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There is no spoon.
This has become my mental reminder that nothing really matters. That sometimes I get trapped in my head and that thoughts themselves don’t actually exist. It’s like an emergency exit out of the...
You wanna di?
Now I don’t have to worry if Erik misplaces his dice. : D
Swimmingly.
Commutes suck. What could take 35 minutes in good traffic can take over an hour in the morning. I dread sitting in traffic, feel so anxious in it, and otherwise feel terrible for a while after....
Don't think about it.
I had a terrible commute which I don’t really want to talk about. What could be a 35 minute drive is an hour and fifteen in rush hour. I’d leave later, but then there would be no parking. So, ...
I still want to see Ghostbusters.
Classes start tomorrow. I got text notifications that a couple of the books I ordered should be delivered today. I’m hoping I can at least open one or two of them and get a mental headstart. I...
Dungeons and Doorknobs.
My front doorknob jammed in the locked position the other day. As in, it was locked shut and I couldn’t enter or leave through the front door. Boy am I glad I have a fire escape. I tried disas...
Breakthrough.
I’ve known for years my tendency to kind of shut down. I recognize it as a problem. Today, Elissa suggested that it’s a defense mechanism. It makes sense. I’m terrified of interpersonal confl...
Worst. Birthday. Ever.
It's 4:41 am and I can't sleep. Yesterday was easily one of the worst birthdays ever. I held to my plan of no hard alcohol. And proceeded to drink to much wine. Vodka, I can measure. Wine, I...
Timmy Will Rise Again.
Like the drop-off when you're expecting a positive emotion, perhaps relief or elation or excitement, but instead find yourself sad, empty, and even a little anxious. Over two months since I gave...
Necessary Lies.
We create vast worlds of fiction for ourselves because the coldness of reality is too much to take. Whether it's absorbing ourselves in a fandom, triumphing some facet of life (family, fame, for...
More Naked Time.
And it hits me that the last time I really wrote was right before I worked nine days straight while the boss lady was on vacation. And then I remember what I did the last day of those three days...
Naked Time.
Went nude beaching. Totally and completely worth it. For years, I wanted to go, but Candi was always too self-conscious to go. Stick in the mud. Elissa and I pretty much have the same level o...
The Fourth on the Fifth.
I feel sorry for all the people who had their parties on Friday. The weather yesterday was RIDICULOUSLY NICE. Kind of pissed me off how I woke up with a headache. How does one wake up with a h...
Write your story.
One of the best metaphors I've come across as for our sense of self is that we are the ongoing story that we write for ourselves. Far more than an image, we portray ourselves as the result of al...
Pictures are moments in time.
Rearranging things and found a bunch of pictures of Candi and I. Got to me a little. Five years, man, five years. Occasionally, I get told how it's a "big deal" how I broke up with my fiancee....
Life Achievement Unlocked: Timmy's First Tattoo.
Jesus, I sound like an afterschool special. WATCH AS TIMMY EXPERIENCES NEEDLE-THRASHING PAIN FOR THE FIRST TIME. Of COURSE, I pick a spot that's massively sensitive (hipbone) and makes you pani...
Prelude to Tattoo.
So I got around to making an appointment to get my first tattoo. Physically driving there and walking inside was literally the hardest part. I've actually gotten better at improvising social in...
On Porn.
All things considered, if it weren't for internet porn, I'd be vastly undereducated in the Sexual Arts and Sciences. Of course, it's more than just porn, but shh, I like being lewd and fucking w...
Balance
Moderation may be a theme I've known for a long time, but it's quite apt when applied to EVERYTHING. For a very long time, I've self-identified as a sub. Yet in relationships, I end up taking o...
Exile.
Was reminded of a conversation I had with Cliff well over a decade ago. We were talking about how alone we feel. But he took issue with me. He pointed out how he had been categorically ostraci...
Mondays.
An anxious day. A paralyzing day. Thoughts and counterthoughts. No alcohol, instead caffeine. Interesting how it kind of has the same effect. I can't think myself through it, so instead I di...
A chance.
I've known manic depressive people, and their manic phases always felt FAR more energetic than this. That's why I don't think it's that, just pervading depression. No matter what mood I'm in, o...
Occupying time.
It really annoys the crap out of me how much my moods seems effected by the weather. I just felt so terrible yesterday. I think... I may be able to be productive today. I have a long list of ...
Week-to-week.
It's a weekly cycle for sure. I never have "two good weeks in a row". I was able to salvage last week by hitting the gym four days in a row to get myself back on track. Yet, as always, major a...
Sausage
So I finally used the butt-ton of sausage that I had in the freezer. Found a recipe with onions and peppers. Pretty simple, really. I uh, misread it. I thought a "clove" meant "a whole garlic...
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Public entries which I hope are on par with Classic Timmy™.
