up and down a lot but I got some sleep. I woke up feeling a lot better. I don’t feel as depressed and not as tired. Life seems pretty good. right now. I am bro...
4th of July Bad Day
This was a bad day I was up all night last night. Felt sick all day today. Laid on my couch most of the day trying to sleep. I couldn’t depsitye being very tired and very depressed./ Hope to God...
Check Day
I survived the weekend. I was kin fo tired of tv dinners. I ordered a sub and bread sticks from Fox’s pizza. I was pretty hungry since I didn’t eat anything all day. I chowed down on that food wh...
Another Bad Day
I am afraid depression got the better of me. I felt like hell yesterday I was so tired I didn’t bother to dress or shower. Thoughts of suicide entered my head yesterday afternoon. I thought what ...
Saturday Afternoon
This has been a doles day. Still feel down, very down. I haven’t gotten dressed at all. Seems like that much is too much work. I have been thinking about the 3rd and that is causing a lot of anxi...
Bad Day yesterday
I had a very bad day yesterday. Depression got the best of me. I didn’t do a damned thing but sit in front of the computer and played endless chess games. I had some bad thoughts thinking about...
This is my Birthday
Today is my birthday. I will be 66 years old. I am officially a Senior Citizen. Getting old sucks. I can’t walk like I used to. I used to walk all over downtown Weirton. I used to walk on the tr...
Therapy appointment
It is 3:26am. Went to bed way early last night. I got up around 2. I work up very refreshed this morning. I must have slept good. Yesterday was a good day. I finial broke down and had a shower. ...
Wednesday Morning Part 2
Well I am bsack. I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about my last entry. I mentioned that my worker offered to take me to Tudors on the 3rd and pay for breakfast. I said that would be nice. I’ve ...
Wednesday Morning
I had a good day yesterday. My worker came . She bought me a Ron biscuit from Tudors. We got to talking and she was talking about her gay son. When he was nine he was molested by a 16 year old b...
Letter
I wrote a letter to my ex gf yesterday. I apologized for this latest misunderstanding. I said that I loved her and will always love her. I told her I’ve been very, very depressed. I said we have...
Survived the Weekend
Weekend was pure hell. I was so depressed and lonesome. I didn’t talk to a single soul. I was I was very depressed and very anxious. I kept thinking about Chocolatechip., I kept thinking about fi...
New Day New Attitude
Went to bed very early last night. It is 3:26am and I’ve been up for an hour. I feel a bit better after a good tv dinner and a nights sleep. I got to do something to get out of this rut I’m in. I...
Feeling like hell
I tried to be positive in my last entry. I really did and my mood was a little bit better for a little bit. It did not last. I felt like shit all afternoon. I didn’t do a damned thing except star...
Saturday Morning I'm going to live
It is the weekend Big deal. I probably will stay in my apartment all weekend. Hell with it. Depression I was experiencing subsided. I had frozen pizza for supper. Eating always makes me feel bett...
Very Depressed
I am very depressed. I don’t feel like doing a damned thing. Worker came today and after she left I laid on the couch and sat staring at my computer. I am reading a good Stephen King book called ...
Friday Morning
Well I am up and faced with another damned day. My worker came yesterday. She agreed to take me grocery shopping. We went to Wal Mart. I bought enough food to get me through the fifth,. Order cam...
Thinking about finances and food
I have been up since 3. Finances and groceries have been on my mind. I have been thinking that I should buy more groceries this month. I would have to use my credit card. I can buy twelve tv din...
3am
I went to bed very early last night. I woke up at 3,. I didn’t leave my apartment. Worker came yesterday and she did a good job of cleaning my apartment. I talked to her for a while about breakin...
I'm back
This is my first entry in a very long time. I haven’t had much to write about. I am not doing very well. Depression is back with a vengeance. I broke up with Chocolatechip yesterday. I really fe...
