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I feel happy. Elated. Relieved. Free J (my mother) came out and told me exactly what I needed to hear. For that, I feel incredibly grateful. I mean, wow! It’s like a huge weight has been lifted o...

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for connection. That was my entire childhood. I think back on all those awkward moments. You know. The ones that come back and haunt you at night when you’re trying desperately to just turn off...

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I always feel so tired after talking with my mom. This weekend, mom sent a message to me and my husband inviting us over for dinner. No explanation about her behavior over the last months. No hi...

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What a relief it is to believe that it’s all just me. If it’s me, then it can be fixed! The part of me that wants the problem to be me is desperate. It wants there to be a problem with me becau...

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was never good. I’m not sure why, exactly. But you always thought the worst of me. And you often told me so. You’re a brat. You’re spoiled. You’re manipulative. Why don’t you care? You really hu...

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Just want to share my experience as a child growing up in an incredibly unconscious/projecting and narcissistic household. My ‘talk’ consisted of my mom confronting me after having read a story ...

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When I started to describe to my therapist how I behaved as a child, and for most of my life, she said to me, “You were terrified.” Yeah, I was. I do realize that. But, you know… it’s so difficu...

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Accrue in accordance with the original contractual obligation and no party shall abdicate their contractual obligation without express written permission and agreement from both parties in the fo...

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I fear and hate it. It is my mother’s most oft used excuse; and she pulls it out in defense of the most heinous crimes. Ignorance, I think, has always been my worst enemy. It’s used to justify ...

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I exchanged emails with an Aunt recently. I asked her, if she was willing, to share any tidbits about my childhood with me. She responded with one example; she noticed that my parents were exces...

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Cruelty is pleasure in inflicting suffering or inaction towards another’s suffering when a clear remedy is readily available. My therapist brought up this word as a response to more than one stor...

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IFS has been truly transformative. Yesterday, I had 2 IFS sessions. One with my therapist, and one with my peer partner. I worked primarily to transform 3 parts; a little 5 year old girl who want...

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I was talking to a fellow boards member the other day about his father. Obviously, it made me think of my own father. One thing that struck me, was that he hated his time with his father. Ah, I...

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I don’t remember when it was that I began to hate my dad. I think it was somewhere between 5 and 6 years old. I think it was around then because I can remember as a 5 year old, I was in daycare h...

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I went to my cousin’s kids birthday party this weekend, and it was incredibly sad. Her kids are 6, 8, and 13. The eldest is a very intelligent girl. She’s smart, sociable, affable, funny, and ve...

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It triggers a part in me that needs to be Heard. Hear me, dammit! I AM a person! I HAVE a voice! I exist. I spoke with that part today. She was 2 years old. Just 2 years old. A small, angry ball...

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