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Bad brain Still the same Act out Sound crazy But your acting too sane Calling me mamm Like I’m not going to complain Fuck you bitch For thinking With your brain Not your heart Your soul ...

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You pushed pushed and pushed Mercicessly With glee Like itd never end Like id always be there Like i would still care Poked me with a hot prod Until i became cold I got the fuck up I was a...

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Time. Its never really mine. I am always hustling. Desperate for so little. Whats the fucking point? They say wait. For fucking what? Seems like Ive been waiting all my life. And all ive been...

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I wanna fuck you raw. Deep. No sleep. Not skin. But from within. I want to get under your skin. Veins. I want to feel your pain. I want to see you hurt I want to see you fall. I want to fe...

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Observing. Cant do nothing but that. Drained. In pain. Wounded. I give up. I have no more words to say. I dont know what to do anymore. I fight and fight fight. Its futile. Its dark. The...

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Im trying make light Its like im in a circle Everone surrounds me Shining brightly. And i cant get the light. My stick is wet. I only have one rock. I cry out. But no one helps. Instead th...

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Sometimes it feels like your the only mediocre guy left on earth. How we met waa cosmic. To me at least. I never let people in like that. You are dangerous. This I know. And i am dangerous  i...

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So hurt by nas. Hes the only real person  in my life and he fucks me than ignores me. Such an asshole. I always feel so used. I dont understand why he does that. I told him not to speak to me aga...

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This is what you did to me. Growing  up and still I feel so guilty all the time  and like i am a burden. I always feel like i have to say the right  kind compassionate wise thing. Sometimes  i d...

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We often…(I often…get caught up  in small details…the past the future  the bad  small things  in life) That we dont look at the bigger picture in life. Who we are. Isnt our mistakes. Just being...

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So i got caught up in negative stiffling energy today. Im still trying to shake it off. Its been relentless. But im trying to do my best  to relax and calm down.  Its not easy. I have so much a...

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Made all these big changes Which i am confident  about But still scared Because they were big decisions  And  theres nothing  really but me Thats left. The future seems so unknown  I dont k...

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Just woke up from a bad dream. I dont want tl talk about it in detail  but it was  about my childhood.  I often have nightmares. Almost weekly really. Its really haunting  and fusterating as i ...

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Betraying myself By liking you Because i really dont So empty Craving a rush Even if the love is fake Its too painful Need to run away Need to fuck you over Pleading begging Wanting som...

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I never feel like i can do anything right I should have waited longer. Im selfish and stupid and worthless. I just dont have anyone else. Im doing the best that i can .if i had someone other th...

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Feel empty People around just disappoint I cant connect They wont connect  to me Let down Hope this  will pass Till than this is where i am I guess i just go on I just go through  the mome...

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I knew But there was nothing i can do I was trapped Scared Going out of my mind Didnt know. What to do. I got very sick. Because you terrorized me. My world became smaller. Before i knew ...

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Broken arm bruising i had. 2septembers ago my ex broke my arm flipped out  and put about an 8 inch chef knife to me and shoved me into a bathroom where he threatened  to stab me if i didnt remo...

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Even desperation is planning for me And when the desperation plan doesnt work Its a blessing in disguise Even when it hurts And its fusterating Because life goes on The day end And tommoro...

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So today is close to Christmas. It’s a Saturday. I am bored just doing things here and there. Watched a super cute movie called Little Boy last night was such a tear jerker. It’s rare to find a ...

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So in my life I have been lucky lately that I have many compassionate Witnesses that C my struggle I feel as though without them I wouldn’t be able to see invalidate the challenges that I go thro...

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So luckily my periods not as bad as I thought it would be. The weather’s pretty nice so I’m in an OK spot I’m realizing how dependent I was in alcohol right now I don’t really want to drink becau...

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So I’m about on D 4 of taking a new medication of taking a new medication and I think it’s working pretty well already I still have a long way to go but I’m seeing a difference in my sleep and my...

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One day L One day you’ll be a thing of the past It’ll still hurt but I’ll be gone.

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Life So my life can be pretty good sometimes I created it I got help here and there But I created my life I designed it and I make it and live it I live on my own my cat Big place Security ...

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