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April 29, 2024

In the Life Log - Day 43

Today was pretty chill. Sleep was good - too good, even, since I woke up 5 minutes before my shift. It’s a good thing I decided to look at my phone’s clock, or else, I’d have gotten an extra hour...


April 28, 2024

In the Life Log - Day 42

Today was one of those days. Sleep was decent, and I had no weird dreams. However, I had another wave of sadness in the afternoon, which almost turned into a full-blown panic attack. I had to tak...


April 27, 2024

In the Life Log - Day 41

Today was a mixed bag. I was able to sleep a good 7.5 hours, but had a weird dream - that I was being chased by someone who wanted to cut my head off with a katana. I woke up and had a bit of anx...


April 26, 2024

In the Life Log - Day 40

It’s finally Friday. Last night’s sleep was really good - got immediately knocked out and clocked in almost 8 hours. No weird dreams either so that’s always a good thing. Work, once again, was ve...


April 25, 2024

In the Life Log - Day 39

Yet another slow day for me. I clocked in about 7-ish hours of sleep, and would have loved to get a few more minutes, but didn’t want to tempt it as I might oversleep. I dreamt about us again - t...


April 24, 2024

In the Life Log - Day 38

Today was average. I overslept an extra 30 minutes and had to scramble for onsite work. I dreamt of us again - we were eating lunch in a neat restaurant and had ice cream for dessert. It would’ve...


April 23, 2024

In the Life Log - Day 37

Today was average. I initially aimed to get ~8 hours of sleep, but got only about 7.5 hours. It was also a dreamless sleep so I guess that’s a change. I had a hiring manager interview earlier; i...


April 22, 2024

In the Life Log - Day 36

Today was ok - pretty uneventful but I was able to get 7.5 hours of sleep. There were neither panic attacks nor waves of sadness, which I’m grateful for. Work, as always, was quite relaxed too. S...


April 21, 2024

In the Life Log - Day 35

Today was ok. Sleep was not up to par; I tried to sleep earlier than usual in the hopes that it can help me get a bit more zzzzz’s but I kept tossing and turning for about 30 minutes before I fou...


April 20, 2024

In the Life Log - Day 34

Today can be summed up in one word: lazy. I had a good 8 hours of sleep and spent the whole day either reading manga or watching kdrama at Netflix. No panic attacks or waves of sadness as well. ...


April 19, 2024

In the Life Log - Day 33

Today was another average day. I slept almost 9 hours - and just in time to realize that I was going to be late if I decided to give myself a couple more minutes. Work was uneventful again; had m...


April 18, 2024

In the Life Log - Day 32

Today was a bit more busy compared to yesterday. I had about 8.5 hours of sleep, 6 of which were straight. The anti-depressant that my psychiatrist gave me leaves a feeling of drowsiness, however...


April 17, 2024

In the Life Log - Day 31

Today was quite dull. Sleep was average; I got to clock in about 7-ish hours, although not in a straight fashion (which I would have preferred). No panic attacks or waves of sadness, so that’s a ...


April 16, 2024

In the Life Log - Day 30

Today was slightly below average, I’d say. Clocked in about 6.5 hours of sleep, with 5 of those being straight. I went onsite again today - traffic was really bad, considering I usually work 11 a...


April 15, 2024

In the Life Log - Day 29

I dreamt of us again. We were outside on a date, watching the full moon and discussing about the future. Then I woke up. Today was quite ok - sleep was not as long as I’d have liked (I think some...


April 14, 2024

In the Life Log - Day 28

Today was a quiet day - nothing much noteworthy, if at all. Sleep was not as good compared to recent days, but still achieved ~7 hours total. Per the recommendation of a friend, I decided to wa...


April 13, 2024

In the Life Log - Day 27

Today was a good day. I had my standard 8 hours of sleep, and didn’t feel either sadness or panic attack so that’s a win for me. Earlier this afternoon, I decided to meet up with a friend from a...


April 12, 2024

In the Life Log - Day 26

Another slow day yet again. I slept about 8 hours, and had vivid dreams; must be due to the antidepressant yet again. Work didn’t have anything much going on - I stayed idle for a good half of t...


April 12, 2024

Dream (A Poem)

Dreamt of us last night And both of us were laughing Then my eyes opened


April 11, 2024

In the Life Log - Day 25

Today was another normal day. Sleep was quite good as I clocked in about 8.5 hours and almost overslept. I attribute this to the antidepressant my psychiatrist prescribed to me. Work was uneventf...


April 10, 2024

In the Life Log - Day 24

Today was another so-so / average day. I got to sleep 7 hours, although not at the best quality since it was about past 4 a.m. when I finally called it a day. I shouldn’t really be staying up so ...


April 09, 2024

In the Life Log - Day 23

Today was a bit better than usual. I slept my usual 8-ish hours, and didn’t feel any panic attack or wave of sadness. Since it was a holiday, I decided to go to the mall and have a bit of time fo...


April 08, 2024

In the Life Log - Day 22

I dreamt of her again last night, and in two parts: first, with us talking about our next date and the second us talking - if anything else can be done to save whatever we had. It’s been 3 weeks ...


April 07, 2024

In the Life Log - Day 21

Today was one of those days again for me. I slept decently, clocking at about 8 hours and had a pretty quiet afternoon. However, I relapsed again in the afternoon as I was watching a Japanese ani...


April 06, 2024

In the Life Log - Day 20

Today was a very quiet day, so nothing much to write about. Had about 7-ish hours of sleep overall, but the quality could’ve been better. If there’s anything I’m thankful about, it’s not having a...


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A collection of my thoughts, however random they might be.