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Journal 2020

by HoniBunnyCakey

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February 20, 2020

Rocking

I think I need to sleep more, my hallucinations are coming back in the tenfold. I just had one about my keyboard on my phone and I restarted it in a panic. I’m paraniod about my bf, I’m scared he...


February 18, 2020

Confessions

I’m writing this because I feel like it’s time. This diary I want my daughter to read when I’m old enough to have one and maybe she’ll understand why her mother is understandable. I had a thirty ...


February 18, 2020

Trust

I don’t know if I trust my mom anymore or if I ever did. Sure, I get along with her but I don’t really trust her now. She acts as if I’m always mad or this bad, rude person. I’m not. This is why ...


February 14, 2020

Lost friends

Since they diary I’ve made many friends. And I’ve lost many of them. I started to wonder if I’m the problem and reason why but I can’t find anyway to prove that. If so it must be my personality, ...


February 13, 2020

Angry

I’m so angry I don’t know know why I’m just so so angry. I’m crying I’m so angry. I want to just scribble on paper until I can’t stop. I feel my insides boiling and I just want to kick and scream...


February 12, 2020

I was never meant

Emi left. And I tried to DM him today only to remember her left. John doesn’t want to do anything anymore and since that’s the only way we talked we’re never talking anymore I guess. Lili’s alter...


February 12, 2020

I was never meant

I was never meant to be a good person. I was never meant to be happy. I get that now. I’m tired of trying and then all my work is thrown in my face. I don’t recognize myself anymore. I feel more ...


February 11, 2020

Demons

There’s bad people in the world and today kinda proved to me how bad you try, you will be seen as a bad person. It will make you rot and went to tear yourself apart from the inside, you’ll want t...


February 11, 2020

Little Mermaid

Wolfie was nice today, he sent me some nice messages. I regret my crush I had on him so much, I only told him to help not make our friendship uncomfortable. He’s twenty three and I’d never date a...


February 09, 2020

February ninth

So. Yeah life’s been sicky. I’ve been trying to talk to John, Lili or Kayden about stuff. But I pretty much gave up. I just. Gave up for a good reason, just trust me on this. Something happened y...


February 08, 2020

Flue

Guess who has the flu! Anyway, today I ate lots of food. Because I’m excited because I learned my weight at the doctor’s Thursday. They where checking my measurements and turns out I’m actually ...


February 05, 2020

Embarrassing...

A friend deleted a comment i made in public on their account, saying I’d cause them trouble at school… This is why I prefer stuffed animals. They’re never ashamed of you. Or yell at you. Or get d...


February 04, 2020

February 02 - 03

Today… I’ve wondered if writing journals is really worth it in the end. I’ve been doing this for nearly a year now and it’s sad to see how much has gone wrong. However, many things have gone righ...


January 29, 2020

Failure

I tried everything guys. I didn’t do anything to drive him away. I tried so bad. And he…he…lied. I saw in a server with my own eyes last week he talked about how he wasn’t over his ex, how the en...


January 25, 2020

January, 24th

I don’t know if I want to write the mess that happened mid afternoon. I’ll write it tommorow or later tonight. Quite a mess indeed. Anyway, my boyfriend has been such a cutie recently. A adorable...


January 21, 2020

Good day :)

So far my day has been good, besides a horrific nightmare/sleep paralysis experience this morning. It shook me to the core as I couldn’t move stalk for a few minutes, I barely slept for like two...


January 19, 2020

Making up

So Emi and I made up. He seems healthier, he got himself a partner seventeen days ago(?) and he just seems more happy! I’m really happy for him. <3 Anyway, life’s been hectic I’m unsure. If I ...


January 15, 2020

To Will

I know you can see this. And I don’t regret saying i wished i never met you. Because I don’t, you treated me… like…like I was your property.


January 13, 2020

So, last night

Last night my friend did want to fuck me. But it was a girl this time. Anyway, I found myself not being scared by what she was texting because a) she was a girl b) she isn’t like that despite fac...


January 13, 2020

Talking

I’m well aware of the fact i give to many chsnces. I know. I try to be very open and kind. But it does backfire. And it does open yourself to uncomfortable situations…


January 13, 2020

Loneliness

For nearly a month it’s worsened and worsened. I feel empty, I’m trying my best


January 12, 2020

Trash

I’ve been trying so hard. And I keep trying to. But it never is enough. It never is.


January 10, 2020

Heartbreak

I didn’t think Will, would do that. I honestly hope I’m wrong. But if I’m not…I can’t believe it. Did he think I’d leave Isaac for him? Hell no. In my anger at thinking Isaac cheated I said I’d ...


January 09, 2020

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I’m tired. Today was a exhausting day, I ate cheeseballs and pizza and potato wedges and drank orange juice and water. Good. I feel sick and hurt but it’s okay. Just gotta keep working on these r...


January 08, 2020

You and Me

I don’t want him to die. He had begun starving himself in my absent. I hate myself, for thinking breaking off our friendship would serve him well. Life was better for him even though he was dying...


Book Description

My diary from 2020 to 2021