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I waaaaaaaaaaaannnnnnnnnt
to write some poetry. But I am worried it would come across as lacking in subtlety, being whiny, being annoying, or being entirely ignorable. Bah. So instead… I’l jot down notes and then expand...
MATHS FOLLOW UP
Please read the previous entry as that entry is the entry of substance. This is merely a correction. After receiving many notes as to people concerned about the mortgage payment being too much o...
Let's Put It All Out There
Some notes from the last few days have been amazing… some… not so much. Some of you have seen and understood what’s going on. Others haven’t. That’s fair. Ultimately, here’s the only thing yo...
The Duality Push
This is likely juvenile and immature and beneath me but… I have quite the strong urge to simply distance myself from Victoria and Remus and Essen. Remus changed the name of our Group Chat to Poly...
Adventures In Dating Apps
What a way to start a morning. Woke up to someone on Tinder having actually matched with me. I have Bumble, Tinder, Match, and OKC and between all of them… I never get picked, much less matched....
Further Fallout
After Saturday and returning to a new… significantly more empty house… a thought spiral absolutely took me out. Other than the fact that this house is so much more empty… other than the fact that...
Short Phone Entry
Had my first dream about Aoife in a long time. She came to surprise me after hearing about my divorce. A nice, unrealistic fantasy-type dream. IRL she probably does know about it but I am cert...
Surprised
I’m editing something I wrote and adding more detail because… y’all already know most of my original writing: I’m not one of those guys that drags his ex-wife. That being said, there is a reason ...
Therapy and Other
Therapy for me today was good. I’m always pleased when a professional therapist is astounded at my self-reflection, self-awareness, and knowledge of emotional and intellectual concepts. We disc...
Remoulade
Funny thing is? This happens. I have words floating around in my brain completely unattached to ANYTHING. Meaning… no definition, no picture identity, no historical markers, no emotional conte...
Sod Off, Today!
I woke up today to loud thunder booming around the house. Not surprisingly, after a few of those… Nala decided she no longer wanted to sleep on the couch and came back to sleep on the bed. Her l...
Updates
HA! Me writing for the first time today at 2:00 p.m. We must be busy! Today started with what I would call an interesting issue. Depositions in a Domestic. Most of the notes are familiar. Defe...
Stirring the Pot
Here’s some humor! I may have started a bees nest of bullshit. I follow a page dedicated to being against Toxic Masculinity. Considering I was on College Boards about that subject before the ter...
The remainder
So I Nala destroyed more of the couch. :( And then when I got home from a 4 hour drive for new eyes (apparently, my prescription changed enough for it to be significantly noticeable to me.) I wal...
Politics and Bullshit
Actually, let’s start with humor first. You know how I’ve got a big ol’ weakness for legs. Like… stockings and a skirt could be considered my Kryptonite? My appreciation of the following comic...
Monmomonday
This should really start with Sunday night. I won’t go into details. I’ve already written about it a great deal in an effort to process everything. The quick sixteen second version? Victoria i...
Bah
Insane Day of Court. Literally in the court house from 9 am until 4 pm. Will write more later.
A Personal Statement
You know? One of the things I think about? Nancy wasn’t “standard knock out”. There are plenty of people in this world who would probably say that she isn’t their cup of tea. But I found her b...
F-Word Fridays
I know I don’t have to censor the title but I felt it appropriate. Yet again, my Friday night was an absolute disaster of loneliness and over-drinking. And I understand why Friday nights are the...
Therapy
Today’s therapy dealt primarily with trying to investigate why I didn’t feel like I was enough. A bit of teeing up from youth… in that “work hard, strive forward, always do better” is good motiva...
Schedules
Well, this is bloody stupid. One would think that a scheduled repair or service would put some kind of importance on the concept of SCHEDULE. I had scheduled a heater clean for 8 a.m. and a water...
A Single Meme
I have finally discovered the Meme for when my Therapist and Parents say “Stop worrying or caring if you’ll ever achieve your dream of being a husband/father and having a stable loving family. Y...
My Twitter Feed Today
(1) This shouldn’t need saying. But often does. Just because hearings are being done over the phone now? Doesn’t mean it is okay to turn up drunk or high. And YES, we can tell! (2) Just read a ...
LaAast Night and today
As can be expected from my entry yesterday… YESTERDAY WAS FRACKING RIDICULOUS. I got home and I was just… I’m sorry, Nala. I was exhausted. But I wasn’t going to just… not interact with my bel...
Yet Again
Yet another day where things get off to a “hit the ground rolling” start. Last night was nice. No sexual expectations, Victoria and I just hung out and finished all of New Who. Which… I know be...
Book Description
I was 20 when I first started taking pills that let me see the world with a little less pain. A few months after that, I met a woman that I thought was beautiful and interesting. When I was 26, I proposed. We married when I was 27 and moved to Omaha. That is where our marriage ABSOLUTELY fell apart. That was 2011. For the last many years; I had been trying to salvage the marriage. At the end of 2019, I told my wife that we needed to separate. This year we file, she moves out, and I try to figure out how to get my shit sorted.
