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Random Statement
Now or later, when Martha moves out, I’m especially reminded that… if I had a good desktop computer and business-line at home? On non-court days, I wouldn’t need to leave my house. Which would ...
Insider
Obviously, I am aware of the myriad ways that the law and the system is broken. The funny thing about working in so public (and so Hollywood focused) an industry is that everyone has their own o...
Running Through Monday
First, as I hadn’t updated since: Martha’s date cancelled. So she didn’t go on a date yet after all. As far as that specific and limited interaction… I’m actually even more okay with it than I ...
Timming
I find it interesting that the day that I write up a “Here is what was broken in my marriage. Here is what a healthy marriage would be. If Martha can do this, good. If she can’t; accept nothin...
Jotting
Today… is a day? More snow. Which… were I a child or a person in a position to entertain children; could actually be quite fun. However as a professional that is required to travel, it is not ...
Tilfeldige Ord
No, I don’t speak Norwegian. My mom and brother do. And I still have our family prayer in Norwegian memorized. Thus why I knew that the Norwegian word for “word” was Ord. Tilfeldige is “rando...
Handful
First, I just saw a meme that is so many people in my life that I am required to share it. THIS IS SO MANY PEOPLE IN MY LIFE!! LITERALLY. Like.... “The media says chopping your dick off is pain...
Twitter-Sized
I hope it doesn’t sound too terrible to say that I’m feeling nervous. Talking about the separation? Lots of nerves. Discussing it with the family? Lots of tears. The last three months, though...
A Dark Sun Rises
Not sure how much writing I’ll do today. But as I last wrote 5 days ago… and that’s rather a long pause for me, I felt it appropriate to return to speak. Thursday Night was Dungeons and Dragon...
Nowhere Else to Put This
I’ve nowhere else to put this so I’ll just put this here… consider it vague-booking. I honestly wish I had someone that I could talk to, in person, and really sort through some things. It is one...
Kinks, PBDSBN, and Other Things
This entry may be more appropriate in my “Explicit” Book but I feel that this is more of a “daily journal” issue so I’ll simply say in advance… this entry will contain discussion of sexual concep...
Continued Procrastination for Today
So… I did get a mutual right swipe on Tinder last night. From a girl whose message was “My band and I are touring and our van keeps breaking down. I can send you pics for money!” So… again… not t...
What?!
I don’t know what is wrong with my rhythms or what, but I need to be getting more sleep. This waking up and being instantly tired shit has got to go. I acknowledge (fully) that weather has a lo...
A Different Day
Whoo. Boy howdy did yesterday go long! Typically… my days would be 8:00 to 4:30. Yes, I’m a government employee. Yesterday? I got to work at 6:30 a.m. and didn’t leave court until 5:00 p.m. ...
A Faint Whisper
A Faint Whisper These are the moments where I wish for a more peaceful soul. A more restful mind. A more steady heart. The moments of waiting with nothing to fill the space. I have an hour be...
Early Days
Last night, I tried my best to get to bed early because I wanted to wake up early. But it was difficult. However, I did absolutely get up early… but earlier than expected. Nala was whining to ...
U48
So what I predicted is pretty much exactly what has happened. I have been using dating apps for two months and have had ZERO responses from anyone. Martha has been on dating apps for five days ...
On Work
Yes, sue me. I’m doing a second entry today. Why? Well, in part because I have the time and opportunity to do so. You see, as busy as next week promises to be… I’m somewhat counting on a bit ...
Worked in stages
Stage One: As I was flipping through Tinder, as always pointlessly swiping left or right with the certainty that I’ll never actually figure out how these sites work, Martha appeared as a “suggest...
Nothing New
I know this is nothing new. I’m back to repeating myself and looping again. I hate that. Life shouldn’t be about passively having things happen to you. Life should be something you actively p...
Well...
Well… things happened. Therapist had to cancel on me last night because she was sick. I’m not upset… everyone gets sick. But I’m disappointed because I really needed to talk to her about rippin...
Old, New, Working Through
I predicted last night fairly well all things being equal! I drove home and parked the car in the garage. Opened the door, walked down the hallway, opened the door into the kitchen. Nala was hap...
Handful of Statements
Good morning/good day to all. Weekend happened. It was… not one of my finer weekends. But at least I maintain my spotless record of lawfulness which cannot be said for a larger number of peopl...
Are You Fecking Kidding?!
In the 1990s, we were desperate to keep music and arts in schools. There were some successes but almost ALL of them have been erased since. Our teachers went on strike across the nation in the 10...
Fifteen Seconds
Just a quick nothing entry for the day. Turns out, I’ll likely have a jury trial in approximately 11 days. But maybe I won’t. I don’t know yet. This is… the thing about The Law on my side of t...
Book Description
I was 20 when I first started taking pills that let me see the world with a little less pain. A few months after that, I met a woman that I thought was beautiful and interesting. When I was 26, I proposed. We married when I was 27 and moved to Omaha. That is where our marriage ABSOLUTELY fell apart. That was 2011. For the last many years; I had been trying to salvage the marriage. At the end of 2019, I told my wife that we needed to separate. This year we file, she moves out, and I try to figure out how to get my shit sorted.
