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There was a hypothetical posed in an online forum. it said, “If you were given conclusive proof that you would never have a satisfying sexual life; and conclusive proof that you would never have ...

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I am not as good at words as I would like to be sometime. But there are languages far more skilled at expressing things than English. Is there a word in existence that describes this feeling? I...

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So, I have a more emotionally honest entry I was working on earlier in my other space. THAT entry, ironically, wasn’t saved to drafts and is just an open page on my work computer as I would take...

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I shall assume the position to deflect and dodge derision and disdain for this. And while the wording is, perhaps, overdramatic, the sentiment is not. For I have discussed similar topics in my ...

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I was raised on classic OLD films. I knew about WC Fields, Groucho Marx, Rita Hayworth, and Mae West as though I had grown up in that era. That was part of the benefit of being a perpetually ex...

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So, I was sitting around letting my mind wander… when it wandered to a specific place. But how it got there, the reaction that occurred, and everything surrounding it? Well, this is definitely ...

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I honestly never thought THIS space would have a DRAFTS backlog. In fact, the very idea of this space was to have a place where.... even if I was harshly judging myself- I could still express my...

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I haven’t done a true cross post in a long time! I’m not sure if I will actually put this in my other space or not… especially as I have ideas for TWO cross posts and both of them may be of such...

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This is something I would more likely have put on Tik Tok but… I’m not feeling Camera-Friendly today and I’m not sure I could say this in a cute quippy way so it is best shared in writing. My Tik...

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I assume this happens to everybody. This has to be a universal human thing. I was in the kitchen, just working on some stuff, when I saw my Personal Ritual Date Book. Consider it a calendar for...

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Wait… what?! You’re telling me that there is a Netflix show where you can win $100,000 by not having sex?! I mean… fairly sure I and a whole lot of people I know could win that pretty easily. F...

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It’s funny. I had a thought during work. Stuck with me. Wanted to write about it. When I got home, that thought expanded into some emotions. Took two separate paths in my head. One that coul...

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Y’know what upsets me most when I’m alone (as ever) and willing to examine things with both an emotional and honest eye? I so wish I felt worthy of the life I want. I don’t. And there are half ...

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I came here to write something unimportant but still something that I wanted to say. And I’ll get to that. I’ll say it. But I re-read old entries from all of my journal spaces. A way to see ho...

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I realize how petty and stupid and shitty this is.... but considering… everything? Considering my ex-wife tracked me down and said she wanted to be with me… only for our entire marriage to be an ...

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So, this “revelation” or whatever isn’t going to be as profound as it could be because the “deep meaning” thing is pretty obvious. That said… as I am writing honestly, I understand the urge to ju...

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I will admit, when I originally started THIS journal, it was a supplemental place for the journal I had been keeping for YEARS. I had originally returned to Open Diary to crowd source a single q...

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Just started watching the new season of BiG MOUTH. Opening song:

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In a lot of ways, I am a product of fiction. That can be as inoffensive as “Disney Movies and Charles Dickens and the like” or as offensive as “The Bible, the Torah, and the 8 Fold Path.” I grew ...

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Ladies and Gentlemen… this is certainly not an entry I had anticipated writing. Frankly, there is an entry in Drafts right now that I would much rather be finishing. Because I would rather fini...

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There is an entry in my drafts folder I want to finish. It may be more sexy, just as emotional and/or whiny; but probably a better read. This one is just… something happened today that I wanted ...

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So, on this day in 2019 (before I started this alternate space) I wrote a (forgive the lack of modesty) pretty hot erotic story based on some conversations I was having with someone online. I ha...

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So… I haven’t had great luck with therapy. Since the divorce, I’ve had 4 different therapists. For those keeping track that is “since the start of 2020” I’ve had 4 different therapists. And ea...

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So… I’ve been seeing my ex-wife a lot more lately. It’s all part of me moving away. I need her help (with a lot of stuff) and she’s going to get an extraordinarily generous payday out of it at ...

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