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8/18/24
Spent the last 2 nights at Mom’s because our bathroom was being torn out, and there was no toilet.
7/31/24
Everything is so hard. Even things that used to be easy. I’m so tired. And mad that it’s so hard now.
7/29/24
Threw my tissue box to my bed (I’ve been sick) and knocked my lamp off the table and its lamp shade off; at least the light bulb didn’t break. Walked across the room to turn off my AC and open my...
7/25 11 PM
First of all, why is the roof of my mouth so itchy? I’m mildly worried that my glucose levels will be too high, and I won’t qualify for the PET Scan.
7/24/24 11 PM
Can I just say…this most recent season of Love Island UK…the guys and girls are not attractive and I kind of hate them? There are like 2 or 3 good looking girls, but not gorgeous…same with like 2...
7/24/24
Reminded lifelong male friend of “Longlegs”, so hopefully we’re able to see it while it’s still in theaters and I hope it lives up to my expectations. Finally scheduled my PET Scan today for 8/22...
7/24/24
Back on the Love Island Australia train. Season 5 currently. I like it a lot better. There’s no casa amor and so far, the babies are much less annoying. Second HireAbility appointment went really...
7/20/24
I used to say druggy things like, “let the music take you where it wants to”.
7/3/24
Had my first appointment with my HireAbility counselor, Anna Ryan, and that went really well, but I did cry more than once (especially because I rarely talk about my symptoms and it makes me thin...
Poetry
I haven’t tried this in years, so here we go: Is it possible to feel more empty Bored, unsure how to even begin to be Time crawls by without an idea or plan Ignoring my symptoms as much as I can ...
6/23/24
Got my stitches out Monday, had to cancel therapy Wed, but went to the HireAbility orientation that afternoon and should be paired up with a counselor/hear from them this coming Wednesday. Made t...
6/16/24
I’m picking up a Syngonium PANDA Monday and then hopefully swimming at Mom’s after. I can wear my new bathing suit for the first time and Mom got me a new Monstera/palm floatie since I popped my ...
6/14/24
Went strawberry picking today with mom. Immediately faceplanted in strawberries and couldn’t get right up. Talk about embarrassing. The lane also wasn’t wide enough for me to sit in a comfortable...
6/11/24
I’m likely getting my stitches out Friday and have my psych appointment tomorrow, so unfortunately I wasn’t able to get back into my poetry, but it seems to be healing well!
6/6/24
I still don’t have both hands, so I can’t write a lot, but I got my injury by washing a glass, which slipped, broke, and cut me.
6/5/24
Got my first stitches-5 in my left ring finger!
5/30/24
2nd Essex Pride is Saturday! Honestly, I’m upset and have a lot to process and grieve if this is my new normal…I really loved perfecting my handwriting, journaling and coloring and I can’t do any...
5/27/24
Went to MGH. The doctor is pretty sure my symptoms were caused by my body’s reaction to the ovarian cyst. Unfortunately, they also said this could be my new normal and had no treatment plan…they ...
5/1/24
Happy May! J friend brought me to get a free pickup today, since Mom said it’s a busy week. I reminded him about the 5/11 plant sale, which ex roomie forgot about and made plans and I have tax r...
4/7/24
12:19 AM: Got high off of grinder and slide shavings…sigh. Told you I could never just stop. What sucks the most is that with any drug, the more your tolerance grows, the more of it you have to t...
4/4/24
Had so much fun at TMZ, even though I had to sit most of the time. Also found out J-fin had kidney cancer until he had one of his kidneys removed. Hopefully it doesn’t come back! He got me a band...
4/2/24
The only people I hear my roommate talk to are delivery people and those on his game. Had a good Easter and had a meal with my sibs/bro’s wife and dog. It’s nice to see them, but it’s painfully o...
3/26/24
ATWWD with Mason was awesome and so funny. Messaged the podcast to provide feedback of the amazing show. I ordered another MeUndies bralette because mine is pretty much all I wear and is my favor...
3/10/24
11:45 PM I missed Kimber’s birthday because I don’t pay attention to date…I video called Pann last night to wish Kimber a happy birthday, and she showed me some presents :) I went to pick up som...
3/7/24
I’m sick of not being able to rely on my body, wasting my 30s not being able to explore nature, and having all the right words and speed in my head, but not being able to speak them normally or a...
