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3:11 AM. I’ve been up since....fuck I don’t remember. My eyes are still burning even after putting in some drops. I’m up watching Icons on Vice. This one’s about Marvel trying to get films m...


March 21, 2023

Dry, Red Eyes

I slept like shit last night. My eyes are dried out. Very tired but still awake. Got a pharmacy’s worth of prescriptions at the psych doc’s office today. Imma head out. Nite.


March 20, 2023

Uptown Funk

I’ve felt empty all day. These days happen where I call it being in a funk. Even went for a walk this afternoon to try and clear my head. I see Dr. Gilbert at 10 tomorrow morning. Need my meds r...


March 19, 2023

Instacart 🤦

I don’t know what licensing deal you signed, but don’t use my favorite King Khan & BBQ Show song for you commercials. I’ve seen them twice live and they’re amazing, not advertisements.


March 18, 2023

Dutch Has A Plan

Title is a reference to Red Dead Redemption 2. How’d court go? Well, the lawyer got my judge switched to the one who runs what they call mental health court. First I need to see my psychiatrist...


March 17, 2023

Dr. Manhattan

I feel this…


March 14, 2023

Three In One Day? Huzzah!

So much for getting groceries. Her arthritic leg is acting up and my gout foot aches, walking is difficult. We did do our bank/pay bills crap and I bought us lunch a Big Papa Gyros. I am stuff...


Need to drop off paperwork at the Medical Mall, do some banking, drive mom around to get groceries. Then court tomorrow. I’m pretty sure you could stick a lump of coal up my butt and get a dia...


March 14, 2023

Depression Sleep

I’ve been asleep all day. No energy. I did eat some egg drop soup. I’m nervous about court but I’m trying to stay positive but it’s so difficult. I’ve been talking the new friend about it to help...


Okay, technically it’s 1:33. Forgot about DST. Stretched out watching the Psych marathon on HMM and dicking around on Reddit. I finished (finally) The Amazing Maurice. Funny book and now becau...


March 10, 2023

When One Door Closes

Break in through the window. Last night, even though I felt like crap and had the shakes, turned out really good. I made a new close friend. Tonight will be chicken pot pie. Still awake sinc...


March 10, 2023

1:35 AM

First not off the sauce in a week. Of course I can’t sleep. I’ve not read anymore on The Amazing Maurice however I did best God of War: Ragnarok. Odin kills Thor when he refuses to kill me. T...


March 09, 2023

What The Hell Did I Eat?

Acid reflux. Haven’t had it this bad in well over a year. I’m spitting fireballs over here! Antacid and more ice water is in store. Plus, I need a good back scritchin’. I’m itchy.


When the Armed Forces lowered their standards I seriously thought of joining the Marine Corp. They are hardcore badasses. I still find myself watching boot camp videos. As a guy who has been ...


March 08, 2023

I KNEW IT!

Despite my better judgement I kept talking to Reddit girl. Just a few minutes ago she asked for $100 to keep her internet on. Now I’ve uninstalled the app I was using and blocked everything else…...


March 08, 2023

Okay So!

I want to lay on my stomach and have a cat or two stretch out on my back and make biscuits aka knead on me. It’d feel great right now. Breakfast was Cheerios with sliced bananas. Twas great.


March 07, 2023

Ron DeSantis Is Coming...

America is so fucked....


March 06, 2023

Smoke

Late dinner, grilling burgers. Got some sour cream and onion chips. Y’all come eat. We ran a bunch of errands today then came back home where boredom set in so we made a trip to Target. They’r...


March 05, 2023

Typical

I feel fucking awful. Woke up at 2:30 AM royally hungover. Yeah yeah stop drinking. Live my life for a day (with my memories) and wonder why you’re still alive. Cue the cat: Smokey just laid ...


March 04, 2023

Today I...

Tried Korean short ribs for the first time at Viethouse. Oh my god they were succulent! Came with steamed rice, cucumber slices, sliced carrots, two slices of tomatoes and lettuce. Will defini...


March 03, 2023

9:45 AM

It’s too early for me to be awake. 😁 Seriously, I’ve had crap sleep all week. I could go for a breakfast burrito, glass of orange juice, follow up glass of water and about four more hours of sle...


March 02, 2023

Figures...

It’s either a guy or a bot fucking with me on Reddit. That’s not cool to play on someone’s loneliness. Ex Machina broke my heart for the geek who was played by the A.I. robot. I want to watch...


March 02, 2023

Gosh Darn!

The sausage and three bean soup was delicious but my god the heartburn. Tomatoes effing kill me sometimes and there was a whole can in it, seasoned with basil, garlic and onion. I like garlic b...


March 01, 2023

Lazy Night

Been sleeping on and off today. Mom is not feeling well at all and hurts all over. I keep telling her to take a nice hot bath. A girl from Reddit messaged me last week. We been chatting dail...


February 28, 2023

Failure

Tonight is number three I’ve been in the throes of vodka. Look up the lyrics.


Book Description

I came on my own volition.
I am the man that got away.

Work -
Tonight I clocked in at 4:30 PM and it was suddenly Wednesday when I worked 6:45 AM to 6 PM with only an hour lunch break and on my feet the rest. I was trying to relieve Logan in the back who was frying chicken both for our loose case and boxed hot case so he could go to lunch. Instead I got mixed with a redneck who wanted a Philly steak and cheese. I made his sandwich to order only to be confronted with the elderly gentleman behind him. He, to this shit. o, wanted a Philly. I was annoyed. Angry. Granted chicken side cooking sucks At least you’re away from the customers. I can, “pretend”, like I’m cooking chicken in the back but dick around for ten minutes, which actually rarely happens. You learn to smile and accept this shit. Made him his sandwich, didn’t stop to ask the next customer if he needed help. Instead, went straight to the back and told Logan to take his lunch, I was taking over, box up what just came up out the fryer and we’re good.

It was just one of those days. People wonder why I get stoned before work.

I.
Am.
Robot.

Tell.
Me.
What.
Is.
Next.

I’m versatile.
Put me in any situation and I come victorious.
Even on the bad days.

So when I go the hardcore bitch mode of my assistant manager on Wednesday after my eleventh hour there. I got irate.

I know she does a job for two.
Her boss/my boss sucks ass.
But fuck....I’m part time.
If you want to bitch and yell about the shit that the full timers didn’t do…bitch to them.
DON’T MAKE ME DO THEIR FUCKING SHIT THE LAST HOUR I’M THERE!
I’ve been working for this slave camp for three and a half years.
I lost my insurance last year due to me being stupid and the store manager catching on. Which is actually a big blessing. I haven’t missed a day in a year.

But I’ve been there for every shift.
Sleep, no sleep?
Fuck it.
Show up for work.
The computer takes over on schedule and now I don’t qualify for our good insurance.
I have to take the government stuff?
OK.
I’m a democrat.
Lifelong.
BUT FUCK YOU OBAMA!
Don’t tell me what to do.
I’ll go another year without health insurance.
I want my good Blue Cross Blue Shield Back.
Make my job give me the hours back for insurance.

People close to me say I need to see a therapist.
After A.A. and an almost check in at rehab.
Maybe I do need anti-depressants.

This is a rant with no one I know reading this.
Its liberating.

I welcome ProseBox into my life.