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I survived turning 41 had some highs and some lows. Overall though it was a good birthday, here’s hoping this year is my best yet.

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So my bday the older I get makes me get very emotional. I’ll be 41 in a few days and I’m not coping well. In general my life is for the most part okay to good on average and there are days that ...

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Been having nightmares a lot lately. All night last night was filled with them. I’m overly tired today. Life has been a Rollercoaster lately. I plan on a real update soon. I’m proud I’m managing...

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Long overdue and much needed update. So the last I wrote I got potentially life altering news from the man I’ve been seeing. It pulled the rug out from me. I was vague and still won’t share exac...

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Tomorrow I hope that I will get some peace about my situation that transpired in January. I will know how to formulate a plan to move forward. I’ve not been myself since January and it’s been ha...

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I’m ready for bed. I was doing better but the weekends are hard nothing to stop me from overthinking every thing. Sleep doesn’t always help because even my dreams have been mentally exhausting. A...

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From under me. Got a text a TEXT that no one wants to get from someone they’re seeing or saw....I can’t even process it right now. I feel like I did 3 years ago. I just am lost and broken. I can’...

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My aunt passed at 9:04 pm. Covid claimed another victim. She’s at peace and with her beloved husband in heaven.

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My aunt is getting worse today moved her up to 5 liters of oxygen, sleeps almost all day. Isn’t eating very much, the nurses say she is getting weaker. I know everyone must pass away sometime, i...

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You know it’s been a bad week filled with anxiety, stress, and emotions when you’re lying in bed crying at 4PM. I am so over everyone and everything and just want peace in my head, in my heart, a...

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All my fears were playing havoc with my mind this weekend. So many tears cried. I was afraid I was falling apart, but can’t afford that right now so I tape myself back together and prepare for an...

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The end is near and I hope 2021 is much better for all. Wishing you all a Happy New Year!

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Wishing you all a Merry Christmas or if you don’t celebrate a merry day.

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Life has been crazy the last few weeks. Had a few contact with a contact covid scares again. Saw Dan again. Getting ready for socially distanced Christmas activities for the holidays. Just finish...

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I’m struggling pretty hard right now. Partly because I’m stressed with work changes,, financial stress,, and health issues and because of my dating life. I’ve still been seeing Dan the lawyer, b...

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I am at my parents just the 3 of us celebrating and it’s enough. My bubble is small for various reasons, their health, my health, my job etc. Today I am focusing on the many blessings I have and ...

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So my results indicate that I most likely have Rheumatoid Arthritis, but were not 100% conclusive so I’m being referred to a rheumatologist. This will make if so 4 autoimmune disorders to deal wi...

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Should write the long entry I owe you all, but it’s been a bad mental health day. I’m weepy and depressed, and completely overwhelmed by life at the moment. I did have a few hours of self care wh...

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I’m due for a super long entry, but latest 2020 drama I’m waiting on test results to see if I may have Lyme disease or Rheumatoid Arthritis or 2 other nameless joint pain causing issues. I have b...

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This week has been upsetting and confirming for me that I am nearing the end of this career path I’ve been on for 16 years now. No I’m not going to up and quit, but I know I can’t continue this j...

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I’m emotionally in overdrive right now. I’m down and out and yes I will get out of it, but needed to tell someone, anyone so I don’t have to pretend to be ok everywhere in my life. Reasons 1. I’...

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I am just overall sad right now. I am pretty sure I will not continue to see Dan because he just seems to primarily only care about the physical side of a relationship and not actually continuin...

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Crying over people who aren’t worthy of my time or tears, but what can I say that’s me. I don’t think my heart and soul are meant for this cruel world. I try to protect myself but it never works...

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This is short as I’m sitting with my friends around a campfire enjoying my last hours of 39 and feeling ok. Leading up to this I was not and I’m still not in the best place, but I’m ok. I will be...

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So today was literally the first day I have messed up which day of the week it was since this all started pretty good for 60 days. I thought it was Wednesday. As the days go on, I has been gett...

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