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Journal 2022

by HoniBunnyCakey

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April 11, 2022

A nice warm shower

Life has been average I suppose. I got on my period the day before my birthday so I mostly stayed in my pajamas that day, eating various sweet treats and desserts. I’ve just been talking to J I ...


April 01, 2022

Tomorrow I'm 19

And I feel ready. I’m excited but this year I’ll have a meal I can’t wait to eat. I do have to worry about some grades but I won’t let that weight me down, I’ll fight as hard as I can to maintain...


March 22, 2022

I wanna rip her head off

I get jealous easily. Spent to many entries talking about it to explain why. I feel so hot with a sick fever and jealousy. I don’t care if J has friends but I feel… boiling at some words. I’m je...


March 20, 2022

Sexual Exploration

J and I have started to be sexual with one another, it’s a nice change. It’s slow sexting but I feel like I can enjoy it and not depend on being depressed or hating myself like before. J truly is...


I feel odd, everyone seems to suddenly be so worried about my safety, so worried about my health. And I just feel like, wow this would have been needed months ago. I don’t like telling people J’...


March 14, 2022

March 2022 quick update

This is just a notice that I’m still here, so much has been going on.


February 19, 2022

Weekend Woes

I’ve been having a good time with Joseph. Currently doing my laundry today while watching a video about people reading stranger’s diaries and their own from middle school. Honestly if someone rea...


February 17, 2022

Happiness

I feel happy with Joseph. He’s so patient. Recently he shared his sexual fantasies and I admittedly don’t see many of them happening. But he didn’t mind that and instead comforted me and talked a...


February 07, 2022

Janaury 2015, Age 11

I remember when my great grandmother died. I was living in another part of thestateat the time, going to a early college middle school. That year I had no friends, it was a nice school but I had ...


It’s a good relationship so far even tho it’s days old dating wise. He’s so kind and talks about communication and how we shouldn’t rush sexual things until I feel safe and can actually give cons...


January 31, 2022

No Regrets

Today or well Sunday was slow. I laid in bed alot thinking about things. I’ve kept true to my word and left Joseph alone. I’ll only contact him when he contacts me, because I feel like he needs t...


January 28, 2022

Obsession

Joseph is so fragile right now, it makes me angry at the people that did this. In the past, I’ve written that I needed to tet help for these urges and thoughts. But, Joseph is so hurt by those pe...


January 25, 2022

Im not a baby murderer.

I don’t get why I always get such awful comments about how I want to treat my own body. It’s so random at times, it makes me feel sad and doubt myself but I remind myself that this is me and this...


January 24, 2022

Restful Weekend

I am mentally unstable but stably responsible. I guess sometimes I feel worried how ill be perceived through this diary. But sometimes I feel like it won’t matter. For now, I’m just focused on w...


January 22, 2022

Cold hearted

Today was quiet. A page I’ve interacted with alot thanked me for being so nice to them. I felt, happy but also sad. Because am I really a nice person? Or just a pretender. Sometimes you find your...


January 21, 2022

I guess i'd abort my son

I thought about something depressing, it’s sad and a bit fucked up. If I had a son I think I’d be scared and abort them. I would feel like I’d be a failure of a mother being scared of men and h...


January 20, 2022

Back onto the bullshit

It was nice to have one normal year in this chronicle of diaries. Today was calm, I watched some reactions to Euphoria. That was hard with headphones on and a phone nearby…note I never EVER put ...


I haven’t cut in years, that’s fucking crazy. It was 2021 I think I posted about it here and now I’m here missing it. I was gonna go out like a nutcase I suppose, with hundreds watching. It just ...


January 18, 2022

Therapy fucking sucks why

Lying my ass off in therapy, don’t know why she brought up a political issue during it. I’m so annoyed with that. My head is banging. I cried alot today, emotionally spent. Quite literally just g...


January 18, 2022

This shoul have been easy

My friend “died” a few months ago. I felt bad but I never bothered to say anything on the post made about it. Death is only relative, it’s only temporary. We are in a world that’s temporary. But ...


January 17, 2022

Age Gap relationship?

So. Joseph is into me. He knew I had a crush and I don’t know what our relationship is anymore. I felt sick but thrilled? And mistreated to the idea and then felt sicker and that I was going to p...


January 15, 2022

A world folding inward

I feel like I’m dying. I keep seeing things, feeling things. I’m growing worried but I have to stay strong. In a dying world one must be reborn. Is this what rebirth is meant to feel like? Who kn...


January 14, 2022

damn DO i have BPD?

This is something I’ve debated for awhile. I truly wish I had started started my diary earlier at age 15 so we could see if my theory is correct. I have pondered for awhile if I have BPD or some...


so…a lot has happened. wanted to write sooner but I’m rushing this computer will die soon! my college sent an email dismissing me, but I appealed. it was more so a threat but my advisor said I’m ...


January 06, 2022

jan 06//2022 - death by 21

At 21, the decision if I live or if I die will be made. this kinda hit me like a train at 16, 17 saying this felt like I had a century to choose. a century before college ended and I was basical...


Book Description

My diary from the year 2022 at age 18 to 19.