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Sudden
I know it’s been a while, I haven’t really wanted to write anything. But something just happened and I needed to write all of a sudden. Earlier on today, my college class and I were talking about...
3/11/15
I’m very tired of living
Pissed off
I’m sick of being a really good friend, and being kind and understanding in situations that disappoint me or make me sad, when if it’s the other way around she’s no where near as understanding an...
Bad again
So it has been a while since I’ve written here. It’s been kind of awful but good at the same time. College had been going well for a while but over the last two weeks my brain has gotten worse an...
Emotional rant
I don’t want to let this beat me but it’s wearing me out. There are so many things that I’d love to do in life, for instance I’d love to start vlogging on YouTube about beauty and life in general...
Im alive
So, it’s been quite a while. Just really updating to say I am alive, don’t worry. I’m okay, I’m doing a bit better. I just haven’t felt like writing at all. Prefer to draw really
Lost phone
I feel so stupid for losing my phone. Ever since I lost it I’ve been feeling horrible. My phone is like my child, like it’s so damn important to me. My life is on that thing. Plus I can’t even ca...
Update
I was doing good for about 2 weeks and now I’m back to rock bottom. Don’t want to get out of bed, don’t want to leave the house, don’t want to get dressed, see people, do anything. Everyone’s irr...
therapy
I have to go to my 2nd counselling session tomorrow ( well second with this person) and the thought of it is making me extremely depressed and anxious. I really don’t want to have to talk to this...
breakup
Breaking up with someone who’s madly in love with you is so difficult
mistake
Oh god what the fuck did I just do
what is love
I’m not in love. I should be, I thought I was, I know how I should feel and I thought I felt it but I’ve just been thinking lately that this is definitely not love. I love him, that’s true, but I...
self {poem}
I’m crumbling into pieces and no one seems to notice I’m falling apart and no one will put me back together I’m drowning but no one will lift me out of the water The only one who can help me is m...
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I’m so tired of constantly hating myself. It’s exhausting. I just want to be slim. That’s literally all I want.
bad
Bad day. Very bad day. I just want it all to be over
not invited
Do you ever feel so isolated, that even your efforts to come out of isolation cause you to become more isolated? Does that even make sense? A college friend - whom I thought was quite a good frie...
nothingness
I’m so tired of this life. Day after day after day. The same constant worries which consume me. The horrible self hate. Wanting to sleep the days away. I’m sick of it. I’ve just had enough
2:30am thoughts
Do you ever have thoughts that you’re afraid to think? Like oh shit no I can’t think that or it might be true. Right now, at 2:27am, I am worrying about seeing my boyfriend tomorrow. I am wonder...
sex talk
Okay so I haven’t seen my boyfriend in a few weeks because he went home to his parents over easter and that’s too far away for me to get to. I’m seeing him on friday and we’re just hanging in his...
life
Since college started I’ve been feeling ljke I’m not very important to my best friend. Since she got these new friends it feels kind of disposable to her. Almost like she knows I’m not going to l...
new start
Alright so I bought an eBook to help with weight loss. Finally did something productive. It’s actually really good and I think I’m going to be able to do this. Fuck that I definitely will be able...
sex
Sex makes me very nervous. Partially because I hate my body, that’s a big deal for me. But also because of my lack of experience. I may have had sex before, but I haven’t touched a guy properly. ...
friends
Kind of sick of my best friend at the moment. She’s been a lot meaner lately. It’s almost as if since she got a new boyfriend she’s decided she doesn’t really need me so she can be as mean as she...
tiny entry
I’m lonely. There are so many people around me who love me and talk to me and yet I’m lonely. I’m exhausted all the time. I’m so sick of this
*hugs*
I don’t think you all realise how much your words mean to me. I wish I could hug all of you. When I first starting writing here, I thought I was just keeping a diary. But it’s really nice to see ...
