Book Six: Trying to Hold On 2019
by Park Row Fallout
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Need To... Gah
Bugger! Yeah, I know I bitched about this earlier. But I had forgotten that Thanksgiving was just LAST WEEK. Like… ONLY 1 WEEK AGO! WHAT?! Don’t you mean like ONE MONTH AGO?! But… oy. I supp...
Effing Hell
Spank my ass and set me on fire. This week has been… interminably busy!! Monday? FULL Court Day then three hours of depositions; stayed at work late. Tuesday? Court Morning then Naked Guy Phone ...
Fun Public Entry
Our state got a grant to help with our immense backlog of untested DNA Kits. So the State paid a French-Canadian Internet Company to build a website to track DNA kits throughout the state. I am ...
Not Feeling Like an Entry
So yesterday was extremely fucking busy. Today looks to be extremely fucking busy. Tomorrow is going to be extremely fucking busy. Thursday is going to be extremely fucking busy. So… there yo...
Briefly
I haven’t much time today as it is a Juvenile Court Day. I’ll read when I can. Martha came home last night and we had a fairly productive discussion. She says that she actually did know this w...
Fetlife Introduction
As I am unsure of exactly the best way to navigate this website and my new life; I felt a small introduction would be in order. An ice breaker, if you will. This may be out of order, but I find p...
Truer Words, My Friend
Late Night Confession
Friday evening, or Saturday morning however you like it… I had trouble sleeping. Just… the usual trouble. The kind of thing that doesn’t really bother me that much. But I realized I was a bit ...
This is not time sensitive
Oh my dear dear friends; I write this after consuming sufficient quantities of alcohol and after reading Martha’s “Thanksgiving Note.” She says she loves me. She says she is thankful for all of...
HTD USA
Happy Thanksgiving Day to my United States friends! I wrote something last night that is not time sensitive and will be just as true in a few days as it was last night. But I will release that wh...
Random Shouted Statement (and memes)
All right folks, I have to be honest with you: I’ve been absolutely HORRID about reading anything of yours. Ever since the play started, I’ve had less and less time and stopped reading and got b...
Yup
Yesterday was really a pretty standard evening in all respects. Left work and went to Therapy. My therapist, methinks, works so much with children that she enjoys the prospect of working with an...
Song Survey
Well, I have a long entry HERE that I do care about notes and interactions. But everyone should be rewarded with light and music, so here is a song survey for funsies :) 1: A song you like with ...
Sexy Warnings and More
This may be a bit of a long read. Just fair warning. When I came home, I expected the same thing I have encountered when coming home for the past infinity months. I was even grumbling internall...
On Happiness and The Idea of Worth
Warning: This is rambling and disjointed. If I were writing this for an academic paper… it would be more logical. Instead, right now, I’m just playing with ideas. “You deserve to be happy”. It ...
Theater of the Bizarre
Let’s take things back to Saturday. Wife is upstairs crying as she is doing book stuff. I am downstairs playing video games trying to power through. Am I going to miss her? Hell yeah. Do I ...
The Two Songs
The two songs going through my head today?
The Twilight Zone Version
This is the Twilight Zone Version of my life. The normal goings on of my house for many many weeks has been as follows: Chris comes home from work or play practice. Nala freaks out all happy. Wi...
It's Done...
… but it has only just begun. I made it to the Couple’s Counselor about 6 minutes before the session was supposed to start. Time for session came and went. Therapist asked if Wife was still in ...
As Expected
Talked to my parents. Hard to keep myself from crying… well sobbing. My parents are understanding. At least understanding of my perspective. Confused as hell about Wife’s perspective. Becaus...
The Last Day
It is a cold day and I have fibromyalgia. But the truth is, I cannot honestly say with confidence that this body pain that I am feeling throughout my entire body is because of that cold or becau...
Therapy and Drinks
So, individual therapy… while my therapist would really LIKE my marriage to succeed; she understands completely. I’ve put up with YEARS of misery and at this point the only reason to stick aroun...
Survey, Because Light
You know… this is, of course, the life I signed up for… but while going through troubles and difficulties of your own… it is hard to deal with the troubles and difficulties of others. Which is m...
A Little Early
I know that I haven’t even spoken to Wife about my feelings on this yet (I’m waiting until Couple’s Counseling in an attempt to at least address the subject in a healthier/safer environment). So...
Pretentiousness FTW
Before I begin… here’s something that should tell you exactly what is going on: I turned on the television. Wife saw Bryce Dallas Howard in Jurassic World and said, “Wow, she looks like ‘Emily!”...
Book Description
This will now be my sixth year writing in Prosebox. I started as a Law Student considering Divorce… and now I’m a Government Attorney who owns a house going to marriage counseling. After 6 consecutive years of “Looking for something new or better” this year, I’m just trying to hold on to what I’ve got. I like my job. I like my community. I like my house. I’m just trying to hold on to all of it and make sure I keep things going.