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7/21
Today is Lorelei’s third birthday! I can’t believe she’s such a big kid now. She always has something to say. She’s rather extroverted. She loves to play with other people. She’s always been dete...
7/17
I finally got to go swimming yesterday and it was glorious and I’m definitely going again as soon as possible! What is summer without swimming?! Not my kind of summer, that’s for sure. We got a l...
7/10
I’m writing a literature review today and I’m only half done and I just really don’t want to. I’m so tired. I haven’t been getting enough or quality sleep for.... weeks now. I don’t even have my ...
7/3
Starting today I get my kids for a full 10 days! Their dad is going on vacation. I’m really excited. My daughter and step-daughter’s birthdays are on the same day (July 21st) and I still have no...
7/2
It’s that time again, folks! Cyclical depression so bad you can’t sleep and you don’t even shower. You know you need help but you haven’t bothered in awhile. There’s no reason for it. Just don’t ...
6/22
Observations: – I am really not good at meetings. They are so short because I can’t think of anything I want to ask/say, and I’m unclear as to what information I need to be getting to facilitate ...
6/15
I guess I’m the president of the Higher Education Student Association now. I really don’t know what I’m getting myself into. I’m nervous because I’m taking quite a bit on this coming semester. I...
6/8
I only go in six to eight hours a week for my internship. I went in for two days this week. I’m helping to develop graduate recruiting for the School of Education at my university. So far I’ve do...
6/6
I start my internship later this afternoon. I didn’t think I still had one! Apparently I didn’t blow my chances with it, even if I was late to our meeting a few months ago. I’m going to be workin...
5/31
I am grateful that I don’t have work lately. I haven’t been able to sleep well at all. Last night I had trouble getting to sleep, then I was woken up by my phone at 2am from an amber alert. So, t...
5/23
So… I don’t have a job this summer. I couldn’t sleep last night because my anxiety levels were through the roof and I think I’ve blown a couple of opportunities. For instance, I met with someone ...
Frustrated.
I was rejected for the graduate research assistant position. I’m really frustrated. I don’t have any experience in the field I want, and it feels like my undergrad and graduate degrees are a wast...
5/22
I’m having a difficult time getting out of bed for the past week. I don’t feel depressed, but I know I’m going through a bout of it. My body feels heavy, sore in some places, and I can sleep and...
5/16
I have a job interview that I really want tomorrow for a graduate research assistant position in my program’s department. It’s very important that I get this job. I really need some experience in...
5/10
I miss my kids a whole lot today. All I want is to snuggle them. They smell good. Their weight against mine when I’m hugging them always feels so wonderful. I love them beyond any kind of measure...
5/9
I’m busy. As usual. I’m working more than 40 hours this week, when I normally work 20. I know, I know, most people do this. I’m still tired AF. I’m impatient about the trying-for-a-baby stuff and...
4/20
I’m going to write about how proud of myself I am! I had a presentation yesterday that I’ve been dreading for weeks. I absolutely despise presentations. For someone with probable ADHD and high an...
4/19
My life is in a pretty good rhythm. I stopped taking Celexa. It was giving me panic attacks and not helping any of my mental malaise. I’m feeling a lot better after I weaned myself off of it. I ...
4/17
I savor the days that I’m not weighed down by mental illness. I float through my days as the sun slowly glides through the sky.
4/13
Imposter syndrome is an odd thing. I’m almost done with my first year of graduate school, but I’ve felt it since I was an undergraduate. I still don’t feel like I belong there, and I don’t feel l...
4/3
I have a lot of projects lined up. I just got a big paper done, so now I can focus on finishing my presentation that’s due on Wednesday. Next week I have a paper due, but the rough draft is done,...
3/28
I want to talk about my mental illness. It’s not something I generally discuss in an objective, top-down way. Normally my posts here regarding it are rants or bouts of self-pity. I recognize that...
27
I’ve been around the sun 27 times, y’all! Everyone in my office says I look way younger than 27. ha ha but I didn’t even get carded at Trader Joe’s yesterday when I was buying beer! !! Today is a...
2/28
I have been working through dealing with custody arrangements between my ex and I. I convinced him that we should go through a mediator instead of separate lawyers, since it’s not my idea of a go...
2/23
Life is amazing. I’ve never been this content or happy. I’m also busy and I suppose that’s why I never come here anymore. I have two children of my own, plus two someday-stepdaughters. My partn...
