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For some reason, as I was on my way to work this morning, I started thinking about one of my childhood friends. It didn’t end well. He and I were very similar. We even had the same name, Justin. ...

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There’s a music blog I’ve been reading for a little over 2 years now. It’s written by a journalist with whom I often disagree, but I find a lot of his technical insights into the workings of pop ...

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Thursday was the one year anniversary of my arrival in Thailand. I posted about it and my friend Johnny had a very funny response. “It’s only been a year?! It feels longer than that…” I asked him...

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I had a five day weekend, and four of those five days I spent looking at apartments. I love my current apartment, but it’s just such a long commute to work and I’m tired of spending 4 hours every...

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So I’m on week 2 of my new job and week 1 of being actually on campus at the University. I have to say, I’m a little confused by all of it. Each meeting just raises more questions than it answers...

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Nothing has happened. I’m still on vacation. Jesus, I don’t know how Europeans do it. In America, we don’t have vacations… at least, we don’t have mandatory time off. When you first get a job, yo...

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I’m back in Bangkok. It was fine and all of my stressing out was unnecessary. But so what? Learning that my fears were unfounded doesn’t exactly stop me from having those anxieties. You know, hea...

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I’m trying to stay out of my head because I’ve been having panic attacks for days now. I’m stressing out so much about this trip to Thailand because I feel like I have no control over how it goes...

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I’m sorry I haven’t written in forever, I’ve just not had the desire to write. There are dozens of incomplete entries in the drafts because for a while there I really was trying to sit down once ...

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I know it’s been a while, and I’m sorry for not writing, but I’m finally here in Thailand for the long-haul. I know, nearly 5 months after I arrived and I’m finally assured that I won’t be sponta...

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I know it’s been quite a while, and the truth is I have about 14 incomplete entries saved in my drafts folder that I’m going to be finishing up… and they belong to almost every book. So you’ll ge...

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You know, things are good here. I like my job, I’m pretty happy with everything. Even though it’s a bit stressful, the amount of stress I’m dealing with now is nowhere near what I dealt with in C...

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I left quarantine on a Thursday, the next Monday morning I started training at my new job. That whole process was mind-blowing to me. I had my choice of five different positions. The one I wanted...

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I am just finishing day 11 of my quarantine. I have had three interviews, one of those being a second interview, so I’m hopeful that I will already have a job by the time I leave this little qua...

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Well, I made it. I’m writing this from my Quarantine Hotel just outside of Bangkok. While it was quite long and arduous, it was actually one of the easiest travel experiences I’ve ever had. Part ...

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I am not very good at healthy coping skills. I deal with things the way I deal with them and then completely explode in anger whenever someone questions my techniques. I’m not very good at taking...

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As I finished watching a series that I ended up loving (despite everyone hating it) called HIStory4: Close To You, there was a character that popped up that I hadn’t even remembered existed until...

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There was one question that hung in my head in the middle of the night: Why am I doing this? My initial reason for going to Thailand doesn’t exist anymore yet here I am still chugging ahead. Why?...

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The trip with my mother was exactly what I expected it to be. Which was fine. She’s bigoted and racist and extremely transphobic, but she doesn’t think she is because she’s a good Christian woman...

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This whole situation is super stressful, and I have to do it all myself. I don’t have to do it all myself, but the truth is, there’s no one else I trust to really help me with it. We finally reac...

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So this is basically an update on what happened in my entries from last year called “Spinning” and “Falling Off That High Horse”.... which means I finally got to see Richard. It was his graduatio...

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With the clock ticking, I realized after a recent night out that I’m somewhat out of step with city life, having been locked into this dreary suburb for the last five years. It’s not that I don’t...

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I’ve been around long enough now to know that when something really really great happens, something supremely shitty is just around the corner. The universe just has to balance the fucking scales...

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I know it’s been a while but that’s mainly because I’ve spent the last month going through the trial period for the medication meant to treat my disorder. Let me tell you how different I feel. It...

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This past week I’ve been home sick and it was not good. But an amazing thing happened… at least, I think it’s amazing, too many people seem to think it’s rather morbid, but whatever, Halloween ba...

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