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I know I’ve been missing quite a bit this summer, but the head makes me listless and I can’t ever get my head together to write something appropriate. But that’s not all. An awful situation aros...

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This might be an unsettling entry for some people… mainly because I’m going to refer, tangentially, to the circumstances of my coming out which landed me in jail. Every time I drive with my mothe...

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I’ve gone inward again, much like I did while I was in SoCal, but there’s a difference to it this time. It doesn’t feel like a withdrawal so much as a respite. Although I am falling into a strang...

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I know it’s been a while, but quite a lot has happened. Some good, some bad. The bad is mostly of a legal debacle in which I have found myself therefore I won’t comment on it. The good was that I...

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I had actually recorded a video blog to post, it took me eight tries and I even uploaded it to YouTube, but the events of the night rendered the entire video moot. I went out on Thursday as is my...

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I’m doing nothing. I mean, now I wake up every day early in the morning and if I don’t go to work, I take children to school. Then I’m free until I have to pick up kids from school. I wander aro...

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There was an interesting wrinkle to the other night that I didn’t share in that entry because it didn’t really fit with the theme I was going for. I don’t know whether or not you know this, but I...

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I feel like my life is finally at Season 1 of Sex & The City. I started work, it’s fine. Even though they’ve already promoted me to an auditor, I can see that I need to find myself another oc...

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I’m in the midst of my second week back in Northern California and things have already changed immensely. First, I’ll get the bad stuff out of the way. My grandmother is currently in the hospital...

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I am watching the most boring documentary right now. The truth is, the only reason it’s boring is because I’m not at all interested in the subject. It’s some movie about the lack of gay professio...

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It was the early months of 2004. I was wandering around the streets of Sacramento trying to find this young guy I’d happened to see in our 20-something youth group at the Lambda Center. I had sta...

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I was enduring the long ride home the other day… I say “enduring” but really it isn’t that bad. It’s a choice that I made for this time in my life, but I must say that Southern California is NOT ...

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I have just under three weeks before yet another radical life change. So basically, this could be an entry from almost any other moment in my life. I think I have more “I’m moving and this will c...

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So there I was in BJ’s with Edgar’s roommate in Paris having a drink and talking about the way things have changed. There’s something comforting about seeing the people I know in places that are ...

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There were some rather… intriguing comments to my last entry. The way I’ve dealt with things is to compartmentalize my life and while it has served me well in the past, I’m seeing that I have to ...

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I know I haven’t written in quite a long while but there’s a very specific reason that I haven’t written: I’m trying to keep my mind healthy. The truth is I’ve been taking this last opportunity i...

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The entire time I’ve been going through this dark spiral I’ve been afraid. Now this isn’t really that unusual because I’ve come to discover that nearly everything I do is in response to some fear...

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My time in Sacramento very much reaffirmed how depressed and angry I have been in SoCal. There are multiple reasons that people think that I might not have been able to retain my high spirits but...

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I ended up getting overwhelmed with everything that happened at home that I didn’t have time to write about any of the other amazing things that happened. I’m going to break this up into a few en...

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I actually recorded a whole video entry which I shall not post because I was crying throughout the whole thing. My grandmother is not well. She’s being affected by dementia and it’s causing her t...

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I’ve visited with a few people, not as many as had initially gushed at the idea of my prodigal return, but I’m not too upset about that. I am enjoying having time alone or with just my brothers. ...

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On the last day of classes, I ended up randomly hanging out with this guy Jonathan. He was the guy upon whom I projected all those feelings after the death of my friend. It was one of those meet-...

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If you have read me for any significant amount of time, you know what this title means. Whenever I go on a trip somewhere, I have to name it. It’s like a statement of purpose; a way of defining w...

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I have to be honest, I cannot operate technology. Like at all. It’s confounds me at every turn. I have somehow gotten through college without ever having learned how to use PowerPoint. I don’t ha...

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