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Custard Filled, Chocolate Glazed
My favorite doughnut. Had one after dinner. Speaking of unhealthy diets, I’m trying to ease up on the candy. I have massive sugar cravings at night. You see, night time was my (heavy) drinking ...
Sunday Was Pointless
Dozed on and off from like 3 AM till 5 AM till I had to take mom to work. No drug test so got a crappy sleep from like 10 till 3 in the afternoon. Got mom at 6. Went to the Chinese buffet for ...
Christmas Survey Snatched From Lasergirl
Does your family send out Christmas cards? Used to. Most of the extended family has all passed away. How soon do you start shopping? December 1st Who do you shop for? Mom mostly. I’ll usually g...
I Don't Want To Get Drunk
But I just want a few beers right now However… One turns to two, two turns to four, four turns to liquor, liquor turns to me crawling on the floor. I’m not even that much of a beer guy. Guinn...
It Ain't My Fault It's Six O' Clock In The Morning
I don’t want to dream anymore. Now rehab is creeping into my subconscious. Plus other oddities. I keep finding myself stranded in different areas in town and I’m having to hoof it on foot. Th...
This Shit Has Gotten Old
I keep getting emails from a temp service about jobs in Tennessee. I hit decline every time but they keep coming. It’s too far away for me! It was bad enough when I worked in Decatur and with ...
Salami 'N Crackers
Is what I just ate for a quick meal. Had to navigate the jungle that is my garage to get to the Christmas tree. Go figure I nearly tripped dragging it out and in a attempt to balance myself I je...
Sugar Is A Harsh Mistress
Normally I’d drink at night. Now when nighttime hits, usually after ten, I’m craving sweets. Lately it’s been chocolate. I’m disgusted with myself. Just the other night I polished off a king s...
AMA Q&A
What were the highlights and lowlights of my stay? Highlights: Structure 6 AM wake 6:30 meds and smoke 7 breakfast 8 first group 10 second smoke, second group 11:30 till 12:30 lunch 1 PM smoke 3 ...
Now THAT Was Funny (Plus AMA)
I returned to outpatient today. While on a smoke break Bene, the counselor, asked me what I thought of AB. I didn’t sugar coat it when I said she was a controlling, condescending bitch. She ag...
Here We Go Again
5:01 AM I’ve been on the PS3 since getting out on Wednesday. Started up my save file on Fallout 3 after dinner (ribeye, corn, green beans, baked zucchini) then when I looked at the clock it was ...
12:01 AM Pain
Yesterday I had my left foot tucked under my right leg while showing mom something on the PlayStation. Well, whenever I do that it’s basically crushing my foot (I wasn’t paying attention) and it...
1:44 AM
This is the latest I’ve been up in a month. After our excursion I spent the rest of the night gaming. Ate that sushi for dinner so I’ll save the leftovers for lunch. I’ve drank more coffee in ...
Good Day Back
Ma and I went to Blue Plate Cafe for breakfast. She ate, I didn’t as I had oatmeal before I left River Valley. It was nice to come home and cuddle up with Lily. She had purrs in store for me. ...
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Damn y’all write a lot. I’m back. The rehab facility was a joke. Most of the staff hated each other. Big push on God/higher power to get/stay sober. I kept a day to day journal, a lot of which is...
See Y'all In 30 Days!
6:04 AM Woke up thirty minutes ago. I’m having a smoke before I take a shower. All packed up. One duffel bag, one suitcase and a carry bag with my toiletries. I’m nervous. I’ll be fine thoug...
Feet N Knees
Mom took off today to spend time with me. We went walking around the historical district downtown. Houses there date back to the early 1800’s. A lot of Civil War history as we were occupied by...
Oh Look, Another Entry
It’s 1:36 AM and of course I’m awake. Just waiting on the trazodone to kick in. Mom took tomorrow (today?) off to hang before I go in on Monday. I’m browsing Google images for my next tattoo id...
Reflection
Seeing how I’m off to rehab Monday I’ve been thinking about my life. Namely when I finally admitted I was an alcoholic. Either 2009 or 2010. That was around the time I found this underrated dar...
Off My Chest Rant
I went to Krystal’s today for some cheese burger sliders. Had to stand around for ten minutes before the girl took my order then another THIRTY minutes to get my food. “Fast” food my ass! There ...
MONDAY MONDAY MONDAY!!!
At ten AM, I’ll be checking into rehab. Went out today and got the rest of the essentials I’ll be taking with me. Namely cigarettes heh.
Filet Mignon And Endless Errands
I am so tired. Managed roughly five hours of sleep. Hit the road about nine. Breakfast at Blue Plate, off to the library, then surgery center to clear paperwork, Walmart for my rehab essentials,...
2:12 AM
Even after taking a trazodone I can’t fucking sleep. 🤬 I have way too much shit to do in the morning and afternoon to deal with this right now.
Afternoon Adventure
Let me start by saying I’m super tired, the DayQuil has worn off (I’ve taken more) and I’m super full. My aunt called saying her car broke down last night and she needed a lift to it to get some...
Old Number 7
Just got off the phone with River Valley. My assessment has been processed and I’m number 7 on the list. Rehab here I come. Probably another few weeks though. I’m feeling better, sinuses are...
Book Description
I came on my own volition.
I am the man that got away.
Work -
Tonight I clocked in at 4:30 PM and it was suddenly Wednesday when I worked 6:45 AM to 6 PM with only an hour lunch break and on my feet the rest. I was trying to relieve Logan in the back who was frying chicken both for our loose case and boxed hot case so he could go to lunch. Instead I got mixed with a redneck who wanted a Philly steak and cheese. I made his sandwich to order only to be confronted with the elderly gentleman behind him. He, to this shit. o, wanted a Philly. I was annoyed. Angry. Granted chicken side cooking sucks At least you’re away from the customers. I can, “pretend”, like I’m cooking chicken in the back but dick around for ten minutes, which actually rarely happens. You learn to smile and accept this shit. Made him his sandwich, didn’t stop to ask the next customer if he needed help. Instead, went straight to the back and told Logan to take his lunch, I was taking over, box up what just came up out the fryer and we’re good.
It was just one of those days. People wonder why I get stoned before work.
I.
Am.
Robot.
Tell.
Me.
What.
Is.
Next.
I’m versatile.
Put me in any situation and I come victorious.
Even on the bad days.
So when I go the hardcore bitch mode of my assistant manager on Wednesday after my eleventh hour there. I got irate.
I know she does a job for two.
Her boss/my boss sucks ass.
But fuck....I’m part time.
If you want to bitch and yell about the shit that the full timers didn’t do…bitch to them.
DON’T MAKE ME DO THEIR FUCKING SHIT THE LAST HOUR I’M THERE!
I’ve been working for this slave camp for three and a half years.
I lost my insurance last year due to me being stupid and the store manager catching on. Which is actually a big blessing. I haven’t missed a day in a year.
But I’ve been there for every shift.
Sleep, no sleep?
Fuck it.
Show up for work.
The computer takes over on schedule and now I don’t qualify for our good insurance.
I have to take the government stuff?
OK.
I’m a democrat.
Lifelong.
BUT FUCK YOU OBAMA!
Don’t tell me what to do.
I’ll go another year without health insurance.
I want my good Blue Cross Blue Shield Back.
Make my job give me the hours back for insurance.
People close to me say I need to see a therapist.
After A.A. and an almost check in at rehab.
Maybe I do need anti-depressants.
This is a rant with no one I know reading this.
Its liberating.
I welcome ProseBox into my life.
