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by J.E.

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September 26, 2018

Revelation

It was pointed out last night, while talking about shenanigans my uncle used to get into, that all the male influences in my life have been drunks, addicts, liars, cheats and thieves. As the fri...


September 05, 2018

In The ER

Leg started hurting again yesterday so took my meds. Still hurt today so again, took meds, kept it elevated. Well…few hours and a handful of pills or two later, my knee is swelling and the pain...


August 24, 2018

Want My Young Body Back

Court was today…er technically Thursday as it is Friday morning. Another continuation. Lawyer said he’s arguing my case with the prosecutor to get me to walk. Well then, after getting my posse...


August 16, 2018

Nyah Nyah

I’m not leaving and you can’t make me. The order will be fulfilled. Company amongst old friends. Early nights and this weekend routine. Start anew, fresh again.


August 15, 2018

2:37 AM

My left elbow and hand are killing me tonight. The machine I’ve been off again on again running has parts that will sometimes get stuck so you gotta put a little force into it. After close to t...


August 09, 2018

Super Lawyer!

Well, went back to court today for that arrest back in May. Possession of a single joint. My lawyer somehow pulled off a miracle and got the charge dismissed. Now for my DUI charge. My new...


July 31, 2018

Back 2 Bed

Got up early(ish for me) for a meeting with the lawyer. He left me a voicemail saying to just call his office. Sweet, back to bed for thirty more minutes. XD Got a new furry baby today. Grey c...


July 30, 2018

Lazing

Had to work Saturday, it wasn’t bad. Noon to six PM. After, I treated mom out to the buffet we enjoy. I gorged myself on sushi, lo mein, and chicken with brocoli. So good. I’ve been tired tod...


July 28, 2018

[email protected]

I’ve been reading Doomed by Chuck Palahniuk. Just when I think he can’t get be more…traumatizing…to his characters from book to book, he does. This man is brilliant.


July 24, 2018

Go Suck An Egg, Betsy!

So…seems no one gave a damn I missed Saturday. My coworker Willie busted my chops most of the night but all my supervisor did was give me his card with number and e-mail address. Cool. Let’s ...


July 22, 2018

Dumbass...

I overslept and missed work. No call no show. I hope I’m not fired…


July 20, 2018

Well Fudge

Yep. Saturday, mandatory. I’ve already laid out an itinerary for the evening when I get off. I actually don’t care about working, really. All I do is just find meaningless distractions until I re...


July 17, 2018

Still Here

I just really don’t know what to write anymore… Seems the only thing I look forward to these days is getting into bed after work and reading. My decompress time. I’m in the middle of I, Jedi w...


July 05, 2018

Fourth

Went to my brother’s for an Indepence Day cookout. Had two burgers, good conversation with family and my brother’s gym partner. Didn’t stay for fireworks because mom had to check in on our inva...


June 29, 2018

Ergh

The joys of alcoholism. I took off today for court. Yet again put off for another two months. Went to the library and checked out a few Star Wars graphic novels. So, while reading them and ...


June 19, 2018

Sonofabitch

New job started today. Was happy to be back on a forty hour work week. Yeah…funny that, haha. Supervisor told me it’s five twelves at sixty hours a week. Either the lady at the agency didn’t k...


June 17, 2018

Tip Me On My Side

Went to the Chinese buffet tonight, so stuffed. Ate a lot of sushi and chicken. Woke up sorta early today and cleaned house. Really needed it. Tomorrow I’m going to attempt to fight this heat...


June 15, 2018

Strut Baby Strut

The lady from the temp agency called to let me know I’ll start work Monday, not tomorrow. Groovy. Not gonna lie, there were some hotties in traffic court today. Ha. Found myself checking out a...


June 13, 2018

Hot Damn Sauce

August eighth next court date. Ugh. Went to Po Boy Factory for lunch. Crab cake basket with cajun fries. The house made HDS is so freakin’ good. Spicy mayo concoction. Split the crab and shr...


June 12, 2018

Stuffed

Yesterday I saw the lawyer and he said he’s trying to get both charges wrapped up into one so fingers crossed. Start a new job on Friday. Not the one I interviewed twice for which in all hones...


June 11, 2018

Slick Shoes

Decent night of rest and I feel loads better. Goonies is on. I want a pirate skeleton piano, just saying. Watching this as an adult, One Eyed Willy (the penis pirate) and his crew must have be...


June 11, 2018

No Solids Left

I’ve been having a slight fever today with sinus issues and constant diarrhea. I know, graphic. Really feel like shit. Woke up today feeling good and even got out of the house for a bit but as...


June 08, 2018

R.I.P. Anthony Bourdain

I’ve read most of his books, watched almost every episode of his shows. Really loved his work. Sad day…


June 07, 2018

Solo = No No

Busy day. Chauffeured mom and my aunt around today. Few thrift stores, got two Terry Brooks books. Aunt bought us lunch at this higher end steak house called Conner’s. That sirloin was SO dam...


June 05, 2018

Follow Up

Second interview for same company Thursday. Guess I did something right. Got my hair cut today. Buzzed short. Now I feel constantly cold heh.


Book Description

I came on my own volition.
I am the man that got away.

Work -
Tonight I clocked in at 4:30 PM and it was suddenly Wednesday when I worked 6:45 AM to 6 PM with only an hour lunch break and on my feet the rest. I was trying to relieve Logan in the back who was frying chicken both for our loose case and boxed hot case so he could go to lunch. Instead I got mixed with a redneck who wanted a Philly steak and cheese. I made his sandwich to order only to be confronted with the elderly gentleman behind him. He, to this shit. o, wanted a Philly. I was annoyed. Angry. Granted chicken side cooking sucks At least you’re away from the customers. I can, “pretend”, like I’m cooking chicken in the back but dick around for ten minutes, which actually rarely happens. You learn to smile and accept this shit. Made him his sandwich, didn’t stop to ask the next customer if he needed help. Instead, went straight to the back and told Logan to take his lunch, I was taking over, box up what just came up out the fryer and we’re good.

It was just one of those days. People wonder why I get stoned before work.

I.
Am.
Robot.

Tell.
Me.
What.
Is.
Next.

I’m versatile.
Put me in any situation and I come victorious.
Even on the bad days.

So when I go the hardcore bitch mode of my assistant manager on Wednesday after my eleventh hour there. I got irate.

I know she does a job for two.
Her boss/my boss sucks ass.
But fuck....I’m part time.
If you want to bitch and yell about the shit that the full timers didn’t do…bitch to them.
DON’T MAKE ME DO THEIR FUCKING SHIT THE LAST HOUR I’M THERE!
I’ve been working for this slave camp for three and a half years.
I lost my insurance last year due to me being stupid and the store manager catching on. Which is actually a big blessing. I haven’t missed a day in a year.

But I’ve been there for every shift.
Sleep, no sleep?
Fuck it.
Show up for work.
The computer takes over on schedule and now I don’t qualify for our good insurance.
I have to take the government stuff?
OK.
I’m a democrat.
Lifelong.
BUT FUCK YOU OBAMA!
Don’t tell me what to do.
I’ll go another year without health insurance.
I want my good Blue Cross Blue Shield Back.
Make my job give me the hours back for insurance.

People close to me say I need to see a therapist.
After A.A. and an almost check in at rehab.
Maybe I do need anti-depressants.

This is a rant with no one I know reading this.
Its liberating.

I welcome ProseBox into my life.