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Torridaussity Two

by Always Laughing

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September 18, 2014

prayers for my mom

Mom is finally having surgery tomorrow morning. Please if you can say a prayer for her that everything goes well. She’s been in so much pain the last few months and will have a long recovery peri...


September 07, 2014

Generosity

I am surrounded by wonderful people and one of them is the reason I am sitting in bed typing this entry. An “anonymous” friend gifted me with a windows surface. If you don’t know what that is, it...


September 02, 2014

Death comes for us all...

I just found out a friend and class mate passed away today she was 34 soon to be 35. I graduated from high school in 1998 and this is the 7th classmate we have lost that we know about. We had ov...


September 01, 2014

Mom

My mom is in the ER for the 5th time this month. She can’t handle the pain that her back is causing her and her surgery has been canceled for Tuesday because of some irregularity in her EKG. Pl...


August 29, 2014

roller coaster life

The past few weeks have been insane. First off my grandfather was in the hospital because he was bleeding from his colon and they couldn’t find the source and they still don’t know what caused i...


August 24, 2014

Strange Dream

I know I need to do a proper update, but this comes first. I dreamt last night that I was out with my friends and we were painting the town red and we all got tattoos and I hated mine and wished...


August 14, 2014

Quickie

I am going to do a longer entry, but I just got back from vacation and had a blast. Did some, gambling and won some money, shopped, ate, sun bathed, and hung out with my college besties. Here i...


August 08, 2014

Life

I am leaving for vacation on Saturday and can't wait to go. I am dealing with the stress of my mom, now my dad as well because he fell and damaged his already bad knee, my romantic life (I will ...


August 03, 2014

Mom's Home

Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers, my mom went home a few hours ago. They say it isn't her heart and it is probably a pinched nerve from all the issues with her spine. I am relieved t...


August 02, 2014

Not liking phone calls...

My dad called and left me a message to call him and I could tell by his tone of voice something was wrong. I called him back asap and I was right, my mother is in the hospital with a potential h...


July 24, 2014

My painting

Here is the piece from my art class tonight.


July 23, 2014

Better

I am not going to lie, even before my grandma's passing I was in a funk, and slipped farther into one after it. I was letting my housework go, not caring what I ate, isolating myself, and just b...


July 12, 2014

Weeping

I describe my night as being a weepy one. I only worked a half day today and have relaxed the rest of the day which was nice because last week was so tough and although I had a little time off, ...


July 08, 2014

Happier News

I am not allowed to have pets where I live, but I have a small yard outside my apartment and a bunny comes frequently to visit me and there are also lots of birds. I pretend the bunny is mine an...


July 05, 2014

The next step

Well the service was beautiful today. We said all our final good byes and I know we will all see her again in heaven one day. I was so touched by my friends and surprised as well. Two years ag...


Today there was a hiatus in the "official grieving process" due to the holiday and it being a week day. Tomorrow will be my grandmother's memorial service at her church. One hour prior to the s...


July 04, 2014

R.I.P.

Today we laid to rest my beautiful amazing grandmother. A little history here about my family...this grandmother was really my great aunt, but also the foster mother to my dad since he was 10 an...


July 01, 2014

Drowning

The death of my grandmother has released the damn of everything that I have been holding in. I feel like I am drowning and I can't rescue myself, but the ironic thing is I am the only one who ca...


June 27, 2014

Shattered

At around 9 pm tonight, heaven received another angel. At shortly after 10 pm my world was shattered when my parents called to tell me my grandmother had passed away. Something so unexpected al...


June 25, 2014

Time for a real update

So summer has begun which means school is out and my hours were dropped from 45-30 a week. Now I do like having more time for myself, but the pay drop really makes things tough during July and A...


June 17, 2014

want to scream

I just want to scream sometimes when it comes to the men in my life and how I let myself be treated...no worries not talking abuse or anything like that just that I accept less than what I deserv...


So as I had stated I for my birthday was having a bit of pampering and trying to make my outside match how I feel on the inside. I grow my hair long and 3 times in the past have cut it off to do...


June 07, 2014

Last minutes of being 33

So my 33rd year is drawing to a close and well there were a lot of highs and some lows this past year. I hope and pray that my 34th year will be better and brighter. I hope to find love, to be...


June 01, 2014

One week

In one week I will turn 34 and I am having a hard time dealing with it. I want to write a long entry and might in between the mounds of paperwork I have to do tomorrow. Today I helped with a ga...


If you were in a friends with benefits relationship only because the other person said they didn't love you as more than a friend (meanwhile they have said they love you more than once and never ...


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The beginning of my writing at a new site