Phoenix
by š JustWillow š¦
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By. The. Balls.
I am feeling so ready to just grab life by the balls.
Again. (Content Warning: Sexual Assault)
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Gratitude.
Have I written about gratitude before? I donāt know. But Iām going to right now because itās what is on my mind. Feeling and expressing gratitude is incredibly important to me. It keeps me away f...
Hard Day.
This was a hard day at work, but itās a hard day in another, more profound way. In a somewhat unexpected way. These are the days that are going to be the hardest for me. Hard day at work and all ...
Bulletproof.
Your love feels like armor. Aw jeez, Iām feeling cheesy. You make me feel all cheesy. All the happy chemicals are flowing through my brain, seemingly 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. Nothing can t...
Who I Am.
Maybe Iām an enabler. Maybe I donāt know how to be unkind, even to people who donāt deserve my kindness. Maybe I donāt know how to be without compassion and empathy, even for people who donāt des...
Empowered.
Find a person who makes you feel empowered. Invincible. Undoubtedly loved, admired, and respected. Desired is pretty fucking nice, too. Find a person that, no matter how hard you look at them, yo...
Dear You,
I owe you an apology. I said I wouldnāt take sides and yet, somehow, I found myself taking a side. It was the wrong side to take. Heās an abuser, girl. Make this time the last time you dump his a...
Dear You,
You came into my life when I needed a friend something fierce. You invited me into your circle, into your life, and suddenly I had so many new friends and I finally felt like I was in a place I f...
ADHD Mania.
Thatās what I got going on! I can definitely feel the mania ramping up and my ADHD is in overdrive. I canāt focus on anything for more than a few minutes or even seconds. My brain is on fire. L...
Dysfunctional.
I wasnāt raised in a dysfunctional family in the traditional sense of dysfunctional, I think. But I was definitely dysfunctional and so were most of my family members individually. My family was ...
She is me.
There have always been things I was interested in, things I wanted to try, see, do. Iāve also always restrained myself in so many ways for so many reasons, the biggest two being low self-esteem a...
Love Hard.
I donāt know how to love a little. I love hard, with all that I am. Yeah, thatās not a good thing, folks. At least, it hasnāt been. Iāve had a real bad habit of throwing myself into another perso...
Abused.
Reading this today on Facebook stunned me speechless for a moment. This is how Iāve lived my entire adult life, accepting abuse with love because thatās all Iāve ever known. I think my mind has ...
Rage.
Itās whatās for dinner. Iāve had a few random bursts of almost uncontrollable rage today. That hasnāt happened in a very long time, many months. Maybe even years. Itās been a long time since Iāve...
In a way that makes sense.
He says that a lot. āWeāll figure things out in a way that makes sense.ā And, you know, we will. Everything about us makes sense, so why wouldnāt we be able to figure things out in a way that als...
Bitches Love Banana Bread.
He baked me banana bread, yaāll. A man. Baked. Banana bread. For me. Take note, boys. Bitches love banana bread. And not just any old banana bread, no sir. Special fancy banana bread baked with ...
Polyamory
I saw a comment on a Facebook post that said something like, āIām not straight but my partner is.ā That hit me right in the feels because that has been every relationship Iāve ever been in. Iām b...
420
I drove away from you that day thinking Iād probably never see you again. I didnāt want to be thinking that, but I was. There was this idea in my head that said, āWhat an amazing, fairy-tale, dre...
Four Years Ago.
If I donāt stand up for myself, Iām weak, a doormat. If I do speak up, Iām being a bitch. If I keep quiet about my feelings, Iām bottling them up. If I let them out, if Iām honest with someone ab...
Deprivation.
I spent the majority of my childhood feeling deprived of affection. My family was just not very expressive about emotion, either verbally or physically. I just donāt really remember a lot of hugs...
Men Are Garbage.
Yeah, yeah, I know, #NotAllMen. Just fucking save it, eh? I was giving a friend a ride home tonight (technically last nightā¦ I havenāt slept yet.) and I said damn, we should have stopped for an a...
Life Partner.
I have had 2 men in my adult life that I genuinely believed, for a good period of time, would be in my life forever, as my husband, my friend, my lover, my co-parent, my life partner. Sperm Dono...
Partner.
Thatās all Iāve ever really wanted, you know? That one person I could always count on to have my back when I really needed them. Someone to learn and grow with, and grow old with. I just donāt t...
#MeToo
I havenāt really participated in this whole #metoo thing. I mean, Iāveā¦ well, I read a lotā¦ but I never told my story. I couldnāt. No way could I Tweet it or Facebook it orā¦ I mean, I talked abou...
Book Description
Rising from the ashes.