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I’m not going to get ANY job from this. I already know that. I’m just glad to be done with them without having made a big fool of myself once. They were okay. All the hearing appearances this sum...

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I need help on this conditions. Idk why I am so grossed out by writing emails or texting. What is the root cause of this, really? I’m letting people wait. No wonder why I have no friends. No frie...

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Well yesterday I was wallowing and cranky at him and ended up crying in his arms to sleep. I have a saint for a husband and I am the absolute idiot for not appreciating that. His energy will drai...

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I’ve been married for 17 days. I don’t know why I just can’t be happy. I let daily stresses interfere with my marriage. I’m just feeling so down. I don’t know whether I should express my stress t...

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Well my law school career is completely in the trash can, now. I have no idea how to revive it. I dread third year. Maybe when I start that full-time job, I will be better? I just feel like being...

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They all blame me. They made numerous mistakes and yet I’m here to take the burden of cleaning up the messes. I’m not the fraudulent one. Honestly I just can’t see how they could have just bold-f...

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Wedding happened. It was amazing. Literally amazing. Everything was perfect. I even liked the water station. Just that little thing. The caterer had water, lemonade, tea and coffee throughout the...

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Anyone else has it? I’m sick of this affliction. I’m sick of it. I feel like a terrible person. I am a terrible person, just because I can’t write emails timely. I have resolved so many times to ...

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… and that’s okay. I will just go on and try to do the right things. But I am not happy. I won’t be for a long, long time. I have responsibilities and I attain a kind of spiritual happiness for f...

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Yeah I keep titling my entries like this. Just wait until I lose whatever that I currently have, huh? Please, I’m trying though. I’m still trying. Still, I hate being an effing failure. I hate it...

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I feel like I will just hate being a lawyer. Hate it. I’m so slow these days. Absolutely hate myself for it. Wasting my own time. Alright, let me also write that email now. OK. Finally done wit...

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In very typical me fashion. I became awake at 5:30 and still in bed now at 6. I want to do arm exercise from my computer now. Alright, so I did all my grading yesterday. And I just caught up with...

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Okay, I did not work up at 4:30 like I planned. Should have known I’d never stick to that things. Would have been better to plan realistically for 5:30 or something. Woke up at 6. Stayed in bed u...

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Get all the negative feelings out, ya know. I hate writing emails. I hate it. I’ve been thinking about some people for months and yet I’m NOT writing them, no matter how much I try. I’ve been try...

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I suck at interviews. I’m just so dumb. I can’t speak with confidence. The last OCI really scarred me. All the effort to no, absolutely no avail. I hated especially the interviews with a certain ...

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Where did all my time go? Oh yeah, reading Prosebox. I knew it from back then. Prosebox is pretty awesome- when people are telling their real story and all the feelings are real. Honestly, the be...

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Like, what if you really like them? Anyway. I want to be successful. Why am I not successful? What am I doing wrong with my life? Google “Why am I not successful?” I feel like whatever I do, th...

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I’ve had it. Tired of being sad. Tired of wasting my life being sad. Tired of suffering in silence because I have no one to talk to. I just can’t. From now on, I want to do s*** with my life. I ...

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I tell him something. I don’t like his responses to me. We go back and forth, and he gets frustrated. I am annoyed. Why doesn’t he support me? I am reminded, on my own or by him, that he does sup...

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I just wallow in my own sadness these days. It’s too dumb to tell anyone so I say it here. I want to say sorry to all the kind commenters who commented on my earlier posts. I’m sorry to say that ...

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I am just really sad and embarrassed. I try and try and never get the results I want. I’m embarrassed next to my fiance. Today he noted that I seem to love self-deprecating humor a lot. Well yeah...

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The Attorney’s Office where I’m working this summer did. Man I was mad. Just as I thought I couldn’t possibly get any lower, it just got lower. I’m disappointed enough that it’s the only job I go...

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At least that’s it. That’s all for an awful semester. I’m not giving up on my dreams, but I guess I am allowed to be miserable for quite a while. You know when you think of yourself as something,...

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Well I would cry but I guess I ran out of tears. I thought I did well on Practical Estate Planning, I really did. Dreams shattered. I would say at least all is not lost but whenever I say that, ...

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… about my grades, oh yeah. At 29 years old. How pathetic is that? I just laid in bed and cried for a whole hour today. I did feel better afterwards. Still, other grades are coming in so I’m not ...

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