Aftermath
by Azzura
Entries 58
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Than again
Sept 2 stupid labour Day weekend. Used to go with Victoria to clubs around this time was fun at the time here and there but lonely. She always made me feel lonely because the second it was all d...
Pain Poem
Pain Never the same kind Still hurts just as much As they walk away They die Disappeared Asking why? One thing about pain there’s always more where it came from Every month there’s an a d...
Moonday
So it’s Monday today really nice weather sunny warm. I took a long walk well longish walk to see the nature of was beautiful Anyways just waiting for my sheets to be done and trying to stay pres...
Why.
Too hard. This life is too cruel and too hard. Everything is on borrow Always alone in my sorrow Violence isolation Is my baseline Why is it so hard.
Trafficked.
You say it’s a lifestyle What happened to me Even though you KNEW I was just a child. No matter how many times I say it People don’t want to believe what happened to me Caused so much damage...
Poem rock
I was walking on the dirt road In the middle of nowhere Holding a rock Just in case But I knew that one day I won’t be afraid And neither will anyone else Evil will be exposed more And shu...
Spring
So first day of spring and it’s snowing like wtf. Nice days than this. It always happens though so whatever I guess. I made some pasta but it turns out too runny I did not enjoy it. Maybe get s...
Memoir rough draft my sentence at YWCA
I liked looking at the birds and I sat outside the courtyard felt like jail, at least in the sense of privacy I’m this instance. The building towered over me on all four sides. With people’s apar...
Pocahontas
So may 5 red dress day wasn’t going to do much bc tired etc hut I did need to spread awareness but yea heavy day with us native women We’re doing a lot of the heavy lifting us need of women We’re...
Hair cutting
So woke up early, I think that I went to bed later. At least I didn’t wake up at 7 am or something. Anyways. Cats are right beside me showing me love purring and cuddling with me so nice It’s ...
Dentist
So I went to the dentist today and it worked out well there’s a lot of rushing around but people were kind and everything worked out. I have temporary crowns on both of my front teeth and they l...
Sage
Working on self-love is so hard. I’m often on autopilot just going to the motions even though my anxiety is going so high I force myself to do things that sometimes I’m just not ready for or need...
Moving past pain
So I went out last night. It was fun. I guessed a guys zodiac that he was a Taurus by his face. Most zodiac signs look a certain way. Rapist bouncer was fortunately not working so I felt safe. ...
Sense & Sensibility
So it’s Sunday today I’m feeling okay I went to sleep by taking two Ativan and think it really knocked me out cuz I’m thinking a lot especially at night I got all my daily things that I post fo...
Pride & Prejudice
So my mom surprised me yesterday by telling me she went to a viewing of a place and it was really nice she took pictures she explained my situation so I won’t have to I still have to see the plac...
Pride & Prejudice
So my mom surprised me yesterday by telling me she went to a viewing of a place and it was really nice she took pictures she explained my situation so I won’t have to I still have to see the plac...
Marie Antoinette
So I went to the pharmacy today to pick up my medication I’m starting a new antidepressant let’s see if it helps as well as the other medication that I am on already I pretty much almost threw ...
Falling through the cracks
So I told the housing worker probably too late but I told her that I read a bad review about the superintendent being real nosy bug and invading people’s privacy and I really saw that when I met ...
Narc mom.
So yeah my mom ruined the viewing for for me but I know she was going to put doubt in my mind give me unsolicited f** advice and argue with me and give me f* just be mean to me it’s like hurt so...
Hope soon hopefully
So I wake up today again my heart’s pounding so much anxiety I didn’t sleep well last night cuz I don’t know miles kind of going nuts I was feeling anxious about stuff probably more than I was le...
Cannibis oil
So I just ordered some food it was pretty good it wasn’t a lot but it did really fill me up cuz I don’t eat much anyways lately. Hot weather never makes me really want to eat too much. I feel li...
Holiday
So it’s Sunday no it’s Monday I thought it was the week but it’s still a f holiday great probably spent all my f** check I don’t know I just feel like s*** again I’m so confused about life and wh...
Psychic Part 2
So I got another reading done by my in person Reader Itwasn’t as good as the last one but she said I should be moving in 45 days so we will see when I come back to this in a year if this is tru...
Sunday
By the way if a lot of what I say doesn’t make sense it’s because I’m doing voice to text and it doesn’t always say the right word. So it’s 11:00 still I’m pretty hard on myself when I don’t get...
Psychic Woes
Will probably shoot some videos today It’s fridayyyyyyyyy Don’t know what I’ll do. I had a few ppl inquire about readings but no dice. I talk to My therapist today. I really like the abalone sh...