Torridaussity Two
by Always Laughing
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prayers for my mom
Mom is finally having surgery tomorrow morning. Please if you can say a prayer for her that everything goes well. She’s been in so much pain the last few months and will have a long recovery peri...
Generosity
I am surrounded by wonderful people and one of them is the reason I am sitting in bed typing this entry. An “anonymous” friend gifted me with a windows surface. If you don’t know what that is, it...
Death comes for us all...
I just found out a friend and class mate passed away today she was 34 soon to be 35. I graduated from high school in 1998 and this is the 7th classmate we have lost that we know about. We had ov...
Mom
My mom is in the ER for the 5th time this month. She can’t handle the pain that her back is causing her and her surgery has been canceled for Tuesday because of some irregularity in her EKG. Pl...
roller coaster life
The past few weeks have been insane. First off my grandfather was in the hospital because he was bleeding from his colon and they couldn’t find the source and they still don’t know what caused i...
Strange Dream
I know I need to do a proper update, but this comes first. I dreamt last night that I was out with my friends and we were painting the town red and we all got tattoos and I hated mine and wished...
Quickie
I am going to do a longer entry, but I just got back from vacation and had a blast. Did some, gambling and won some money, shopped, ate, sun bathed, and hung out with my college besties. Here i...
Life
I am leaving for vacation on Saturday and can't wait to go. I am dealing with the stress of my mom, now my dad as well because he fell and damaged his already bad knee, my romantic life (I will ...
Mom's Home
Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers, my mom went home a few hours ago. They say it isn't her heart and it is probably a pinched nerve from all the issues with her spine. I am relieved t...
Not liking phone calls...
My dad called and left me a message to call him and I could tell by his tone of voice something was wrong. I called him back asap and I was right, my mother is in the hospital with a potential h...
My painting
Here is the piece from my art class tonight.
Better
I am not going to lie, even before my grandma's passing I was in a funk, and slipped farther into one after it. I was letting my housework go, not caring what I ate, isolating myself, and just b...
Weeping
I describe my night as being a weepy one. I only worked a half day today and have relaxed the rest of the day which was nice because last week was so tough and although I had a little time off, ...
Happier News
I am not allowed to have pets where I live, but I have a small yard outside my apartment and a bunny comes frequently to visit me and there are also lots of birds. I pretend the bunny is mine an...
The next step
Well the service was beautiful today. We said all our final good byes and I know we will all see her again in heaven one day. I was so touched by my friends and surprised as well. Two years ag...
Last official part of grieving process to come
Today there was a hiatus in the "official grieving process" due to the holiday and it being a week day. Tomorrow will be my grandmother's memorial service at her church. One hour prior to the s...
R.I.P.
Today we laid to rest my beautiful amazing grandmother. A little history here about my family...this grandmother was really my great aunt, but also the foster mother to my dad since he was 10 an...
Drowning
The death of my grandmother has released the damn of everything that I have been holding in. I feel like I am drowning and I can't rescue myself, but the ironic thing is I am the only one who ca...
Shattered
At around 9 pm tonight, heaven received another angel. At shortly after 10 pm my world was shattered when my parents called to tell me my grandmother had passed away. Something so unexpected al...
Time for a real update
So summer has begun which means school is out and my hours were dropped from 45-30 a week. Now I do like having more time for myself, but the pay drop really makes things tough during July and A...
want to scream
I just want to scream sometimes when it comes to the men in my life and how I let myself be treated...no worries not talking abuse or anything like that just that I accept less than what I deserv...
Before and after the haircut
So as I had stated I for my birthday was having a bit of pampering and trying to make my outside match how I feel on the inside. I grow my hair long and 3 times in the past have cut it off to do...
Last minutes of being 33
So my 33rd year is drawing to a close and well there were a lot of highs and some lows this past year. I hope and pray that my 34th year will be better and brighter. I hope to find love, to be...
One week
In one week I will turn 34 and I am having a hard time dealing with it. I want to write a long entry and might in between the mounds of paperwork I have to do tomorrow. Today I helped with a ga...
Hypothetically speaking
If you were in a friends with benefits relationship only because the other person said they didn't love you as more than a friend (meanwhile they have said they love you more than once and never ...
Book Description
The beginning of my writing at a new site