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from 6 months to. 24 hrs.
this is. from yesterday: that’s quite a range. I went from Aug./Sept. - Feb. w/o a drink. and then withdrawl hit end of this month. and then. well I won’t repeat the other thing that happened. bu...
well. it happened again. *Sub.
this actually is from earlier yesterday: i did the substance thing again. it’s now 2:10 a.m. it happened at 1:30. i told myself i’d wait at least 24 hrs. i’m um. well obviously not great if i’m d...
i found it.
this is from um yesterday: < see previous entry. so i found it. they’re entries from back in oct. 2012 in my other blog. apparently. what happened was. apparently [again.]. my ex [well he wasn...
wait. what? and i, was in the wrong? *Ab. *My ex
actually this isn’t entirely accurate. but here we go: So a few yrs. ago back when i was going to the bar and karaoke and karaoke at the bar. and drinking. Well it was some time after my ex had v...
i had a dream about it. liquor.
this is from um yesterday: So in my dream I was at the circus. [the, circus? fine a, circus] the old fashioned kind but I was in the tent w/ the performers. only. they/we weren’t performing. and ...
so I told Matt.
this again is from earlier. Matt is this guy i know from my days in boarding school. he’s from TN. i told him about the sub. thing. and he’s ‘relapses again.........long as you’re trying not to’....
the last time i had a night like this.
this is from earlier: so as put. the last time i had a night like this was back in feb. feb. 6th. so. no that’s it.
not havin a great night.
this is from earlier: 2:20 a.m. atm. at 1:20 i had the substance thing happen. as i was reaching for it in my closet i was crying and i thought ‘you don’t have to do this’ and ‘no but my ex didn’...
from the 11th - the 17th
well the 11th which was sun. i um. i was at my mom’s oh right cause the lady was out of town. ok. on the 12th which was mon. i was at my mom’s. valerie came at 5 we went to wendy’s then the store...
got my period.
yeah so i got my period um. yesterday and so far it’s been. ok which. is nice. i um. i thought i’d be getting it the 16th and so i was prepared. but no.
what a weird day.
actually it was kindof boring. i um well i did my laundry once piece er one. grocery bag. gettin closer to doin my bed linens but not there yet. um so. at 3:20 i started to get all ready. only to...
oh what *I* did? well what about what he did? my ex.
yeah so after I told him that. told my ex ‘if you ever do something like that again’ he went something like ‘well i’m sorry’ and either ‘that’s what I do’ or ‘but if you hadn’t.........’. No he k...
the scissors thing. [and no this doesn't have to do w/ SI.].
um. so my ex as i’ve mentioned was abusive. and. yeah it’s not something i talk about a whole lot. i hate being ‘that woman’ even though. unfortunately many are. i um. I won’t detail. I remember....
5 yrs.
actually a little over. it’s been 5 yrs. since the first date i had w/ evan actually a little over. [and no this isn’t one of those ‘they ran off and got married’ stories.]. cause our first date ...
finances.
so i’m in debt. yeah i’m not proud of it. i’m not like. hugely in debt or anything. um. at the last house meeting i asked like. for more clarification on where does the extra money go? i only get...
maybe that's it. well. another part of it. valerie thing.
at the risk of offending probably. a lot of people here....... So the other day we were talking and valerie told me one of her daughters goes to this christian school place. i don’t remember the ...
today.
so today i. well i really didn’t do much of anything. actually i did my laundry. by which i mean one grocery bag. i thought the lady would be back by 2:40/3 which was why. i didn’t let the washin...
yesterday.
yesterday I um went to the store. well first I went to the bank and before that I took my trash out. at a park that’s by walgreen’s well actually it’s in between walgreen’s and the store the one ...
Mon.
so yeah Mon. like I said I was at my mom’s. or maybe I didn’t, say. well anyway I was at my mom’s. so Valerie picked me up at 5. We went to Wendy’s to the store. it took us an hr. to get to wendy...
from the 4th - the 10th
on the 4th which was Sun. i. no no yes. ok so on the 4th which was sun. i did my laundry. on Mon. valerie i got together. we went to wendy’s then the store. on Tues. i went out. maybe i think. sa...
hi i'm back.
hi i’m back. [you’d left?]. yes um. so at the meeting on thurs. i discovered that apparently the lady her husband were coming back sun. yesterday as opposed to today. which is why i’m blogging ri...
today.
so today. was wed still is. i um. i. i went to the store other then eating before i went out i was actually a lot more prepared then i had been. yesterday yay. i’d checked the weather shot a text...
today. er the rest of yesterday. rather. actually.
um today. today was wed. er actually it still is. wed. so i. oh yeah i remember more of what happened yesterday. well apparently the lady had a class. well so i was up by 1:10 and she knocks on m...
yesterday.
um. yesterday was tues. what did i do yesterday? i did. stuff. [that’s helpful isn’t it.]. i um oh I went to the store. where i got. a luna bar, citrus vitaminwater which i didn’t end up liking a...
rest of yesterday.
yesterday i um. didn’t do my laundry. right cause well. the lady was out at the time she usually leaves and i wasn’t sure what time she’d get back so. um......so. i waited outside the house for v...
