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On a scale Of 1-10, how strict were your parents? Never really knew which mom we’d get when we woke up. Dad was OTR (over the road.) Most of the time, mom was a “get the fuck out” mom. Just go...

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I have this weird pinching feeling inside lately. I wonder if my IUD is moving around. It’s pretty painful every so often, but there’s no bleeding (like when it popped itself out.) That was buc...

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I was sitting thinking, which is never a good idea but I do it anyway, how all my rp relationships end up with crap that other people take to therapy, but I can’t, because these are fictional cha...

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Thanks, Bob Seger. I really needed to know that I can be old and still listen to crap, yeah? (Not that I hate you, Bob. Actually, I love that song. But you sure aren’t Bach, are you?) So today...

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Yeah, that’s something I didn’t ever think I’d be saying. But seeing as I’m trapped here (again, always) I keep coming flat up against this fact. I hate being home. I hate home. No, I don’t ...

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Virginia Woolf says that in order to write fiction, a woman needs a room of her own and money. I don’t think she’s wrong. In fact, I don’t think she’s ever been more right, although I haven’t r...

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I’m having problems with choice today. It’s a thing that comes and goes. If I let it, it will sit in my head and turn everything into jelly. I don’t want that. I like to know what I want. Pro...

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I feel musical today. I am still actively suicidal - sorry, don’t go too much farther if that’s bad for you - but I am also moving into a more energetic phase, which means I’m technically in big...

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things that need to change around here: -I need to buy knives. Kitchen ones. I think that spouse is buying me a set for my birthday, so he can get exactly whatever fucking knives he thinks he w...

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I was enormously pregnant 13 years ago today. The twins were born at 12:51 and 12:53 pm. I can’t remember much (great drugs, no glasses) but I know they cried until they were placed into the sa...

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It has occurred to me that I am hugely, massively, hideously angry. I think some of it is for a damn good reason - Spouse hasn’t been doing anything I’d like or I need to happen regularly, from ...

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So, the twins didn’t tell me they were camping out this weekend. Picture this shit. Sleeping, because Supernatural switched off around 5 am. Thunderstorms all night, so bed full of really upset...

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Found a lost debit card in a parking lot. Felt terrible about calling it in lost (there’s a number on the back) but what else can you do? I think I had the right person on Facebook, but they di...

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I am stuck in a dilemma right now - don’t freak, it’s small - do I want to: -clean the bathroom (without help) -start dinner (without help) -wash my hair (obviously without help) -head out to Wal...

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I tried to have a good day. Woke late, but I am falling asleep late because Dick Face is watching Supernatural until early. I think it is a PTSD thing where I can’t stand to hear the tv scream...

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Yesterday was Sunday. Didn’t write. Took the damnily out for brunch and then we went grocery shopping. I wanted to do something fun, but Spouse was wilting in the heat and being bitchy, and th...

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Not a Christine Feehan shitfest book, though - know it sounds like it, but it was actually a beer. Promised to taste like German chocolate cake, and it kind of had a coffee finish, but it tasted...

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Poverty is the thief of time. I could have had a lovely July, an experience to treasure with the kids, but hey, I’m broke. That isn’t to say that July didn’t have its happy moments, like putti...

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