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Pills So went to the dr today to get myself on some pills. Zoloft. We will see how it helps w my ruminating thoughts and impulses a bit. Worries fears depressing thoughts I’m so tired of them. ...

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Odd one out So I started this new training thing and it’s going ok. Yet I have a familiar feeling of being one of the odd ones out and it bothers me because I do wanna be part of. And knowing th...

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Went So I went to the orientation it went well, a lot of diversity. Be good to be busy again doing things, making $$ and learning and trying new things. But alas it is not perfect. The partici...

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Smooth sailing So I’d say right now I am pretty content with things and I like that because I am not used to not feeling stressed or sad. I got a gig/job working As a peer health educator. I’m n...

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Nay Sayers It’s so hard to deal with a lot of ppl around me lately. A lot of them I find I cannot share my goals dreams or ideas without getting a negative response. Sure sometimes the comments ...

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Ice cold Saw my ex today It hurt. A lot. Strangely I felt bad for HIM. I was very cold to him. Didn’t say a word. Walked right by.

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Bills bills bills ugh so I finally had a look at my bank statement, its really not the best. I dont really know what I am going to do if I dont find employment soon. Maybe it is unrealistic for ...

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Jobs job jobs So looking for and finding jobs that are good right now luckily. Because job hunting for me is tedious at times! Things have been looking up and are pretty good mostly. Me and L ...

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Happy bday to me... So today's my bday. And my so called bf hasn't called or texted or anything. Seriously he's the only person i wish would have but he hasn't. He knows it's my bday but I haven'...

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Birthday tommorow So my bday is tommorow I am going to be 27.yay! I don't find this year of particular important I wouldn't say until I hit 30 will I think much of this year. But with every bday...

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Faux friends new friends old friends So yeah lately things have been alright I've been energized and happy for once! Strangely because a lot of things have gone wrong and have upset me. My i...

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Tried and tried but never could escape you So I ran into my ex Lee again. (My ex)That boy is a nutcase a bully and a loose cannon. But for some reason deep down I still care about him. I want t...

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Damn So today surprisingly I had a lot of energy to get stuff done. I haven't had this type of positive motivating energy in awhile. I got my laundry done cleaned up a lot. Still a lot to do bu...

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Idiot assaulted me last night So last night I went on an impromptu date w this guy at the drive in. He wasn't that attractive but I wanted to get out and he seemed ok at first. We had our m...

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No friends right now and I could give a shit So I dropped the last of my toxic friends. I'm glad I did and I feel empowered by it. Honestly the last thing I need is that kind of stress On me ...

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I'm 26 and I feel old Naw I don't feel old because I can't party like I used to Or because I can rent a car,buy booze,cigarettes,gamble or realize that most people have at least finnished uni...

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Crazy weekend So I had a crazy weekend. I officially hate my apt building and one of the security guards there! I had a fight w this guy who came over and was wasted and threw a glass across ...

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Odds and Ends Friends, people can't live w them, can't live without them unfortunately. So I'm happy in some ways to be in contact regularly lately with some old school friends but I am also k...

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Are you fucking kidding me? I've had the worst luck with people lately especially guys. I had been casually seeing this guy who I thought was alright. I didn't really like him much I'll be ho...

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You ever feel like there is so much you need to do? To face? To finish ? But your scared tired overwhelmed So you just avoid it until it becomes a mountain? That's how I feel.

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It's not right but it's ok So I am going through a big funk lately. But at least today I am doing a bit better. I'm greiving and missing my ex a bit. Tonight last year at this time he came ov...

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Blackout So the other night I had a guy come over id been seeing. All was well pretty much until I got too drunk on an empty stomach blurted out something from my past and freaked him out to ...

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The mom excuse I'm sick and tired of the mom excise I feel you mothers But when you aggressively tell me you don't have time than I have an issue Friends are important too right Better way ...

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Stupid dreams So my stupid dreams are always so deep and real and full of meaning. Always about my mom and bitch sister. Ganging up on me and pissing me off. Which happened in real life. I ...

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Dreams about my sick father Had another dream about my pedophile sick father. We was following me and I ran away from him telling him to leave me alone he looked at me all innocent like and a...

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