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One thing I have never been able to master of my own emotions is feeling of being the last to know. I’m not sure what it is that upsets me about that so much. I remember once at an office I used ...

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Saw a Facebook post that triggered a memory. Ever have one of those that used to upset you or make you angry, but now just seems like a bad movie scene - no emotions at all? Here’s one.. The post...

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It all bust seems that timing isn’t my strong suit. When I was a teenager I was told, a lot, I was ahead of my time. Some things I wanted to accomplish I was told I would need to wait. Then, afte...

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It’s funny - I’ve been thinking about this for about a week. The question has been dancing around in my head and I believe it’s perspective. Let’s answer the baited question that satan gives to n...

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I have been on this philosophical journey to figure out where I took a wrong turn that upended my childhood dreams. I’ve blamed this person or that one and I’ve blamed myself. It’s ultimately li...

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It is said that one decision can effect up to 17 people who are aquatinted with you, even if they aren’t close. I’ve tried to keep this in mind when I do things or make decisions. A lot of things...

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I know for a good 15 years my mom will occasionally send me a text and ask my advice about something. That was about the time she decided to leave my stepdad (the narcissist) and be the strong in...

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I am helping to teach homeschool. I am running a business. I am working on my music. I am volunteering as a youth sports coach 3 days a week. I’ve been told I have too many irons in the fire. Ma...

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In a week and a half will mark the anniversary of when I made a decision for myself. A decision to regain my health and start a new journey. Yet, that journey is not what this entry is about ent...

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As it appears, I have always existed behind walls. I built them high so no one could break thru my barrier. I didn’t want to know anyone and didn’t want anyone to know the real me. I was conditi...

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I want to apologise to anyone who ever walked away from a conversation with me feeling like I treated you like you were less than a person or that you didn’t matter. If I ever posted something th...

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I don’t believe in coincidence. There, I said it. When I began this journey the sole purpose of these entries was to write about things I couldn’t say out loud. The anonymity was intriguing and t...

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I look at life differently than I used to. I guess that is age talking. I look to the past and think I wasted life somehow. I spent too much time dreaming and trying to will something to happen o...

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I’m not sure what prompted the imaginary friends. I was 4 maybe 5 years old and according to my mom I had legitimate conversations with a boy I called Bud that no one else could see. There was al...

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I am lying here awake. Typically, over the last few weeks I have not had too many negative thoughts. I mean, none that have brought on anxiety like a few months ago. I was working at a job I too...

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I have been having more dreams lately. I have been fascinated by dream interpretation for a while, but I mainly have done that for others. One reason is because it seemed as though I couldn’t rem...

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I have noticed over the years that many friends I have are a result of someone approaching me, and not the other way around. When I try to approach someone it’s almost as if I have huge sign over...

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I recently agreed to act in a community theater play as a fundraiser for a church. I had the most amazing time! It was a lot of work but it was over before I was ready for it to be over. I have ...

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I have this urge to write something. I just don’t know what. I used to dream about playing large stadiums or being an actor in a movie. I guess I’m just a big dreamer with no path to making them ...

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I used to pride myself with an ability to manage my patience with others. My stress and tolerance level with others was very high. It took a lot to get me to be impatient and upset. I’m not sure ...

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Is it just me or is relationships nowadays like streaming music? There was a time when people invested into the entire album. However, that was when the bands actually made records with well plan...

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My mind has always been somewhere but in the here and now. When I was in elementary school I would daydream and forget to do my work. Well, lets be honest, I just didn’t want to. One daydream I ...

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It was Christmas, 1986. I was in the 6th grade. I was thankful to have had the teacher that I had. She was a sweet person that communicated on our level. I found out many years later that she cam...

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Maybe for this reason, I dream. It’s not that I don’t like my reality - I just don’t care for it. A little bit of me wishes I had grown up during the 1800s. A time when people wasn’t so desensiti...

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I was probably 4 maybe 5 years old when I kept having the same reoccurring nightmare. It lasted what I’m perceiving to be well into the time I started the 3rd grade. It didn’t happen nightly but ...

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