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Daydreaming on the Porch

by Oswego

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September 18, 2017

Butterflies

Beauty is truth, truth beauty… John Keats Happiness is a butterfly, which when pursued, is always just beyond your grasp, but which, if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you. Nathanial H...


September 04, 2017

Everyday awe and enchantment

There is enchantment right in front of you, waiting for you to notice. Janet Luhrs Come forth into the light of things. Let Nature be your teacher. William Wordsworth We do not see Nature with...


August 23, 2017

Of eclipses and dementia

August 21, 2017 It’s been almost three months since I retired, and my working years now seem like some distant past life. Even though I go back to visit my friends where I worked for the last 21...


August 01, 2017

Yearning for escape

It’s been two months now since I retired and yet I really can’t go anywhere or plan anything ambitious in the way of extended road trips and travel. My caregiving duties are now all concentrated...


July 19, 2017

Rest in peace, Ginger

We had a wrenchingly sad week as we had to put to sleep this past Friday our dear and deeply loved cat, Ginger, who was 20 years old. She slept all day next to Mom on the sofa and gave us such a...


July 06, 2017

Flowers

Flowers… are a proud assertion that a ray of beauty outvalues all the utilities of the world Ralph Waldo Emerson If we could see the miracle of a single flower clearly, our whole life would chang...


The kiss of the sun for pardon. The song of the birds for mirth. One is nearer God’s heart in a garden than anywhere else on Earth. Dorothy Frances Gurney I have four places that are my favori...


Dementia Storm and Transformation, June 18, 2017 The past couple of months Mom has been in what I might describe as a state of equilibrium, even, dare I say it, improvement, although that’s not s...


June 11, 2017

Retirement realities

The past two weeks have been an incredible transition period, really difficult psychologically as I’ve struggled with second thoughts and bouts of depression and anxiety. Retirement is liberatin...


May 24, 2017

New beginnings

In another week or so, I’ll just have one full-time job:  caregiving.   After May 31, I’ll have retired from the job I’ve held for 22 years.  I made the decision a couple of months ago, but now i...


I’m facing one of the biggest transitions in my life – one everyone faces – but one which, in my case, I really haven’t had to even think about until recently.   After 22 years of coming to the s...


April 04, 2017

Books and gardens

If you have a garden and a library, you have everything you need. Cicero I must have several thousand books upstairs in my living quarters at the family home in downtown Charleston. Most have be...


Mentally and emotionally it’s been a tumultuous couple of months. It starts to all seem like some sort of never ending story of an aging parent deteriorating more rapidly now from her dementia...


March 24, 2017

Azaleas, Spring 2017

Study Nature, love Nature, stay close to Nature. It will never fail you. Frank Lloyd Wright This has been a glorious Spring, although early, and how we needed it after the Fall and Winter just p...


This week revealed such startling contrasts in Mom’s condition that it’s literally mind-boggling. Over the past two months her condition has deteriorated significantly, but with oasis moments of...


February 03, 2017

My favorite house

I think most of us have ideas about what our “dream” house would be if we could perfectly imagine it, find it, or or even build it . That’s because embedded deep within us is a rather ancient y...


“… Family caregiving is a profound and deeply personal experience. It touches on our mortality and our vulnerability, who we are as humans, as sons and daughters, husbands, wives, fathers and mo...


I have a beautiful little book published in 1870 entitled “Flowers: Their Language and Poetry.” I can’s remember where I bought it. I think it was the used books place I used to frequent a lo...


Photography is fascinating to me because it’s both descriptive and symbolic at the same time. Descriptive because it shows you something that looks like the world and symbolic because the best ph...


October 27, 2016

Questions

October 26, 2016 I dreamed a thousand new paths. I woke and walked my old one. Chinese proverb I sometimes find myself thinking about the future when I am no longer a caregiver and I have the n...


October 12, 2016

Hurricane madness

Hurricanes are elemental, monstrous forces of Nature. We rode out Hurricane Betsy in 1965 when it attacked and flooded New Orleans with 100 mph winds. I’ll never forget that long night of seem...


September 24, 2016

Worlds within worlds

I’ve been in the mood for digging back into the past today, having had a day off from work and a few rare and precious hours to myself to think and reminisce as I went through some folders stuffe...


September 06, 2016

Dementia Journal, 9/5/16

I’ve been in some of the strangest and most introspective moods lately. Sometimes sad and depressed, but mostly rather stoical. It seemed to start when I crossed a very significant psychologica...


August 26, 2016

You'll never walk alone

Lately, I’ve been going to YouTube and listening to favorite old songs from the sixties. I guess as I get older, I get more and more nostalgic for that seemingly simpler time in my life. Certa...


A nice lady at Colonial Lake Park saw me pointing my camera up at the sky and clouds at Colonial Lake Park yesterday and said, “Until I saw you, I never would have thought to look up and see thos...


Book Description

Short essays from the interior of my life.