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Thats what I am. I hate my life. I honestly just want to go to sleep and not wake up

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It’s been a while since I’ve written. Trying to wrap my head around the storm that came through my life…Richard. Oh how he played a good game and once again I am left hurt. Hurt and wondering why...

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So the time has finally come. Richard is coming in to day. Or I should say tonight, or maybe tomorrow morning. EARLY tomorrow morning. His bus gets in at 1:40am, possibly a little sooner if it do...

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I decided to write about what it is that I wasn’t sure what I wanted to write about..... ( LOL ) And I’m sure I’m going to get a lot of lectures and be carefuls and so ons, but here goes. I have ...

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Yep, my life has been kind of boring lately. Can you believe that? LOL Well, there is that thing....but I’m still not sure I’m ready to write about it yet. That’s weird for me too as my life was...

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So I wrote about what happened with Ronnie but what I didn’t say is how much I’ve beaten myself up over it since it happened. For some reason, even though I KNOW that I was vulnerable, and I KNO...

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Soo confused.... Don’t know what to do.... This is the first time I’ve ever done this kind of thing. Have to figure it out.

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Just going to keep this entry simple. Still trying to unpack my things. It’s nice to finally be back in my own place. Although thankful for my sis and her hubs letting me stay with them until I f...

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Sooo… this one will probably be harder for me to write. I spent the week back home, with Ronnie and I talking just about everyday. The plan was for me to head back down there on Friday afternoon ...

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Hmm…where should I begin? Most of you know that I was VERY open about things on OD. That’s just who I am. Well, I haven’t changed any so don’t be surprised about what I’m going to write. Fair war...

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Wow, it’s been nearly a year since I’ve posted here. That means it’s been almost that long since the wreck I wrote about in my last entry. Still don’t know what happened and probably never will. ...

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So today I get told " L Is going through this too ( her husband passed away a month after mine ) , but she still counts her blessings. REALLY????? Well, good for fucking her. I'm sorry if I don't...

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I am so tired of people telling me how I should feel or that I should be farther along in the grieving process then I am. Or for instance this evening I posted on Facebook that I dreaded Valentin...

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Sometimes I wonder why I'm even here.

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Feeling really lonely tonight. That deep, heart wrenching kind of lonesome. The kind that only Elton can fix. That's all I've got tonight.

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As of right now I have plans to move again. A few days after Christmas I plan to move back to Alabama. My heart just isn't here in New York. Somewhere in the years of living in the south my heart...

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This is the first time writing here. Elton has been gone for almost five months now. It hasn't gotten any easier. Sure, there are days when I laugh and have some good times, but then the sadness ...

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