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What a time.
Lots been happening. Torn relationship between my brother and my ex roommate. Lots happened there. I got tired of being used only when people wanted things… I decided to put my foot down and fin...
Short, Bearded guy..
So.... Let me just wow. I mean I am dickmitized by this man, and he hasn’t even put it in me yet. I am 87. 3% he gave me the BEST head I’ve ever had. Just… Wow.. However.. He finger banged me ...
I'm on some dumb shit..
So an update of sorts… Really nothing is new in my life.. Except my sex life haha Work is work.. A lot of work and stress for little pay. I’ve been having my hours cut so that the people who si...
Love is shit.
Drill Sargent makes me crazy… I hate it.. I’m a mess. I’m terrible at communicating. I indirectly bring a lot of crap around… I may have messed things up… Again. When I found the stupid note...
Eat a big, fat one.
People like to talk shit. Makes them feel better about their miserable life. Deflection. It’s human nature I guess. Anyways, I can’t tell you how many times I’ve been asked and I’ve heard or se...
Untitled...
So I let Drill Sargent wiggle his way back in. Spent the night with him a couple of nights ago. No sex. I’m not comfortable enough to do that while I’m on my period… There was a moment we had t...
First one on one..
Lesbian experience this morning. I’ve been with girls in a 3 some.. But never one on one… I’m intrigued with myself.. It was fun enough to do again.
The roommate thing..
Might actually happen here soon.. For real this time…
Blah...
Is how the fuck I feel.. I blocked Drill Sargent today. It is obvious he has a million and one reservations about me.. Also I told him way too much. We were having a “deep” conversation.. And ...
More terrible decisions..
So I have a bearded friend… And I’ve known him for years, but we’ve never been super close. We’ve flirted in the past, shared pictures.. But nothing serious. He got into my inbox, and things g...
Not safe for much.
I’m a sexual being.. I am a closet whore. I seem prudish to everyone… But really I can’t get enough of it. Because of my poor decisions last week, I’m still getting snaps on Snapchat of dudes...
Never, ever..
Put your happiness into someone else. You will most surely be left disappointed every, single time. A lesson/skill I’m learning is difficult to master. So Drill Sargent came back last night… An...
Maybe I am weird..
Someone said it was “fucked up” of me to have “back burner dudes”… It got me thinking… I know for a fact I am back burner chick to a few dudes. The Electrician pops up in my life in between his ...
Goodbye, 2017.
I’ll spare myself and everyone else the “new year, new me” shit lol. Day by day for me. I just wanna be less of an asshole than I was yesterday. Crazy this year is over already.. It went by qui...
My sexuality...
Constantly confuses me.. It’s up and down. I wanna commit to Drill Sargent. But sex isn’t the best.. So then I find myself making wrong decisions… We aren’t in a relationship. However, I feel...
Mothernature...
I can’t stand being a girl sometimes. Fuck Mother Nature. I feel so hormonal. I feel so down. Shit is like an out of body experience. Charlee will be 1 tomorrow!! I seriously can not believe ...
Work.
My job is draining. Old people are awesome.. Don’t get me wrong. But damn… Also. Its fucking freezing. Holidays are almost over.
Is it Christmas.
My family is dysfunctional. I guess whose family isn’t? We hashed out a lot today. I think it may have been good? Idk people got mad, when it was my turn to share. Maybe it is how aggressive I...
There is always another one..
It doesn’t matter his name. It matters what he does to me. The way he makes me feel. Sometimes good. Mostly confused. More than half the time, I wonder if it is me. I asked my friend what he...
Untitled covers it.
Oh, gosh. It’s been so long since I’ve last been on here. There are so many changes to the site… I’ve got some learning to do lol. I don’t know where I left off at, and I don’t wanna catch up a...
Sad realization.
I talk to about 2 people out of all the friends I had in the beginning of this year. One of them is my brother… Life is ever-changing, I know. A couple of my friends moved. My pregnancy pushed a ...
Curious.
How do you convince yourself you are worth it? I have spent so long depriving myself of anything worth while. Is there a way to trick yourself? I want my kids to love themselves. I hope I don’t ...
Lonely is life.
I’m not looking to change my new rule I have placed for myself… But man I’m lonely. I’ve had done a lot of soul searching.. I haven’t placed my worth very high it seems. I tell myself that I didn...
Oh, decisions..decisions.
One of these days I’ll be someone who can say I make the right ones.. That day is not today, however. The baby’s father and I aren’t on very good terms. I’m hardly halfway through, and he now has...
And the beat goes on..
Life. I can’t help but to question how I’ve gotten here. It is no where near what I want it to be. I wonder will I get the job I dream to have? Will I find a partner accepting of me and my 3 kid...
