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‘ he’s ok. well he’s better than he was last night. apparently what happened was he broke his phone and couldn’t get a new one untill today. yeah he called me almost an hr. ago [6:10 atm] and tol...

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‘ so the last thing evan said before hanging up was ‘i’m done’. and when he’s said that in the past he’s meant w/ everything. so i’ve called him. i’ve texted him and told him to please call or ...

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‘ we’re still better but. he spiked out today and i dont’ completely get why. he.........it was bigger than usual. he started out by talking about. no well i called him after he’d called me and h...

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‘ we’re better. um. after sending him angry texts last night [wed.]. well we talked about some things. and um. i asked him if i deserve to be defended. and he said i do. which is one of the thing...

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‘ yes more on this. um. i’m at odds w/ him bc he’s not giving me exactly what i want. which is to. 1: agree w. me 2: tell me fuking verbatim that i don’t deserve to be treated this way. i’m refer...

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‘ um. so last night he calls. a few times. i’m busy so can’t answer. and then i call him back or he calls me idr. we only talk for 10 mins. he starts in w/ telling me he won’t or doesn’t want to ...

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‘ so last night at 10; 20 evan calls. he apologises for what happened earlier. he said something that he’d been mean or something. again my memory sucks so i get confused as to what went on. and ...

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‘ ‘so evan spiked out again. somewhat at me. i love him but my god.........if there was one thing i could change it would be that. like i don’t mind if he does it. solong as i don’t have to hear ...

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‘ evan. omygod. it just keeps getting better. not perfect but better. so he called like. at 9 and we talked for a bit about what i don’t remember. right so then. oh so he told me he was going to ...

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‘ to be clear no evan didn’t rape me. he never has. although one night a littleover 2 yrs. ago we almost had sex completely consensual. i was ready and i got all excited and then i. decided i was...

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‘ yeah so last night um if i remember correctly. evan called. we talked for 10 mins. and the first thing he says is you missed your chance. and i was already frustrated and all twisted inside. an...

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‘ yes this again. so yesterday was. long. and yet it went by quickly. my days are so long that i’ll thinkof something that happened that morning [like ok on tues. i’ll think of something that hap...

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‘ we’re still good. we almost fought tonight. but didn’t. i was already frustrated and he didn’t have much time to talk and so. then that didn’t help. and i’m like ‘um. i should go’. i’ve learned...

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‘ omygod. evan is so incredibly sweet. so on tues. it was like we were a couple. wow. it was raining and we kissed [well i mean at my park] and there were more kisses. he was super physical. actu...

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‘ warning adult content. haven’t done one of these in a long while. well. i must say [ala mel b on america’s got talent] i’ve felt damn sexy. one of the many things i’ve been feeling. ever since ...

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‘ idk. like i’ve had feelings for him for awhile. and we’ve been more than friends for awhile. but now i’m starting to have more. er i mean now i’m starting to have more feelings for him. er i me...

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‘ so like a wk. ago yesterday evan and i. didn’t get together. and i wasn’t sure if we’d planned anything or not. so later when he called i asked him about it and i’m like ‘we didn’t plan anythin...

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‘ evan that is. the only time he hits on me is when he’s drunk. and he hasn’t been drunk in awhile. and that’s quite fun. the him hitting me on me part not the him being drunk part although.........

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‘ so like I put I saw evan on tues. and. well. we saw those white fuzzy things flying in the air. I don’t know what they’re actually called. and he said they were in that movie about the blue peo...

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‘ yeah cuddles are awesome. cuddles. are pretty damn great. copies from my fb: ‘ I feel. sexy. and I just feel. fuller. idinno if i look any fuller. ya know [or perhaps you don’t] like the pregna...

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‘so. I think I’ve mentioned this before. I don’t think of where I live as home. cause home is a feeling not a place. um. sometimes it’s a feeling you get from a place. or a person. but if you don...

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‘ so I forgot what evan I talked about today. well. no wait tea came up. and drinking. I remember. that I lied down on him on his chest. he’ssuch cuddler. when my chest was on his i kept forgetti...

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‘ so evan’s back. he’s been back for 4 days apparently. I asked him today. we don’t know how long he’s back for. yeah so I was in my park. he calls me and asks what I think aboutgetting together...

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‘ this is. actually about evan. ok so back in april I made one of the hardest decisions i’d made in awhile. I didn’t want to. no. but I needed to. what he and I had. it just wasn’t working for me...

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‘ last night. tues the 16th. he sounded like he was doing good. actually. didn’t go into detail. he things i’m doing well. i’m not. if I was iwouldn’t be this depressed. but it’s almost his bday,...

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