Bittersweet
by ChainedChrysalis
Entries 402
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Boredom
Ugh im bored. I was hoping to go to the parks but its alternating between 40 mph gusts and snow. No they dont hit at the same time. Its weird weather here lol. Its non stop windy, but those gust...
Not sure if its a good goal or not.
My current goal is to try to figure out how to be a homebody who is ok without having friends. Im just struggling so hard with being in such a new place. Even though ive now been here 4 months. ...
The flu for valentines!
And we all got sick. Yesterday i spiked a fever. My heart rate jumped and i was down. I couldent sleep because my body just hurt so bad. I was coughing a dry cough. Now its a wet couch and my h...
Why i dont make friends
I made a joke about how Colorado people cant drive in snow. Literally they shut down everything for 1 inch of snow. No school, husband was sent home from work early. And i was laughing because im...
Fucking Monday
Its got to be a Monday. First off my period is about 6 days late. So already im feeling like something bad is going to happen. My periods arent late. And no i cant be pregnant, hubby got the V 5...
Pure weekend exhaustion
My husband keeps complaining his lower blood pressure is making him tired. And when i try to tell him I understand. He just snaps at me, i dont get what it feels like. No i dont. I have days wher...
At least he tried?
Ok so im a picky eater. Take that in mind. I cook really well and i like my food. Everyone says they love it. People ask for my recipes. Im happy to share. I LOVE seasoning. Get that seasoning NO...
Stop and help
I went to the 7 11 for my morning soda. Im getting good at just drinking a fountain soda again and not in the house. But i run down and there is this older lady sitting in her car crying hood pop...
A different level of petty
So T and I when we want to talk. We text each other. Sitting next to one another on the couch and chair and ill text him, he texts me. Keeps the prying ears out of it. My sister, brother in law, ...
Nature center
I showed the hubby some of the nature center today. We went back to the place we were at on friday. Anyway im not photographer with my phone haha. I need a real camera for that. But a few shots o...
That was needed
Today was our new biweekly homeschool meet up. This time a park i havent been to yet, ( most of them!!) But i really needed the interaction. Nothing to say about the kids. I NEED IT lol. Im too ...
Procrastination
I have a list of things to do today. I need to do my farm chores. Critters need feeding! Need to prep and cook a beef stew! I have photos from the canyon drive this last weekend. I have a sha...
The future of my photography
So im pretty good at it. Im not being full of myself. Im actually pretty good. I made a half decent living before i moved with my unique sessions. However here in the states there are a TON of ex...
Finally
Hubby has a start day for work. He starts on Tuesday. He was supposed to start on the 6th, so you know waiting has been so stressful! It means we will officially have to declare ourselves residen...
Small things
hubby got paid yesterday. It was about what i expected it to be minus the 2K he had to borrow for bills. So we went to the store and did our grocery shopping. I thought maybe 2-3 hundred… We spe...
Feeling Lonely
Im feeling lonely and kinda meh lately… I shouldnt be, but something its just… i dont know. Nagging. First off im having dreams EVERY night about fires. Things on fire, places on fire. Its like....
Alzheimers
Sigh ok so this one will be deeper… I think my grandpa has early onset… Its been a lot of things since i got here. But things like not remembering anyones names. Mine, my kids, my moms. Hes live...
The 90 day challenges
The Hygge group posted this. I thought it was really interesting. Some i couldn’t do right now ( cant send care packages to family if everyone is here, and i cant afford it lol) But some are rea...
Moms birthday
Its my moms birthday. Shes turning 59 this year. Gah time passes huh. She kept making jokes in the last few years she finally gets that senior discount. Although seeing shes had white hair since ...
Merry Christmas
Christmas was good! My kids really are so spoiled. The 4 boys got electric scooters and hoverboards based on their ages. Little girl got a scooter from great grandpa ( who forgot she already has ...
one year
one year ago today i tried to kill myself. Clearly i didnt finish the job. I went home in tears sick over everything. This time this year i feel the same way. I have days where im good and days ...
A bit o pride
I had my first photoshoot in my new city/state haha. It was a bit handed to me in a way. Or the husband said so. Its a coworker of my mother. I gave her a hugely reduced sitting fee and she has ...
That peaceful feeling.
“Hygge is effortless comfort; it has no element of performance. It is absence of all pretense and worry. The word itself may defy direct translation, but you are very familiar with the concept – ...
Blessed Yule
Tonight is the solstice. The longest night of the year. The turning point between winter dark and bringing back the light of the sun. Yule is beautiful in that it really is the turning point. W...
Christmas is coming
Im sitting here, Big fluffy satin angora bun on my lap. His name is Rooster. When he was a baby i wasnt sure his color so i called him the funky chin. Then one time auto correct said funky chicke...