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Minor Accomplishment
Seven days sober. I’m taking the rest of the week off from work due to my foot aching after two days of standing. Oh well. The weekend of solitude I fear.
1:03 AM
Hm. I’ve officially have been sober all weekend. Haven’t done that in a few months. Little steps. Currently munching on late night milk and Oreo’s. Join me?
Ribs? Updated!
Aphrodisiac or sleep aid? Went back to the clinic when they opened and the NP gave me prednisone 10mg. It has done wonders and I can walk again. Met up with Peacock for an adventure in the aft...
🤷 Gave Up Tonight 🤷
I’ve got the habit of wiping off the material to load the vise in the machine. You usually don’t want any debris that can make it pop up or stick out a little. First shift didn’t do it. Also, ...
Delta Variant World Tour
Get the fucking vaccine. Wear a fucking mask. Don’t be fucking selfish. We’re just asking that you give a damn, it’s not too much to ask.
Freeman Strut
Court was at one PM today. My amazing lawyer was able to get the charges dismissed. Still had to pay almost $400 in court costs. I actually thought about doing the Joker dance out of the court...
Sir Digby Chicken Caeser
A friend introduced me to That Mitchell And Webb Look a while back. I can’t help but crack up during these skits.
I Ain't Never Gonna Let You In
Been playing God of War, listening to music. Going through the motions rather. Two things at once while a third, reflecting, has brought me here. Came to face a harsh reality on a few things I ...
Where Is My Mind?
Don’t exactly know if I slept today. Called the boss around eleven AM to let him know insomnia took hold of me and I wouldn’t be making it in for OT day. Mom called out due to pain. Ended up ...
3:30 AM
I need to lotion up, my skin is dry. My back has been hurting throughout the day and I don’t know why. Working tomorrow to make up for Monday ‘cause I ate up my sick leave. Bah! It won’t be so...
5:10 AM
Spent the rest of the day relaxing, taking my BP meds and slept a few good hours. Around 10:30 ish I started a book and just about five minutes ago finished said book. Roughly six to seven hour...
Physical Health
Visit to the doc got me scared. BP 190 over 107. As of today, I’m no longer a smoker or drinker. I’ll work on all the bad food later. For a guy with a history of self harm, I don’t wanna die. N...
Stinky Poo
I’m using the restroom the office people use. It’s air conditioned. XD If there is one uncomfortable feeling I hate it’s being sweaty while doing the business. I was stupid, again, last night an...
Soup To Nuts
I woke up early this morning with diarrhea. Then had to again around one PM. Then two-thirty. Puked my Arby’s sandwich on my way out the door to work. Real sour stomach so yeah, I had to call ...
Haven't We Met Before?
Ok. My super got fired. A week or so later… I was first put in assembly I worked less than a half day and left. Called out a lot and went on a bender…for more than four days…straight. Went back t...
What's Been Really Going On
The crap at work threw me into a dark downward spiral. Between the heat, the change up in what I’d be doing and a few other factors I jumped right into a bottle and stayed there. Every Off Day (...
The Stuff I Think Of
I’ve been listening to too much Bill Burr at work. I’d like to see a race between a little person and a fat kid with Down’ s. Not on the sidelines either. Adjust a go pro to focus on their head...
Fudge
The fourth came and went. Went to my brother’s for a cookout. His wife had a nurse friend over with a highly autistic sixteen year old. Decent kid. Apparently he feels comfortable at my bro’s...
Good Ol' Insomnia
Got off at two. Showered, ate, relaxed on couch. Set alarm for noon as OT on Friday starts at one thirty. Here it is, eight thirty-seven and wide the fuck awake. I already called work and ga...
Timer's
When bored at home, set a timer for a specific amount of time then, see how much you can accomplish in said time. I learned that from a ADHD YouTube video. I absolutely despise my dirty kitchen ...
Rum Dipped Cigars
Last pay day I made a trip to Humidor Pipe Shop and bought a pack of Al Capone’s. European style mini cigars. Yeah, I quit smoking but these are a treat to me. Right now I’m kicking back after...
Cause For Alarm
First, the old super gets fired. Second, the QC got (who came in way too many times noticeably messed up on drugs) got driven to the urgent care one night for an instant drug test. Fired. Today o...
Father's Day
My dad cared about his friends and his own self being. Then he died. Best gift ever. I do miss you, just not as much as you think I would.
Aches And Pains
Worked pretty hard Thursday night. Woke up Friday hurting. Pains still consist now but taking meds for it. My skin is hot to the touch and my heart is thudding in my chest. Yeah, I’m not feelin...
Differential Dimensions
I’d bone the Parker actor from the State Farm commercials. During my hiatus from life the past…seven?…days, I’ve been reading a Philip K. Dick short story collection. I really enjoy his work, ...
Book Description
I came on my own volition.
I am the man that got away.
Work -
Tonight I clocked in at 4:30 PM and it was suddenly Wednesday when I worked 6:45 AM to 6 PM with only an hour lunch break and on my feet the rest. I was trying to relieve Logan in the back who was frying chicken both for our loose case and boxed hot case so he could go to lunch. Instead I got mixed with a redneck who wanted a Philly steak and cheese. I made his sandwich to order only to be confronted with the elderly gentleman behind him. He, to this shit. o, wanted a Philly. I was annoyed. Angry. Granted chicken side cooking sucks At least you’re away from the customers. I can, “pretend”, like I’m cooking chicken in the back but dick around for ten minutes, which actually rarely happens. You learn to smile and accept this shit. Made him his sandwich, didn’t stop to ask the next customer if he needed help. Instead, went straight to the back and told Logan to take his lunch, I was taking over, box up what just came up out the fryer and we’re good.
It was just one of those days. People wonder why I get stoned before work.
I.
Am.
Robot.
Tell.
Me.
What.
Is.
Next.
I’m versatile.
Put me in any situation and I come victorious.
Even on the bad days.
So when I go the hardcore bitch mode of my assistant manager on Wednesday after my eleventh hour there. I got irate.
I know she does a job for two.
Her boss/my boss sucks ass.
But fuck....I’m part time.
If you want to bitch and yell about the shit that the full timers didn’t do…bitch to them.
DON’T MAKE ME DO THEIR FUCKING SHIT THE LAST HOUR I’M THERE!
I’ve been working for this slave camp for three and a half years.
I lost my insurance last year due to me being stupid and the store manager catching on. Which is actually a big blessing. I haven’t missed a day in a year.
But I’ve been there for every shift.
Sleep, no sleep?
Fuck it.
Show up for work.
The computer takes over on schedule and now I don’t qualify for our good insurance.
I have to take the government stuff?
OK.
I’m a democrat.
Lifelong.
BUT FUCK YOU OBAMA!
Don’t tell me what to do.
I’ll go another year without health insurance.
I want my good Blue Cross Blue Shield Back.
Make my job give me the hours back for insurance.
People close to me say I need to see a therapist.
After A.A. and an almost check in at rehab.
Maybe I do need anti-depressants.
This is a rant with no one I know reading this.
Its liberating.
I welcome ProseBox into my life.
