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Nacht Mare
Just awoke from a night filled with nightmares. Things started okay but then The One I Love decided she would rather sleep around than commit to me. Distraught, I wandered. And found a woman t...
For Posterity
I wasn’t sure if I was going to write this or if I should write this or anything but ultimately, I figured… I keep track of my history here. If I re-read old entries, it tells me where I was and...
Not a surprise
It should come as no surprise that I’m just… tired, man. I’ve been burnt out before. Best Buy did it by abusing my body. Working at the jail did it by giving zero fucks about my safety or need...
Things that are dumb
Just saw a headline about the Dog Walker that read “Woman has entire life ruined for not putting on a mask” And it’s like… wow. JfuckingC. I get that all media intentionally warps shit in one w...
Continued Proof
Continued evidence that I am now firmly stuck at the office… my writing an additional entry. Honestly, I needed to get that last entry out of my system. I simply cannot understand these days. ...
Perturbation and Disgust
I suppose this shouldn’t come as any kind of surprise to me, really. But Day 1 back at the office is pissing me off for every reason you can imagine. Sit down at my desk and National Government ...
New New
In exactly one week, it will be June 1st. Now… whether the world should pretend that nothing is wrong and everything is exactly as it should be or not… that, uh.... that’s what a lot of various ...
Temporal Causality and the Emotional Response
Those who have read me for a long time understand that I have long been obsessed with concepts of time travel. This is… more of an umbrella term for me. As I grew up, I didn’t realize that what...
Twitter Sized: The Honest Truth
Perhaps I’ve shared this here in this exact way before. I don’t know. That can be the problem with using the emotional side of my mind. My logic remembers the patterns, makes me a good lawyer....
Emotionally Complex
Today… brought interesting insight into things (from multiple sides)...... I was thinking today about some of the cases flooding my desk. And I realized that… yeah. As much as it absolutely suc...
New Ways to Chart Time
I will be responding to notes and other things throughout the day but wanted to do a quick update here. (1) Our office is opening back up and going “life as normal” starting Tuesday. I mean… wh...
Twitter Sized: Example
See… this is exactly the kind of thing I’m talking about. As I was perusing Tinder… an attractive 43 year old put as her profile “I am a nerd in a Tabletop and Anime sense. My 7 year old son is ...
Positives and Negatives
The weather has been… interesting lately. Like… every day it looks like it is going to rain. Sunday, it looked very much like rain, so I didn’t take Nala for a walk. She hates the rain and if ...
Super Villains
Here’s something that strikes me as… particularly interesting, perhaps even telling… about some of the conspiratorial scuttlebutt surrounding COVID and Vaccines. One of the big conspiracies, pa...
I Reserve The Right
I reserve the right to be sad. I know I say this often. I know that I have lost readers as COVID makes every damned entry for all of us a case of “second verse same as the first, a little bit l...
From Work
Had to go into the office today. With the entire country now opening up (despite the fact that Iowa has had more cases in 16 days than we did in two months), our courts are trying to determine h...
Hectoring Hectare
The title is nonsense. Hectoring means “talking in a bullying way” and a hectare is a unit of measurement for land. If you’re talking in a bullying way to a unit of measurement for land… or if ...
A Contradiction?
I don’t know if this is a contradiction or simply the acceptance that different actions require different skill sets; but I am starting to wonder if I have all of the skill sets I need. Particula...
In Office
I decided to be in the office today because I figured there was a lot to do. I was… gosh, I wish English had a word for “you’re not wrong but you’re also not right.” Because… there is a lot to ...
Twitter Sized: Cancel
The last of the events of my year has been cancelled. Officially. I knew it was coming and therefore only grieve the announcement. In my heart, I knew it was not to be. But beware: Those prot...
Entry 2 of 2
Before I continue, there is something I want to say briefly. I DO plan on responding to notes! I have my last two entries (the 5/6, 5/7 entries) open and will respond soon. I just… I don’t kno...
Entry 1 of 2
A few quick things: (1) I had an entry I was working on that I’d rather like to finish and expect that I shall; but it is not conditioned upon such frivolities as temporal proximity. For example...
Twitter Sized Entry: Pain
Anyone who has experienced Depression knows there is physical pain that comes with that. Anyone who experiences chronic pain knows there is depression in that. They are two little buddies that ...
The last words on 5/6/20
So… originally, I thought this entry was going to be a Twitter Sized entry. You know… maybe a paragraph long… tops? Well… as I signed in… it dawned on me that I can’t limit myself to that expec...
The Sun Goes Up and the Sun Goes Down
In 2005, I decided to have a theme song. did the trick nicely. These last 24 hours the song has been playing a lot in my head. I am assuming it is my subconcious mind trying to give me a pick...
Book Description
I was 20 when I first started taking pills that let me see the world with a little less pain. A few months after that, I met a woman that I thought was beautiful and interesting. When I was 26, I proposed. We married when I was 27 and moved to Omaha. That is where our marriage ABSOLUTELY fell apart. That was 2011. For the last many years; I had been trying to salvage the marriage. At the end of 2019, I told my wife that we needed to separate. This year we file, she moves out, and I try to figure out how to get my shit sorted.
