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I’m so behind on work, and I honestly can’t even get myself to feel any motivation for it. Like, it’s all so corrupt that I don’t even have momentum to get things done in a timely manner, which ...

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In a very technical way, I’m in my first relationship since that awful debacle with Jonah which everyone told me later was an abusive relationship. Not physically, other types of abuse, and I su...

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What size is your bed? You know, I don’t know. When I was talking to my mother about Cameron moving, she mentioned his “tiny” bed being so old, and I told her that bed was 20 years old. “How do ...

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For a few weeks, I was toying with moving down to the main area of town. I quickly came to my senses when I realized that I am finally stabilized financially after abruptly switching jobs and it ...

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I was out and suddenly ran into Good. I know I know. How many times am I going to get caught up in that nonsense? But it was very amusing because the week before I had been out with this guy I ho...

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I read recently about the questionnaire compiled by a psychologist to help people determine compatibility in romantic relationships, and so I figured that since there are so many nonsense surveys...

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So the day finally arrived. He’s been talking about it since we first met about 2 years ago, back when producing his series was just a dream for him. Ark was always telling me he wanted me to do ...

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So I’m sitting alone in my office for the second day in a row now at a complete and utter loss. I’m not so naive as to not realize that I have a giant office, even if I have to share, my half of ...

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My former professor, a great friend and mentor, sent me a message a few mornings ago. She told me that she had had a dream about me. I must be honest, I don’t receive messages like that very ofte...

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I wouldn’t say I’m impatient, but people think I’m very impulsive. This is of course far from the truth, it’s just that my patience is invisible to most people. I wait for important things, the t...

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I’m not sick anymore, which is good because I’m going on vacation this weekend. I’m going to a small little beach resort on the coast. I reasoned that I needed a vacation from my vacation due to ...

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It was Ark’s birthday a few days ago. For those of you who don’t remember, Ark and I were hooking up until he randomly got a boyfriend and forgot to tell me about it and it kind of broke my heart...

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I walked into class and one of my students wasn’t looking as energetic or happy as he used to. The truth is, neither was I. Four teachers were out with Covid, so I was teaching way more than I ha...

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I don’t know how to explain what it’s like here. I live in an alternate reality. Which is both good and bad. Nothing that happens over there matters. Which means that negative things don’t affec...

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Do you have any nicknames? I have so many nicknames that my friend Billy Francesca, a West Hollywood legend, told me that I had more aliases and alter-egos than he did and that meant I was eith...

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Ironically, something that was said on the new season of The Real World: Homecoming triggered a thought process in my head. I know why I have such severe panic attacks but I only know the symptom...

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WHERE: At my condo overlooking the river just outside of Bangkok with nothing to do because it’s a week-long holiday and all my friends are just arriving back from orgies in Phuket. WEARING: Bask...

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To say that I’m still shaken by the events that unfolded in the last entry would be accurate. I’m very sensitive to death, especially random death. The full story about those young men emerged fu...

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I feel like doing one of these because it’s been a while and I like the randomness of this one. Is there a rail line near your house? If so, is it noisy and bothersome? I live directly across the...

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Things have been happening so rapidly that I really can’t keep up. Although, now that my brain is functioning normally, I’m able to organize and get things set in motion easier. I’ve officially p...

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Anthjo posted this survey and it wasn’t annoying, so I figure what the hell! Have you ever used a dating site/app? I try it for about a week and then I get rid of it. Look, I am terrible at writt...

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The other day at work, it was my co-worker’s last day. Christophe and I started on almost the same exact day, but we didn’t meet until he got back, nearly a month later, from his visit to his son...

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So recently, my little brother broke up with his girlfriend. I found out about it while I was in LA because my mother had to share it with me, but the way she shared it with me completely cemente...

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I just wrote the longest and most boring entry about my disorder that I’ve ever written. No one wants to read that, I didn’t even want to write it, so I’ll distill it down to something interestin...

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Angel I’m walking down some kind of passage, all I can perceive is a brick wall to my right. Somehow the pathway is lit before me in a way that completely directs my path forward. To the left is ...

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