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wow my sister actually apologised.
so earlier today. i don’t quite remember how, or want to. but the subject was brought up. by my sister. the subject of evan having, as she put it, ‘lived’, w/ me. er ‘moving in’/having ‘moved in’...
sorry rather. on the 4th of may 2013. yes there we go. well right. the day after the OD. evan made me bacon & eggs. i was up between 7 a.m. and 9 a.m. that day. i got ready and well i. went t...
if anything, i owe you.
he told me that once. evan when we were talking about the night i OD’ed. [or as he calls it ‘the milk night’.]. yeah cause i told him something. about me owing him. apparently it was one of the b...
so i found some letters.
actually. it was a composition book of a few letters i’d written evan back in spring of 2017. the last one i wrote was in may. may 7th actually. it was his suggestion to do so. he’s never read th...
well fuk. evan memories.
so. i had an entire entry typed up about. my wk. the past wk. but then. when i went to save it...........pb went to the log in pg. so. and i don’t like repeating myself. um. i’ve calmed down a bi...
so evidently. what happened back in may 2013 was drug poisoning. which makes sense why i was crying. i’m not someone who cries a lot, if i’m in pain so...........also i think i was just. really c...
7 yrs. well. actually.
not quite. tom. it’ll be since here it’s the 2nd. um. it’s been almost 7 yrs. since i overdosed. od’d on wine and pills. benadryl. and lately..........i’ve been thinking about evan a lot mainly c...
from the 12th - the 18th
so on the 12th. i did my laundry. mon. - wed. i. didn’t do anything. thurs. i went to my mom’s. via my mom oh yeah i went to starbucks that day. fri. i was at my mom’s. we had panera. no not went...
so. i asked my mom. and.
i somewhat forgot where i left off. right. so. i asked my mom. and. she also thinks my paternal grandmother was an alcoholic. i might’ve mentioned this prior sometime during my time on here. like...
i'm sorry, what? come again?
which is a weird expression. but i actually kindof like it and am getting used to it. um. this. has to do w/ the stupid virus thingy. so a little over 2 wks. ago i’d heard. from my mom that when ...
rehab. and um. sober recovery.
no not me. well. now that easter’s over. ya know..........i’m not a big easter person. i’m not religious and don’t have kids so. nor do i want them or am around them a whole lot. i still think. a...
so. i did a thing.
first. some backround info: my late paternal grandmother d. 4, 5 yrs. ago come oct. for those who don’t know. [and if you didn’t then. wow. not like i’m one to talk about not paying attention cau...
from the 29th - the 4th
so. i didn’t blog about my wk. last wk. bc well it was a holiday. it was april fool’s day actually. i’m not a prankster. um anyway. so sun. the 29th i. did my laundry. mon. - wed. i. didn’t do an...
family history. and civil rights.
so. this might be hard. for some reading this to. digest hell it’s hard for me even though. i don’t know any of the details. well i am of. british descent mom’s side. and way back when in the 160...
family history.
so. as i’ve probably mentioned. i’m not of portugese or greek descent. sorry. to have mislead people. no that was ancestry. com’s fault. i thought i was and then. on the website that changed acc...
medical tape. and shampoo. TMI.
actually i’ve already written about shampoo so. so. i think. that i might actually be allergic to medical tape er well standard, medical tape. which of course i bought, at the dollar store. the w...
so idinno.
Patti she’s a housemate of mine i’ve mentioned her before. she is low functioning. she doesn’t talk to people she talks at them cause she’s not able to actually hold a conversation. anyway so due...
oh thank god. well.....yes and no.
so apparently. Support the co. that Naya and the lady work for. is closed. which means. a. i don’t have to feel bad about cancelling another house meeting when. there hasn’t been another one sche...
my sister. and um.
so this was something. that was going to happen a month or 2 ago. but then didn’t. [like i’ve said i’m behind. i’ve just not stated that recently.]. well so a month or 2 ago. my sister was going....
the virus thingy. and protection.
so at whole foods uh yesterday. they were wiping the baskets down for, the customers. i didn’t get a basket. [actually no the only reason i was there was to get chai so.]. but they’re assuming. e...
the virus thingy.
so. my mom showed me the email from my. that my psych. had sent her. [again. for the 3rd time. i see a psychologist and they’re not the meds people.]. and for some reason. i misunderstood and tho...
from the 8th - the 14th
um so on sun. the 8th i. did i do my laundry? wait when was DST? ok so that was. on sun. which. no i didn’t do my laundry. so bc. i wake up 40 mins. after i was meant to have started. it and. no ...
the stupid virus thingy. coronavirus.
or, as i’ve taken to calling it, the stupid virus thingy/the virus thingy. well. i won’t get it. [how do you know? well. i don’t.]. no but a. i’m not a senior citizen and 2. i’m not social like. ...
from the 1st - the 7th
so on the 1st which was sun. i did my laundry. i think. mon. tues. i. didn’t do anything. right mon. was when my comp. went all cattywampus. and wouldn’t work. but luckily i had one at my mom’s w...
i need time. and space.
[and blogging is a way to get that?] yeah..........bc that makes so much sense. no um. so i talked to Mark about why exactly i’ve been so depressed lately. i love the guy he’s awesome. and he. he...
