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In the Life Log - Day 9
Another instance of not sleeping well the night prior. It’s been.. about 3 consecutive evenings and I worry the trend would continue. I’ve also had a mini-episode of a panic attack. I hope the in...
In the Life Log - Day 8
I didn’t sleep well last night again. After getting about 5 hours straight of sleep, I kept dozing off and waking up every hour or so until it was finally time for me to begin work. I do hope tha...
In the Life Log - Day 7
I slept poorly again last night; after going to bed at 1:30 am, I kept tossing and turning to the point that I had to take a 2nd dose of chamomile tea - finally got to sleep at 3 a.m. Despite the...
In the Life Log - Day 6
No other way to put it than saying today is the worst so far. I can only pray and hope that tomorrow will be better. Overall rating for the day: 1/10
In the Life Log - Day 5
Last night’s sleep was quite lengthy again, clocking ~9 hours. I dreamt of her again; we were in a group and discussing which restaurant to try, when I suggested that we go to this place that we ...
In the Life Log - Day 4
Last night’s sleep was the most decent so far; I think I was able to get about almost 9 hours’ worth. While today did not have (much) crying fits, a huge wave of anxiety and panic hit me again ju...
In the Life Log - Day 3
I dreamt about her last night. In said dream, we were both a bit younger, and I had the chance to introduce her to my colleagues. Then I had to wake up, bringing me back to reality. I also decide...
Gray (A Poem)
(1) I take a look outside With my eyes open wide Why do I feel this way Everything seems so gray (2) I try to comprehend And try hard to pretend That all of these make sense All the while feelin...
In the Life Log - Day 2
Today was pretty much the same as yesterday - multiple instances of crying, minimal appetite, and just not having the mood to do anything at all. I had to call out sick again, lest my work gets a...
In the Life Log - Day 1
Day 1 is always the hardest, they say, and it couldn’t be further from the truth in my case. I’ve been feeling so out of it after the past Sunday’s happenings (it’s already Tuesday, 12:55 a.m. as...
Wish (A Poem)
I didn’t realize almost a year had passed since my last entry. I’ll make it a point to post in here again, with the goal of being consistent. (1) It’s quite sunny out there Yet all I do is stare...
A Good Month
Despite the mood of yesterday’s entry, March was still a good month overall. I was able to gain further insight towards how others perceive me, and what necessary attitude adjustments I need to m...
Of Work and Attachment
While majority of my day was pretty decent, something in my mind snapped again. I’m not sure what the trigger is - could be my new colleagues, the slow pace / development, or a mixture of these a...
Dreaming
I have been dreaming everyday for the past few weeks or so; some of which make sense, while some don’t. What I find intriguing is this has never happened to me (at least to the extent my memory s...
A Quiet Day
Today was one of the more quiet shifts I had at work. Since I started my new job a month ago, my time was focused on meetings left and right, studying and contributing to the establishment of our...
Life Choices
We all have our paths to carve, and the consequences of which may vary, depending which it was borne out of. As I reflect on today’s writing cue, I take a look back on how I’ve lived my life so f...
The Ideal Life
I dream of a life that is rich, in all aspects of the word. Where the best healthcare is at an arm’s length, and getting sick is not a cause of worry. It wouldn’t cost an arm, a leg, or even both...
Locus of Control
To myself and Jen Today I shall be kind To others and my mind I shall not get annoyed Anger I shall avoid When things won’t go my way Positive words, I’d say To turn my frustrations Into affirmat...
Sentimental Attachment - Part Deux
A few weeks ago, my writing cue had to do with holding on to something that no longer serves me. I’ve mentioned my friendship with a person I’ve known since elementary, and my feelings surroundin...
Winning: In Life and Many Others
What constitutes success? As I ponder on today’s writing cue, I cannot help contemplating yet again. It is multi-faceted, yes, but that makes it even the more complicated. So to answer the questi...
Greatest fear
I am afraid that I will be forgotten. Time does not spare anyone, after all; in due course, everything that once was will merely fade and just be a distant memory, if lucky. If I was not fearful,...
Gut Feel
Intuition is an irony. It is spontaneous and has very little logic, yet we let it take part in our decision making. As I reflect on today’s writing cue, I do not have the faintest of idea when an...
Peaks and Valleys
I was browsing Reddit yesterday when I came across the post “What screams that someone peaked in High School?”. I’m not sure if grateful is the correct word to use, given that I did not fall unde...
Sentimental Attachment
We have this tendency to hold on even if there’s no longer an actual purpose to do so - whether it may be a person, relationship, belief, or material object. We try to salvage whatever we can, th...
Healing and Moving On
What does it take to be healed? To move on and be free from the chains that bind? I finished Khaled Hosseini’s “The Kite Runner” this past weekend. While there were a number of heavy / uncomforta...
Book Description
A collection of my thoughts, however random they might be.
