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My husband has been going through the ringer at work. I may not fully understand it, but I have seen the effects of it physically. I think when I saw that it hit me how real his struggle was. Si...

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It occurs to me that I do not know how to mourn. I am an RN and worked both ICU and ER so I have seen my fair share of death, and I have even had a couple of aunts die whom I was kinda close to, ...

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I am going to therapy. I am journaling. I am taking my meds. Why won’t these feelings of inadequacy go away? I think they started last night when my husband said that he had booked a cabin for hi...

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It was about two weeks ago that I had my last bout of anxiety where I hurt myself. Since then I have been trying to cope. Mind you I have not done exactly everything I was before. Walking for exa...

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strong textFrom my entries of mental health I have noticed that there are a lot of people who relate to what I am saying. Your comments are…comforting. It sucks that any one of us are going throu...

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Yes, this is a line from Ice Cube’s song, but you know what? Its true. I just finished 3, 12 hour shifts and I have only 1 day off, and then back for 2 more. It sucks. My scheduling is a story fo...

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Part of me wants to stop therapy. I am 8 sessions in and I know that I need it. I had a “relapse” about 2 weeks ago. If you have read my stuff before you know it gets bad. This time around I used...

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I didn’t wake up today expecting an ‘episode.’ I had a great morning. My son had mother’s day tea at his school. I went and did my mom’s nails. It was a good morning. I decided to pick up a night...

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I have been having a lot of stuff plague my family, not so much me. I have very emotional, detached, and wanted to escape. Avoiding if you will. I think this morning I have come to realization of...

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I have been having a lot of stuff plague my family, not so much me. I have very emotional, detached, and wanted to escape. Avoiding if you will. I think this morning I have come to realization of...

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Being married is, when you’re with a person that does not beat you, abuse you, etc, beautiful. I love being married. I love my life. Its not perfect by any means. And he annoys me to hell and bac...

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I don’t know how long I can keep going. At this point my job is giving me a bit of stress. Boss says we can’t do a certain thing though the intentions behind it were done innocently. Ehh, Wrong. ...

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I’m here at work and I can totally function, but my mind is a scrambled mess. There are so many thoughts in my head. I can’t silence them. I have tried most of my coping mechanisms, but they are ...

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I can’t discern how I feel. I know I feel like I have a short fuse right now. Everything makes me snap. What I can’t figure out is what. I have a few things going on in my mind. One, and the thin...

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I love listening to podcasts that talk about the modern dating paradigm…or lack there of. Quick background. I am 36 the hubbs is 35. We met when I was 18 and he was 17. We were each other’s first...

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I just had my 14th anniversary with my license as an RN. I cannot begin to express how much I love this career. It has given me a purpose, my income to provide for my family and myself, and so ma...

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This may sound like an end of the year post, but it really is a Christmas post. Be warned now: I am Christian so for me Christmas is about Jesus. That said, if anyone has read any previous posts ...

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I have a 3 yo daughter and a 6 yo son. I think I have reached that level where they are so loud that I can’t hear myself think. They run around and scream. Our house isn’t very big, and even if i...

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So I wrote how I have been feeling lately. Therapist yesterday said to take a walk when the feelings started to get to intense, but at the onset. Holy crap may I say that that works. I was very s...

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I don’t know what set me over the edge. I don’t know what exactly has me feeling this way. My head is full of thoughts about inadequacy, mainly that I am inadequate. I can’t quiet them. Then they...

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I don’t know what I am feeling right now. I had such a great day with my kids yesterday. We went to this museum that my son loved and that my daughter got to play around in. I then saw my brother...

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Right now things feel good. I had a parent teacher conference since its that time of year, and I spoke to my son’s instructor. At the beginning of the school year he wasn’t doing so well. Easily ...

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So I had written that my mental health had taken a dump after my son was hospitalized. (Read previous entries titled ‘Son Hospitalized’ for further details.) I booked the appointment way back in ...

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My brother in law has his lady friend from France over, Priya. I didn’t know what I was expecting when I first really met her and had to entertain her, but we actually got along really well. I po...

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There is this movie that is freaking fantastic in terms of how it was written and how it was acted out. Its called Nefarious. Sean Patrick Flannery did an amazing job! The dialogue that is writte...

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