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Payday
I get my social security check today. The thought of leaving my apartment is causing considerable anxiety. I don’t like going out or being around people. I keep thinking people are talking about ...
Sunday Morning
I’ve been on the new meds Celexa for six days. It is working. I do not feel so depressed. One a scale of one to ten I would rate my depression a 2 along with anxiety and paranoia. Still have ver...
Budgets and Computers
I have been thinking about budgets. I will get my Social Security check of $649.00 Out of this comes rent $241.75, Comcast $140, Rent A Center of $128.25. This leaves me with $139.00 Out of thi...
Saturday
I woke up early today. I wrote a long private entry where I talked about my new diagnosis. Then I hung out with fiancé for a while and listened to CNN all morning. I took my trash out and sat ou...
Thursday Morning
Yesterday I was doing wonderful. I got out of my apartment Fiancé and her ex got together. We all went for a ride up to the Hancock County Senior Center also stopped at Tomlinson Run State Park. ...
Wednesday Morning
Well I am up July is almost over. I will be glad to see a new month. This was a bad month all away around. Anne got socked with a huge Comcast bill. Then Rosie called that name. I had a sever at...
Tuesday Afternoon
Well I got back from Healthways. They did not send me down state. Case manager came and picked me up at 9:30 this morning. We made it to the appointment on time. I saw the doctor first. Case mana...
Depression is back
Well depression is back. I had a good day yesterday. Depression hit me this morning. I didn’t want to get out of bed. I laid on my couch until 8 this morning watching tv. I finally forced myself...
Monday
My wake up call was 4 am. I woke up feeling pretty good. On a scale of one to ten I would rate the depression as a 3. Life is pretty good this morning. Of course my mood can take a nose dive at a...
Bad Day
I am having a very bad day. I feel very depressed. What am I thinking? I am a very bad person. I am a complete failure. My entire life has been a waste I am going to end up down state if I can’t...
Saturday Morning
I found this cool website that talks about many of the things I learned in therapy. They were talking about the five irrational beliefs that many people have The most infamous five include: 1 Mu...
Friday
Wake up call was 5am. I had a good night. I spent an hour reading. I am really enjoying this book about John Marshall. Life is good. I am feeling pretty good this morning. I think what cheered me...
Good Morning
I had a good morning. That visiting nurse came along with my case manager. First, case manager said that I have an appointment with my therapist at 9:45am on Tuesday. I also see the doctor. My p...
4:am
Wake up call today was 3 am. I had a good night. I turned it on the Golden Oldies channel and listened to music. Music always seems to help put me in a better frame of mind. I even did a little ...
On the Other Hand
I work up feeling pretty good today. I ended my last entry on a positive note I thought I was coming out of this latest bout of depression. I was wrong. Just as soon as I finished I started feeli...
Depression Part 2
1 I am above the dirt. 2 I have a wonderful fiancé who cares about me. 3 I have a place to stay. 4 I have food to eat and clothes to wear. 5 I have money for the meds I need. 6 I have a new heari...
Depression
It has been a while since I wrote anything. I feel like shit. been very depressed and last Saturday seemed to be the worst I felt in a long time. |I called the emergency on call number. They we...
Friday
. I don’t know what got into me yesterday.. Everybody gets down in the dumps but I was really down in the dumps. I had no energy and laid on my couch almost all day. I couldn’t look at my book mu...
Thursday
Depression really hit me today. I didn’t feel like getting up. In fact I laid down on my couch almost all day. I didn’t get dressed nor did I look at my book. Felt like shit. Depression hasn’t be...
New Month
I made it out today. We went to the bank first. I got my SSI check of $94. Then Connie took us to Wal Mart. As promised I gave my fiancé $70. I hung around Wal Mart while she did her shopping for...
Monday Morning
I was up since 3 today. I guess I am back to being a morning person. I didn’t read last night. I tried to watch tv but don’t remember what I watched. I think it was a Dateline episode My kid woul...
Sunday
I finished the first chapter in my book America’s Constitution: A Biography. I started the second chapter last night. The author, Akhil Reed Amar, was talking about Congress. He said that Congre...
Saturday Morning
Depression got the better of me yesterday. I don’t know why I get depressed for no reason. Sometimes a feeling over sadness just creeps over me. I felt depressed all morning. Fiancé came up and...
Friday
I missed a couple of days I haven’t been doing a lot. I finally finished my book America’s Unwritten Constitution by Akhil Reed Amar. I started reading another book by the same author America’s C...
Monday
Yesterday wasn’t so depressing after all. Fiancé came up for a while. She always cheers me up. I did a lot of reading in my book America’s Unwritten Constitution by Akil Reed Amar. I only have th...
