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Sunday morning
Three o’clock was my wake up call. I don’t mind getting up this early. It is nice and quiet and I can do a lot of reading around this time. I had a good nights sleep and I woke up feeling not as...
Saturday Morning
I am up at 3 this morning. I slept pretty good with no nightmares. I didn’t do too much reading. I managed to read one chapter in current book. Also I felt fairly good yesterday depression wise. ...
Friday Morning
I am up. I wish I can say life is good. I made it to my doctor’s appointment at Healthways. I didn’t say how depressed I have been. I did tell him anxiety has been high. I didn’t tell him about t...
Thursday Morning
I finished reading A Bright Shining Lie: John Paul Van and America in Vietnam. by Neil Sheehan I started reading another book American Founding Son John Bingham and the Invention of the Fourteen...
Wednesday Morning
I am feeling a bit better I talked with my therapist about my situation. He gave me some helpful insights. First he said the caregiver crossed professional boundaries. I agreed with that. I also...
Monday Morning
Well I am up at 2 this morning. I am not so sure how I feel right now I think I am in a state of numbness. I am not in the grips of an overwhelming sense of sadness, helplessness like yesterday....
Been Very depressed
A lot of things have happened since my last entry. Chocolatechip and I broke up . I do not want to go into details. I will say I feel terrible about this. Depression and anxiety have been high. I...
Friday Morning
I had pizza for supper last night. This was a big mistake because it gave me heartburn. I couldn’t sleep because I would have a flair up every time I tried to lie down. Then when I did fall a sle...
Thursday Morning
I survived another day. I didn’t do very well yesterday. My case manager came and picked me up at 8:50am. We stopped at the bank. I got money out for rent. I also got a cash advance for $40 for m...
New Month New Year
Well this is a new month and a new year. We have been experiencing bitter cold temperatures the last few days. This is the third and I have to go out in this weather. Case manager is taking me to...
Long Time
It has been a long time since my last entry. Things have been going good. I have a new caregiver and she is the hardest worker I ever had. She lives in the same building and there is not a proble...
Another day
This is another day and another entry. I got up at 1:am.today. I tried going back to sleep but couldn’t. I think I got about five hours of sleep last night. I’m not sure when I went to bed. This ...
Sunday Morning
I have not been doing well at all. Anxiety has been through the roof. I have been feeling very restless and on edge. I have been getting this feeling that something terrible is going to happen....
Wednesday Morning
I have not been sleeping very good. I was up all night Monday I couldn’t sleep to save my soul. I felt like a zombie the next day. Was very tired and miserable. I laid down on the couch to try t...
Monday Morning
I had a very shitty morning yesterday. Every bone in my body was aching. Also I felt so tired. I did not want to get going. I felt like shit. Then Chocolatechip cam e up for a while. She fixed a ...
Sunday morning
I had a good day yesterday. Spent a lot of time with Chocolatechip. We watched a movie together. I got a letter in the mail from Social Security. It was good news. I will not have to pay that $...
Bad Day
I had a very bad morning yesterday. I was calling my pharmacy to phone in a prescription. They told me that my Medicare was cancelled Shit. I had no idea about this. I said this is news to me. Th...
I am back again
It has been awhile since I last wrote anything. There have been three major things going on. First last month I proposed to Chocolatechip. She accepted. We were really happy . I called the Social...
Sunday Morning
Well I have my old case manager back. She came for a home visit Friday at 4 it did not go very well. I really got anxious when she was here. She kept asking a battery of questions. I can’t rememb...
Friday Morning
I had one hell of a day Thursday. Anxiety got really bad Wednesday night. I wasn’t thinking anything in particular. Then I started thinking about all kinds of crap. I was thinking about the usual...
Wednesday
I am up. Tuesday didn’t go very well. I made it over to the Social Security office. I didn’t get what I needed for recertification. The lady at the desk said she will mail it to me. In order t...
Tuesday Morning
Well I am up. Life is good. I had a very off day yesterday. I felt kind of anxious. Recertification is up . This is when we have to renew or lease. I have to get proof of income from Social Secu...
Monday Morning
Wake up call was 1:30 this morning. I could not sleep. Anyways it has been so frigging cold in my apartment Saturday and Sunday. They will not turn on the heat until November when we turn off the...
Saturday Morning
I have some good news to report. Chocolatechip and I are back together. It is a long story. We were chatting on FB yesterday Earlier I put a picture on my page. It said “Learn to walk alone it wi...
Friday Morning
I missed a day. Nothing much has been going on. I have been feeling pretty good with no depression or anxiety. I am going to bed early and getting up early. It seems that 3:30 is my wakeup call....
