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Starts Political
(1) Yesterday, the White House released a statement that does what Donald Trump always does… reinforces the extreme Us versus Them rhetoric which is the only thing his brain understands. This ma...
Bad Examples
My professional and personal life provide far too many terrible examples of humanity and the brokenness of too many relationships. Get this: A woman is with a man and they get married. The man n...
Knowledge
Knowledge is power. They say that there is no knowledge that is not power and I’ve debated both sides of that issue. As in all truly intelligent debates, the first building block is determined by...
Veritas
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Wish
I wish I had someone to say this to in person and really work through it. But as even therapy is digital these days… that isn’t an option. And it is important to have an IN PERSON interaction b...
Adding Exhaustion
SO… I’m really honestly going to try to push through and get some stuff done tonight. But I made a terrible and exhausting choice. A friend was writing about why he was worried about Amy Barrett’...
I... Don't Know
So… I don’t know why but today I woke up and I’m just feeling… down. Just lower self esteem, no motivation. So of course… foolish me… in this state of mind, I decide to update my Christmas Wish L...
Magistrate Day
Today is Magistrate Day so… I’ve been in court. Getting nothing done. And as I’ve been quarantining… I have noticed something. (1) My drinking is fluctuating. :( Some days, I’ll be good and dr...
You're F'ing Kidding Me!
Just saw this online interaction: Biden4Prez: It’s too bad Trump supporters have their own delusional reality. TrumpLyfe: I think you have that backwards, there. Biden4Prez: Okay, how about you ...
Whoopsie
I woke up in extreme pain today. I mean, it is obvious. I’m walking three miles a day (or so) plus trying to exercise plus trying to keep my house running plus work. My body is going through a...
Not a Joke
okay… I know this is going to come off as calloused or insensitive but after watching some TV today? I honestly think I have to temporarily add “You can do better” to my list of trigger phrases....
An... adventure?
So… one of the things I promised myself I would do with this “quarantine time” is to tackle my reliance on alcohol. I would say that it is okay or not that bad but… Sunday, I drank one drink. G...
Emotional Exhaustion from Work
Such. Bullshit. I mean… I.... ::sigh:: No wonder I don’t do well alone. Get in to work. E-Mail is flooded. FUCK! What happened over the weekend? “We’re having sex. And we were having sex. But ...
Elaborating
So the ASM Entry relates to me writing about my emotions regarding the divorce and processing my new normal. I mean, as COVID fell and continues to impact us all, we’re all discussing “new norma...
ASM
I’m asking all social media: When a problem cannot be solved with anything other than patience, but there is still pain or hardship… what is the limit on “discussing it?” Is there a time where “e...
The world is cruel, and the only morality in a cruel world is chance
Just… Two Face Quote. Starting with “You thought we could be decent men in an indecent time.” Which frankly… I felt a kinship with Two Face as early as 1992… but that comment in today’s world s...
525,600 seconds
Last night, I went to bed… nothing special. BUT I had been informed that there was a FROST ADVISORY… meaning temperatures so low overnight that animals should be brought inside and windows close...
Pretrial
I feel like I’m about to do improv comedy in front of a firing squad.
S.O.B
Not… a great start to the day. I was up late last night cleaning and catching up on house chores because with this week being what it is… there was no other day I could do that. I stayed up past...
Crap
Uh oh! There was enough lull between getting today’s work done and leaving for my busy evening that I caught the sad. Shit. I hate that. I have so much to do tonight. Cleaning and laundry and ...
Ten Minutes for Two Things
(1) The office computers have been slow today. Like… irritatingly slow. Like the over 60 year olds who don’t push their processors are even complaining about how slow it is. For me? A guy tha...
Brain, Spot, Time
Jury Trial Number One starts tomorrow. Jury Trial Number Two starts Thursday. So, I expect I will be “break my back” busy. At least today I certainly will be. But still, two bits: (1) I was tryi...
Damn
So, I’ve been trying to sleep for the last 4.5 hours. Nothing. My mind isn’t even the culprit, I got to my “calming restful” mind space. But my body is just in “fuck that” mode. The best I co...
Bre Tay
So I don’t know if people have been interested in my particular perspective on certain issues. I am an attorney, but I’m sensitive. I am a prosecutor, but I am genuinely for ending police bruta...
Decided
I decided that proper sleep, relaxation, and a fresh mind would be the best preparation for trials set tomorrow, so I told the office I was working from home today. This also provides me with th...
Book Description
I was 20 when I first started taking pills that let me see the world with a little less pain. A few months after that, I met a woman that I thought was beautiful and interesting. When I was 26, I proposed. We married when I was 27 and moved to Omaha. That is where our marriage ABSOLUTELY fell apart. That was 2011. For the last many years; I had been trying to salvage the marriage. At the end of 2019, I told my wife that we needed to separate. This year we file, she moves out, and I try to figure out how to get my shit sorted.
