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Here we go again Once again I've been dropped from Life. Not that I mind completely yet. I guess it hasn't sunk in yet. But where is my fucking direction? Where is my potential going? I fee...

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Easter Easter was good. Went to the pet show w my mom than had dinner. Just cooking some shrimp right now and later going to cook salmon or something. I have to buy some clothes for this ba...

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So I am all done my course now thank god!' It's been three months and it's really changed me in some positive ways but it also really drained my energies and resources and time. I am glad that ...

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If this is America I still feel like I live in the Middle East I still feel repressed Depressed Unexpressed Not knowing how to proceed The more I think I can do without u The more I need ...

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This world drives me nuts The reality I live sometimes pisses me off The people so careless so fucking foul I don't wanna kill myself but if someone murders me at this point they'd be doing...

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Avoiding So I ran into my apt. Because the last downstairs was calling me today and than the last thing I wanna do when I come home from a long day is talk w her about money. Basically they d...

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Good day So got a lot of stuff at the furniture bank today. Except a sofa so I'll have to figure something out about that. Got side tables,rocking chair,glasses,kitchen table, chairs,pAinting,sh...

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Long day Had a long day Today at my course. It's so heavy man. All talking about mental health issues boundaries and all that. Deep stuff. I had to leave for a bit just because I was getting a...

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Hitting It hard I drank way too much last night. I only drink a lot when in going through rough times and just feeling ugh. I had a hangover from hell for a bit but now I am perfect again tha...

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I had a dream last night So last night again I had a dream about an ex. One I went to school with three years ago and that currently lives next door to me. Who I see periodically. He physic...

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Ugh pissed So I left my program early today I was getting bad pain in my head and chest and I think it was anxiety anger trauma being triggered Based at least partially. The woman I sit next ...

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Fucking fruit flies So I have an infestation of fruit flies. I'm trying this apple cider vinegar trap but it's been three hours and they don't go near it. These things aren't dumb! So I guess...

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Movie industry fuking my life up Not exactly but it's been irritating lately. They'll be gone soon. But last night I was woken up at about 2 am to continuous gun shots for about an hour or so...

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I hate how little things Remind me of you Innocent stupid things Like the temperature of the room Oh well. Gotta move forward And on And remeber why you aren't in my life anymore And eat ...

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Lonely Place is empty I feel empty Lonely What's wrong w me? That I am feeling this way all the time So many people in this world And I can hardly find one To truely connect with Care ab...

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Rob ford An embarrassment of my city A thug A joke No one who supports him can really give good reasons to support him He's a wreck Ugh when I see it I'm just numb about hearing about hi...

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Blinded So last night I had this dream about being blind sort of. I was trying to open my eyes but everytime i tried it was only partially and it hurt me to do it. I was in my old childhood h...

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Me me me me I lit my hair on fire. Accidentally if course. :p What happened was I was lighting a cigarette on my couch and my bangs were in the way. And all of a suddenly my hair first went po...

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People are so fake and or afraid Ugh so today just realized how fake some people are in my class. We had two presenters today both of which were just awful really but mostly the first one. DR...

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Well So today in my course we talked about keeping ourselves well and things that we do etc. It was good, it really re affirmed a lot of what I am doing just naturally to cope and keep well. ...

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How many bruises on you right now?: zero You talked to an ex today, correct?: No Have you stayed in a hospital? Yes Is trust a big issue for you? Yeah Did you hang out with the person yo...

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I don't like most people I don't like most people. Maybe it's because I have high expectations maybe it's because I have any at all. Most people just disappoint me. The worst feeling and rea...

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Return of the ex So yesterday I went to the store and ran into an old ex of mine again. I realized that he lives in the building right beside me for fucks sake! I walked by just as he was e...

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Final conversation and life doesn't need to be so hard So u got wasted last night. Drank to bottles if wine and drunk dialed my ex. Oops. I had my last conversation w him all numbed up. He sa...

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Fuck So I am having like this bad mood lately. Just sad empty tired and drained Is this how something that is supposed to propel you forward is supposed to feel? I guess in some ways m. Lif...

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